juz updating

Juz updating, before i get more complaints

well, before i start blogging a really long entry (since i hadn't been blogging for such a long time), juz wanna say tt this time, it'll be separated into different parts. To some of you, like miss act cute eng siew, (hahaha.. juz kidding), some juicy news and updates larz.. =)

today...

as usual, i went for dance. but dunno why, while dancing 延场 today, i felt like laughing, so i juz smiled happily and naturally while dancing larz. hahaha.. which is something good. Something that I will need to do esp in dance exams and performances.. =) dance dance dance dance dance.. .. until 3pm,

then i went to TCC(tanglin CC) to meet up with kah yin, wai sze and sarah. HAHAHA.. it was a fun trip, what with kaya roti and KP. HAHAHAHAHA... due to e fact tt kah yin had complained about my blog.. this part is being censored.. XD so if you did not read it last time.. too bad larz.. oh oh oh.. and brendan is not there!! =( to think that I went there to see him and he's not there. =(=(=(='( His brother Bryan(i think is spelt like tt) aka GC lookalike is there though.. but i wanna see brendan. I wanna play with brendan. His dad is there too. but brendan is not.. brendan. brendan... brendan... kah yin says tt he should be there in weekdays, so if kah yin is not tired from mugging on tuesday, we might be able to go TCC on wed!! then i might have a chance to see brendan!! hee~ brendan is really cute, really really cute!!

actually arh.. i wanna talk more abt kah yin and KP, but i'm afraid tt later kah yin will kill me, and KP will bash me up coz i'm "bullying" kah yin. HAHAHAH.. so i shall stop here.

next, is e juicy news part. HAHAHA.. nothing much actually. Juz a full-stop to something, and juz tt i wanna thank someone =) To T21 peeps, well, juz an updated update lorz.. same to mama.. to innovians, except mel, it's very new. very new. haha.. it'll be a long long story, so pls skip to e nx part larz.. haha.. juz kidding. well, juz to introduce to e innovians, if you all remember, there was this time, PE lesson, when someone called "freddy" messaged me and mr koh actually said "whose phone arh? you juz received a message from freddy". yeah.. hahha.. was a little embarrassed at tt time. to my dear yuan yuan, freddy is "tt sms guy", to mel, freddy is "banglah" or juz fred, to iman, freddy is a mad guy from his sec sch (i think. haha). shall not talk about e whole story, juz the last part of it only. =) the most recent part and my thoughts..

Well, we sort of officially ended a relationship that had never started. =) A great end, great relief, no more tears for tt matter, no more confusions. =)

There was this period of time, when I was still confused if I do like fred. I'm scared tt I "like" him because i'm repaying his good deed.. haha.. but i'm also afraid tt if i reject him, i might regret in e future. He's a nice guy, really. strongly recommended to be your boyfriend(he's straight, jason. haha..), but that is if you don't mind him being a little immature sometimes.. haha.. maybe more than just a little larz. heh heh.. He did a lot of nice things, some really obvious actions that made everyone suspicious, and some that only I know. A funny way to begin, it all started with meiji black chocolate. Haha.. juz shared it with him and he started messaging me.

well, perhaps not just e recent parts .. hahaha. >_<>

Well, yeah.. so he started messaging me. And he messaged me more and more often, asking me lotsa things. Still remember him messaging some very obvious hints, making me suspect and suspect, in the meantime, afraid tt i'm juz being oversensitive. Haha.. so this one fine day, I couldn't stand it anymore, I did sth tt my frenz said "whoa" when they knew about it. Haha.. my frenz think tt i'm very daring and straight. haha.. i actually messaged him and asked, "do you seriously like me or are you juz kidding around?". was i mad? I don't know. hahha.. yeah.. his 7.90(juz got to know tt from him only) blue hippo is still standing with my comics in my display cabinet =). It's fat, like kah yin.. hahaha.. oops.. lucky she doesn't read my blog.

I juz wanna thank you for all the things that you had done. Thanks for showing your concerns, thanks for being nice to me. Thanks for going to Kbox, accompanying me at macs while e other play pool because I can't go in, chatting with me all this while, sharing my problems, listening to me cry like mad when something bad happened in my family, giving me advices (though sometimes they pissed me off. haha..), all the jokes, all the fun, all the laughters that you brought. I can't exactly say that it had been a wonderful experience coz of the sadness and the tears that came along, but still, it was great. Thanks for everything, fred! *hug hug, and pats your back*

as usual, wrote some things while in school, so shall type it here larz.. basically it's almost e same, but juz an additional info bah.. read it or else.. nothing will happen anw, hahaha..

23 sept 2005

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我 跟 fred 算正式结束了吧。星期三，到 downtown east 去参加 fel 的 birthday bbq, 我再次确定了我的感觉与感情。他并不真的是我在寻找的人。他只是一个过程，一个新生活的开始，序幕，一个经验。他是幽默，是高，但是他不够成熟，不懂得如 何在不同的场合里该有何表现。

晚 上，我跟他在网上聊天。他也说了，他觉得我并不属于他，因此他也 停止了那份对我的喜欢，欣赏。总觉得一切结束了之后，很轻松。一个正式的结束让我松了口气。不需要在为了她哭泣，烦恼，困惑。这经验，对他，对我都很宝 贵。他也说了，经过了一切之后，他学了很多。它又说我会是个好女朋友，问他为什么，他只说那是通过他的观察所得到的结论。该怎么说呢，他的这句回答令我很 感动。不知道他为什么会那么想。仔细想想，它是个难得的男生，但就是有点太疯了。

我很好奇，还会有人像他一样吗？也没什么啦，就很想谢他所作的一切，谢他给我的宝贵经验，谢他让我留有一些美丽的回忆。thanks for the wonderful experience

美丽的回忆？但不知为何，回想着从前所发生过的事，眼泪夺眶。应该是有点感动吧。难得的经历。一切的一切，有份感激的心情。我们会成为很好的朋友吧。

that's all.

It's wonderful recalling what had happened back in the first 3 months. Everything was fun. Until we're posted to different places, that was when things started to go bad. hmm.. perhaps fred was the reason why I had been very moody at times. Not always though. Sometimes, i'm moody because it's just me and my mood swings. =) After everything had ended, the weightload is lighter, life's happier. =) You're a nice guy, seriously. You'll find a better girl for yourself, i'm not good enough for you. =) you deserve better.

I'm a little unhappy with my dad now. He's always angry at trivial matters. Okay, I know i'm wrong too, i mean we, me and my bro, but still.. he's so grumpy.. so am i.

haha.. jason recently read my blog, oops.. and found out about me talking bad abt him.. eeks~ haha.. and he stopped calling me tao kia!! yay!!! hahaha.. okay okay.. i admit tt i do LOOK dao, but i'm reall dao meh? my frenz say tt i only look dao, but i'm not dao leh.. well, you're juz unlucky tt you see more of my dao side. Too bad.. you should have been in crescent, then you'll see how not dao i am. hahaha.. now it feels weird coz you're not calling me dao kia le.. hahaha.. weird weird hei hei.. sorry larz.. am juz eccentric. genius is like tt one mah.. oops~ hahahaha.. k then

last last last last last..

good luck to every single soul in innova except some ppl (evil me) for this coming promos!! esp to me!! hahaha.. k i'm mad coz of e funny and entertaining experience in TCC, watching yan yan. Kaya roti, come to me~ hahahahaha..