Wednesday, 30 August 2006

Paint illustrations

Well, since I can't scan my hand-drawns, I shall post my illustrations done with Paint (yes, that paint that's so pathetic) and my new mouse that always go outta control (Hate the new mouse coz I cannot draw properly. hmph!)
This is the first one, and it's called froggie. Yep, juz froggie. Actually, I think it'll look nicer without the blue background, but well, it's not really my concern. But as fred had said, it's kinda plain. But again, it's not my concern. hahaha....
Oh and how much I love this one! It's called Robo xD. I think it's so damn cute larz! ok... have to control myself a bit. *ahem* ok.. yeah, I love this a lot and I hope you'll like it too xD.

Regarding him...

是我不懂得把握机会,还是这是命中注定?
Sometimes, I feel that the chance is there, but I'm passive. I always wait for him to do something and seldom am the one who initiates. Why? Because I keep thinking that he'll find me a bother if I initiate a chat or sth. So to prevent this kinda stuff from happening, why not let him do the job? But when he does the job, I didn't react very well too. Sigh...
If all that had happened was due to fate, I really would like to say, "FATE! CAN YOU STOP PLAYING GAMES WITH ME?"

Tuesday, 29 August 2006

Inspiring experience

Came online one day -- I think it was Sunday -- and bumped into this video on Youtube, featuring this illustrator drawing his stuff. From that video, I didn't really got "WOW"-ed, but after I visited the link it provided, I "WHOOAAA"-ed. Haha.. Yep, those of you in my class might have heard me blabbering abt him several times a day. He's none other than Alex Noriega. I'm here introducing an illustrator to you! I think i'll be doing this more often, digging out artists from the net. I want a scanner too, so that I can join in the posting of lots and lotsa illustrations! Scanner for my christmas present anyone? :)

And here's one of his illustrations during his free time :)


Talking about scanner, imagine all the tech tools that I need, or rather want (since i'm not really an artist now)... Scanner, Wacom tablet, Photoshop, and more... :X Sigh... where am I gonna get all the money. When it comes to this kinda situation, I really envy those rich brats who don't even know how to appreciate what they've got. Well, who am I to talk bad about them when i'm not rich but too don't know how to appreciate what I've got! Haiz...

Time when I don't wanna talk to him, or am too busy to chat, he approaches me; When I feel like talking to him, he doesn't find me (neither do i find him). Call it fate? Sigh... When I don't wanna see him, I see him almost everywhere I go. When I long to see him, he's no where to be seen. Guess we're just not destined, sad. Bahhh... shall not talk about him. HMPH!

Got more chunking notes from econs. It's microeconomics now and the notes are not micro at all. It's like THIS THICK. Haha.. of course you won't know how thick it is, but that's not my concern. :X

11 days from now and I just lost my momentum during the weekend. Blame it on kinia for returning? xD Or blame it on Alex Noriega for inspiring me to draw more? (erm... I actually completed 2 pieces within 2 days after visiting his blog, the third one's almost finished too) Hopefully, I'll be able to upload my illustrations soon too. My only solution now is to ask one of my friends to help me scan, but everyone's busy now. Oh, or I can ask Mr. Lee, but he's busy too. xD Or I can go to NMA lab to scan, but i'm busy too. :X

Tomorrow's GP prelim and I don't even feel like touching GP. My life's almost revolving around econs now when I only count those times I study. >.<>

Sunday, 27 August 2006

从前 vs 未来

古文明总给人一种浪漫的感觉,很有文化气息,很雅致,也很美。今天的主体灵感来自于《海贼王》。你一定觉得很奇怪吧,两者之间有何共同点?其实,是读者寄的画作,里头有一幅的背景是旧式的火车,而尾田先生的想法是: “还是旧式的火车好!”之类的。突然,就让我想起了古代的文明。
古时候的房子,古时候的井,古时候的艺术品,古时候许许多多的东西,不需要人的陪衬,便能显得出它的高雅,华丽气质。但若问起比较现代化的东西,并不是说所有物品都失去了这特别的气质,只是显得比较冷漠。未来,更不用说了。设计中的“未来”总显得很干净,但也很冷漠。白色,银色,塑胶,铁片。。。 我们对于未来,总会想起的颜色,便是如此。
是否,人也是如此呢?是否,从前的人们比现代的人们来的浪漫,有文化,有情调,有气质。。。或许吧。我是个活在现代人,对于过去,我不完全了解,最多也只能凭着书上说的。对于未来,我一无所知,最多也只能听科学家说的,抑或听听人们对未来的“梦想”。美丽的语言,崇高的礼节,悠久的文化,到了现在,已不再是生活的一部分,各成了一种科目。那么,未来呢?人们以后是否仍会面对面的,保留着那种特殊的感情,还是会把“足不出户”挂在嘴边呢?
未来会如何,要看现在。
我到底想说什么?我也不清楚。

