The book of memories

The second book of memories is nearly filled.
18 pages left.
Can you imagine?
It seems just like yesterday, the emotions vivid.
I feel stupid all over again. Why don't I learn?
I cried. I actually cried... pathetic tears.
What can they bring me? More sorrows, that's all.
Everything you've said seems to make me think a lot, hope for a lot.
It's all for nothing. Everything's for nothing.
I shouldn't be chasing for this hope that's outta reach.
Do I really care? Do I really want it?
Or am I just lost from the previous journey?

Believe - Yamaguchi Yuko

寂しくて 言葉も出ない こんな夜は
Sabishikute kotoba mo denai konna yoru wa
君の笑顔 抱きしめ眠ろう humm
Kimi no egao dakishime nemuroo humm
ふたりなら どしゃ降りの雨 凍える朝
Futari nara doshaburi no ame kooeru asa
手をつないで きっと歩ける そばで
Te wo tsunaide kitto arukeru soba de
I believe 消えかけた あの日の夢
I believe kiekaketa ano hi no yume
いつでも 手をかざし守る
Itsu demo te wo kazashi mamoru
忘れない
Wasurenai

When I'm feeling small
When it's cold outside
I don't know who I should believe
And when I needed someone special just by my side
Who was there?
I believe… someday I will love
Someone who's by my side
Oh someday
My special one will come along
I'll pray everyday

I believe 消えかけた あの日の夢
I believe kiekaketa ano hi no yume
いつでも 手をかざし守る
Itsu demo te wo kazashi mamoru
So I believe もしも風に
So I believe moshimo kaze ni
ふるえている時は
furuete iru toki wa
二人で探そう 日の射す場所
Futari sagasoo hi no sasu basho

Someday I will love
Someone who's by my side
Oh someday oh someday
I keep on praying everyday

Don't mess with me

My friend told me that I have the "Don't mess with me" look, which she wants. Actually, she's not the only one who tells me that. Is this good or is this bad? If you were given a choice, would you choose to have this kind of look?

The good thing about it is that it is rather unlikely that people would wanna bully me, and I would never be pestered (not with my looks anyway xD). Haha... The bad thing is that the first impression I give others is "unfriendly", or some say "dao". So basically, the good thing, and the bad thing about the "Don't mess with me" look is that I don't look approachable. Hmm.... haha

Anyway, went to NTU again to take the faculty test. Kinda scary... quite a number of people, should be more than 200, and I didn't really get to finish the paper. Sigh... The last question looks so empty, I mean my answer. I saw a lot of innovians, but I'm not close to them so never say hi. Haha... Sigh, now's the agonising waiting time for the letters to come.

Pray hard!!

没意思的一天

你这是什么意思啊？

没意思。

没意思的一天，让我觉得我好愚蠢。或许以上对你来说很莫名其妙，又奇怪得好笑。。。但是，对我来说，那是如此之沉重的呀！我本来就知道没意思，为什么却还要自欺欺人呢？

明天还得考试，我哪有心情哪！你们就绕了我吧！唉。。。

哎。。。

关于台湾偶像剧。。。

有些真的很白痴，有些真的拖很久。有些白痴的很可爱，虽然笨笨的，却也很简单。有时候，明知道看了回想起别的事情，但仍会想去看，仍会想要边看，边想，边哭。哭得我眼睛都累了，袖子也湿了。我刚看完的是《恶作剧之吻》，就是那部把林依晨搞得很白痴的那部。哈哈。。。她在戏里真的很白痴。虽然大家都觉得她笨笨的，但是你们知道吗？戏里的湘琴，就是我羡慕的人的一种。哪一种吗？思想单纯的哪一种。

我羡慕思想单纯的人。他们不会有心机，世界对他们来说，也没那么丑陋。生活是如此的简单，快乐。

我害怕再找到一个我喜欢的人，但又迫不及待的等待着未来的日子。其实，我不介意独自一个人生活，但有时候，有个人陪你走过一段路也是好的。

为什么我们要把生活搞得如此复杂呢？为什么“喜欢”跟“爱”其实是那么美丽，那么温馨的字眼，但在现实生活中却总是比较痛呢？为什么，都已经圆满大结局了，泪水却。。。