Saturday, 26 August 2006

GB has many sore losers

Haha.. yeah, i changed my blogskin again, but this time round, i think i'm gonna stick with it for a while :P

Actually, I like this skin. I've seen this skin before, but back then, i was too lazy to change e colour of e fonts to suit a black background (my bg was white previously), but now that i've changed e font colours, i guess it's alright :D
Had some gunbound juz now, not a good day today. Played with a sore loser who started scolding me a bitch juz because he lost badly. Well, this kinda person's not uncommon in online games, so i merely ignored. Then, when i finally lost to him, he said "you lose bitch". And, i continued to ignore him... Well, i have to admit tt i was getting to be angry, but well, not angry enough to scold. If I start scolding, it really means you're getting on my nerves. Finally, he made me reached that peak by saying that i'm a noob, juz not as friendly as that. :X Hmm.. i don't mind being called a noob actually, but it's just that it's HIM calling me a noob! So, I scolded him back, saying tt he's not any better (but i'm friendlier than him), and he started scolding some stuff. Like.. urghh.. and then he scolded "you asian piece of shit" LIKE WHAT?! so i scolded him back "you aussie piece of shit". I then felt tt i'm being unfair to the other aussies, so i added "you're a disgrace to all australians". HA! He said that asia hates me. Well, all i can say's that he's a sore loser. :) Luckily, the nx guy who came in was SUPER NICE! so i got happy again xD
met up with mama and all today! :) had fun? Ermm.. can't say tt we had fun, but it's not a moment to be missed because it's not often that we can all meet up like that. Oh.. Kinia grew taller. *pouts* she's 172 cm now *pouts even more*. 172!! MY IDEAL HEIGHT! And she's actually in third year uni now, when she's just 17. hmm... she's graduating at 19, tt's e age we get into e U, if i can even make it there.
Guilt: Haven't been studying today besides doing a few mcq questions from e econ tys.
I'm hungry

Thursday, 24 August 2006

what's up with us?!

Hmm... towards the end of last year, I was reminded by my dad during a visit to NSC that I was once an interesting subject to the many doctors and trainees there. Well, apparently I had some skin disease when I was bornt and it's kinda rare, i mean, it's very rare. o.O Haha... yeah, and according to my dad, the doctors were like asking e trainees to look at me because not every doctor gets a chance to see my kinda condition. =S Hahaha... rare baby. Well, but i'm healthy now =)
Alright, so that's just me with the rare skin disease when I was bornt. So, I just really wonder what's up with my family? You see, I get this really rare skin disease, and now my maternal grandmother gets this never-seen-before cancer. (Why aren't we this lucky when buying 4D or toto?) You see, one of my uncles just called to talk to my mum. The first topic that came into my mind was "ah ma's cancer". Well, it's quite an easy guess, and it's correct. So, actually my grandmother had visited tan tock seng 2 times already, do find out what kinda cancer she's down with. The first time, the doctors didn't manage to find out, so they needed more sample. Some grumbles from our side, but then again, we're not experts in this faculty, can't really say much. So, they went for a second time, and we waited for the results. That's why my uncle called. They are still unable to find out what kind of cancer my grandmother's under. So my mum suggested in the phone to ask for the medical reports from this "lousy hospital" and visit general hospital to try our luck again. And the thing is that, according to the doctor whom my uncle had spoken to, more than one doctor's looking into this case, and more than one hospital is investigating. My uncle had been told that more than 10 doctors from the different hospitals in Singapore had sat down together to discuss this matter, and that they had never came accross this cancer before.
So the concern now is that we're asked to let them try a third time and the possible consequences that it'll lead to. I guess the first concern will be the welfare of my grandmother. You know old people are usually passive about operations and check-ups, moreover, to endure the pain for a third time! What's more, for 2 times, they had been unable to find the root of the problem, so are they able to find that out this time round? The doctors had actually admitted that there is no guarantee that they'll find it out this time. So, it's kinda unfair. And i doubt she'll want to go for a third time. But I think it's really up to her.
The second concern, will most probably be the financial part. We're not rich; even though there are 9 siblings to share the burden, each family does not have that much of a surplus to subsidise they're no-guarantee investigations. But I really wonder, when my mum told me about what went on through e phone, if they can pay for all these investigations, or at least subsidise us because it does not only benefit us. But well, it's back to the first concern, the danger that my grandmother faces if she goes through it the third time (though I don't really know what danger it poses) and her fear.
Sigh... It's kinda problematic now.
It's my dad's birthday today. We had planned to eat out. But in the end, they bought food home. It's partly our fault larz, my bro and I. :P Well, I slept after reading econs for a short while, slept for more than 2 hours. And my bro fell asleep after dota too. Haha... so we end up eating at home. But well, I guess to him, as long as we're together, it doesn't really matter. =)
It's dancing tomorrow, and gathering the day after tomorrow. =) YAY!

Friday, 18 August 2006

FAMILY :D

Kinia's coming back!! :D It's been such a long time since we've last seen her. She messaged us yesterday. Kah Yin (aka piggy) first received e message. But she didn't receive e first part of e message, so it didn't sound right.. Haha.. I checked my phone some time later and found out tt she messaged me too, and i got the full message :D. So we got to find out that she's in indo now, and she'll be coming to singapore!! With Kinia coming back, it'll mean that we'll be having a clique gathering in gwc! YAY!!! It's hard to find time for everyone, but with such a rare friend coming back to visit us, we HAVE to make ourselves free. :) Even if it means i have to skip dance for it. Hahaha.. kidding. Think i'll be going for the friday lesson bah.
Had been seriously attempting to study recently (not today) and i can't say that it's been successful, but at least i'm improving. I've a lot of things to learn for econs, a lot of things to practise for math, a lot of things that i should know for GP, and a lot of things to memorise for chinese. yeah.. that's pretty much it, if i exclude all the drawing practices that I have to engage myself in occasionally so that I might have the hope of getting into that course, and all the dance practices I have (though I've just went last sat after 3 weeks of absence).
Came online, saw that he's online. After activating windows media player, he's gone. Well... fate. Haha... Leopold Stokowski rocks! Hahaha.. THat's so random. :P
Just found out today that Eileen had been kinda scared of me before i started to really talk with her and xiao wei this year. She told me that even during e chinese new year period, she had been a bit scared. Her reasons being that the look i give her makes her think that I don't like her, and of course, the intimidating aura I give off when i'm not smiling. Ha! What can i say... she's not the first one to point that out to me. But i'll look silly if i smile all the time right? Well.. heck it.
Just 75 days to A levels. I regret that i didn't manage to pluck up courage to retain voluntarily. SIgh...

Saturday, 12 August 2006

bwahahaha...

Why the math teacher cried
That's the title of an email i received from my friend. But when i opened it, I laughed like mad... HAHAHA... i guess the teacher laughed too hard and tears came out. HAHAHAHAHAHA... and i'm here to post that email here so that I won't be clogging up some other ppl's inbox.

E X P A N D

Wednesday, 9 August 2006

Images

Eh.. not exactly a blogging day. :D juz came to post some pictures. Erm. actually, i just got this pictures from fred. And they are pictures i drew while chatting with him on msn. :D Erm.. I drew them with the mouse, so please forgive me for the wibbly-wobbly lines, and the horrible proportions.
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I do remember this cat. Kind of. Haha... I love drawing cats... there's my usual miaow miaow, but this is a different cat. Inspired by that little black cat I used to hang on my phone, and which i lost in school. The black cat, i mean. :(
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oh ho ho.. i do remember this little girl. Don't know why. Haha.. he sent me this some time ago actually, but he has forgotten about it, and sent me again today. But i didn't forget, so i rejected. Hahaha..
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This one i don't have impression. Actually, when fred sent me this, I was kinda surprised, like "You mean I drew this?!" Hahaha.. I find it quite nice eh. Plus point: I drew it with a mouse!

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Erm.. this is kinda my usual drawings on msn bah. I always draw the side views on msn. Have no idea why i can actually draw a better sideview with a mouse than with a pencil/pen. *raise eyebrows* Erm... don't have impression coz I always draw this. Haha..

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Now that I've presented some of my drawings to you, would you mind commenting? Come on, i know you won't mind that right.. :D

Tuesday, 8 August 2006

无声的对话

。。。无声的对话。。。
这五个字来自昨天傍晚,我在地铁列车上所碰到的两位聋哑人士。
看见他们俩之间的“对话”,
突然就出现了这五个字。
同时,脑子里也出现了两个人的画面。
他们相互看着对方,
进行无声的对话。
不记得画面的细节,
只知道它带点伤感。
。。。 。。。 。。。 。。。
第一篇,换来的是一句话。
第二篇,换来的是两个字。
第三篇,换来的是。。。
毫无回应。
这默默的冷淡,
让我肯定了一切的猜测。
虽然有时候,总希望我能提起勇气,告诉他所有的事情,但是,我知道就算是以后再也没机会见面了,我也不敢开口的。常听到一些故事中的主角,暗恋的对象其实也暗恋着主角。只因为主角始终未开口,所以他也没主动。这凄美的情节,毕竟只存在于故事中。他不可能跟我经历同一种痛苦,对他的爱慕,不可能会回来的。为什么?看他看见我是地反应,听他跟我说话的感觉,读他回我的简讯,电邮,所表现出的漠不关心。。。 一切的一切,都在叫我放弃。要就此松手,并非易事。当中的艰辛,痛苦,与泪水,足以让你断肠。

Monday, 7 August 2006

Thank you!

A big
Thank You
to all who bothered to respond
Ermm.. It's kinda funny to say this. Told zek tt e favourite is orange and he suggested we submit everything. -_-" haha.. but nvm. At least i get to know the public's taste
:)
Feel that i'm obliged to inform you people about this competition, though i doubt that you all will read this entry. Haha.. it's actually organised by "The New Paper", and I think it's for BeYourselfDay. *raise eyebrows?* Haha... Yeah. If i win, I'll get a canon camera. But I doubt i'll win. :/ Nevertheless, I still have to thank all those who had helped. Sincere.
Besides this TNP BeYourselfDay competition, I might also be submitting my drawings for Noise Singapore. :) Once again, I doubt I'll get anything much. Doubt my pieces will be chosen, but it's still a learning experience. Yep. But if they were to be selected, I guess I'll be more encouraged and motivated to study coz i'll be more determined to get into NTU. Haha.. what an excuse. But that doesn't help me get selected does it... Sigh...
Well, so just wish me luck. :)
GOOD LUCK!!
I helped you ppl say le. :P So bhb right.. Hahaha...
And Gerald saw my new hairstyle for the first time today. :/ He said i look like ying tao xiao wan zi. o.O Heh............ Some more is e black version of xiao wan zi lorz.. -_-" And he actually thought that the back of everyone's head is flat... Luckily JJ corrected him. Hahaha...

Saturday, 5 August 2006

Illustrations

Hey people, I have some drawings here that need comments urgently. Please tell me which one is nicer. Preferrably provide your reasons too. Juz tag at e board your comments. Thank you! Oh and i need it urgently for a competition. So, that's how urgent it is.

Yup, just tell me green, blue or orange. Thanks!

Friday, 4 August 2006

Regarding academics

Hmm... due to the fact that our whole class is weak in first ODE, we had to do worksheets on it. So, we did. And my momentum was broken since that one friday when i skipped school due to stress? depression? Whatever. So, Miss Chua gave me a hard time, telling me off, nagging and all. I know that she's just concerned, but she had put it in such a way that i'm this cocky girl who thinks that her 1st ODE is so great that I don't have to do these worksheets, when in fact, I'm just plain lazy. But one thing she mentioned is kinda true, she had said that from the answers i gave in the worksheets, she could see my attitude towards it. And you might ask, why did i say that it's kinda true? Well, because right after i got told off, I did worksheets 5 to 9 (when all others are already at 10 and above =P). Erm.. that's not the point. The point is, before she scolded me, my worksheets came back with lotsa circles and crosses. Worksheet 4 came back ending with a "Poor!". And what happened to worksheets 5 to 9? I only made one mistake, one careless mistake where i forgot to write the minus sign. Hahaha.. guess her method worked on me. But I guess that only works for math. =P
Generally, I'm still lazy.
As for economics, sigh.. By saying that I spend minimal time reading up on econs, it is an understatement. Yep! It's that bad. I've been trying to read the policies. I've completed monetary policy, moved on to fiscal. Please don't "wow" me because i've only read through. Mind you, let me emphasise again, it's READ THROUGH. Since reading through does not equate to studying, I haven't studied a bit! Oh no!! Yeah.. not that I'm not aware that there's only like 90 days left? It's just that i can't bring myself to work.
BUT
I've made the first step to improve my grades. I joined the tuesday's REAP. And guess what, I'm under Mr. Chu!! YAY!!! I bet he's strict enough to make me improve by at least one grade. Which means, I can pass econs for prelim 2!! HOORAY!! But of course, I'm hungry for more than just an E grade. Something he said really made me feel "YEAH! that's the way!!". He said, if you're not going to do the assignment, never mind, you'll just be kicked out of this programme and you won't have a chance to come back! That totally will make me do my work because it's really a rare chance to be taught by him. Although Tuesday's REAP is not as great as monday's, it's better than nothing. =)
Chinese? Hmm... It's still quite fine now. Not scoring, but passing. Well.. Effort required to score!
All in all, this is a reflection entry to make me realise how far I am from my ultimate goal. Because besides all these academics matters, I still gotta brush up my drawing skills, polish my brainstorming power, boost my creativity juice, and whatever's required to get into ADM. Joining competitions is one of the many ways. But it can boost your confidence level if you win, and make you feel so inferior if you don't win.

Thursday, 3 August 2006

Whatever!

Erm.. Guess for those people who were in econs class yesterday, this isn't a piece of news. Yesterday was a horrid-day. It triggered off some emotions I thought were well-kept inside me, and caused me to drop some tears.
Well, the world is unfair.
Was late yesterday. From my previous experience, i know that if i walk in quietly, the security guard won't even notice. But I was so darn unlucky yesterday that this girl named... let's call her "D" walked behind me. She sped up and walked quickly past me. It's alright you know, not that I hate her for being faster. It's just that she was stomping SO DAMN LOUDLY that the security guard noticed her AND ME. And guess what did the "nice" D do? THAT LOSER RAN AWAY!! So the security guard stopped me, and guess what.. right when she was writing down my details and talking to me. I was being SACRIFICED by the rest of the latecomers who were later than me!! THIS BUNCH OF LOSERS JUST WALKED THROUGH WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT HOW THE GIRL WHO SACRIFICED FELT!! Talk about men being heartless creatures.
Well, but it's all over. I stayed back for SSS alone. But i saw some friends there, who stayed back to study. So i wasn't that lonely, though i sat alone. By that time, i've already given in to fate. Just that i saw D during lunch and it totally pissed me off. And just FYI, D's not really popular in school. She might be kinda famous, but she's not well-liked.
Gossips from mel, yuan and me was shared during PCCG today. Gossips about B, you won't know who. Haha.. B's a scary person. Eeww.. Once again, Jo and Simin didn't come, though i heard from mel that they alighted with her. They already reached the schoolgate, but were late.. Sigh...
Had a haircut today. Fringe's sloping down. It's kinda bobbed coz the hairstylist said tt i need bobbed to make my face look wider. I have a long face, you see.. Well..
I wanna get new pairs of contact lense because some clothes don't match my specs. yeah... Hopefully I can ask for some money from my mama, and buy e contact lense on Saturday. =)

Tuesday, 1 August 2006

awaken

梦醒了,就不该留恋。
是时候面对事实了。
仿佛刚做了一个美梦。
但已醒了。
很想继续呆在那梦境里,
但我知道不该留恋。
毕竟,那也不过是一场梦。
忘了吧!
其实我并不很难过。
我庆幸我喜欢上他,
因为他是如此的好,
如此的不一般。
但这也只是单恋,
没结果的单恋,
曾经很痛苦的单恋,
偶尔难过的单恋。
快过去了。
美梦过后的噩梦,
很快就会过去的。
只要我这么想,
它就会过得快点吧!
至少,
我曾经做过那么一场美丽的梦。