惊醒

猛然发现，原来我还在乎。

虽然感觉的确是淡了，但是。。。我真的还是会在乎。

若是别人，我应该会不理会。但就因为是你。。。

是我多心吗？想想，若是好朋友的话，我也应该会像对你一般。但是，如果真是好朋友，就不需做你所做的事了，不是吗？总觉得你的那个行为代表着你并不是很在乎我。还是，我应该庆兴至少你还记得我呢？明知道我不认同你的某些行为，也知道你不是最终的那个人。但我就是会在乎。我想这就是最痛心的事吧。唉。。。

我拿不定主意

舞蹈到底对我来说有多重要呢？我也常常想，想我到底跳得好不好。翘了这么多课，软度和感觉都退步了。但是，今天又重新拾回一些信心。我还在考虑，是否要参加南大的华族舞蹈团。我担心我心态不对，不是因为想跳而加入。一旦抱着这种心态，再怎么跳也不会高兴的。而且，老师教的方式并不是我习惯的方式。哎。。。 我现在应该比较担心年底的舞蹈考试吧。加油啊！



曾几何时，想起你不再那么痛苦。我总觉得安慰，因为我知道你不是我在找的人。或许，一开始就知道了吧。

Life(less)

Hey hey hey hey hey.... so long nv blog le... i'm bored now, doing my accurate drawing of texture no. 1. haiz.... just a 5 cm drawing's taking forever. I can't imagine doing this for the rest of my 4 years here.. But then again, time flies like ZOOOOOOOM... while studying in NTU/ADM. So I guess I won't even realise by the time I graduate (if i can even pass this sem).

As usual, my attitude isn't helping me much. It's creating a pile of undone work to be done, and the pile is never going down... it's climbing higher and higher after each tutorial and lecture. Yes, I'm talking about my "bo-chap" attitude, which if you are close enough, you would know. Hahaha.. I need to CHANGE!!!

Life's been hard in a different sense ever since school has started. It's a different kind of "difficult" from working. I'm kinda out of touch and even worse, I don't have art background to help me out. To put it simply, I'm not good at what i'm doing now and I'm not working hard to reach my goals. At least back in jc, math was my forte and it's alright to skip lessons and not do tutorials. It's a total different case here now!! It's quite stressful when your fellow ADMers have art background. Well, not all of them, at least MOST of them. Eeks..

Even worse news? I'm falling sick again!!! This is the second time within a month! I haven't recovered from the last time, still coughing a little, and now everything's back! The sorethroat, the flu, and yes... the SNEEZING! I've been sneezing like mad.. Giving my table and the things on top a shower of saliva (and on some unfortunate occasions, some mucus as well). Haha... I hope this time I don't pass it to my roomie again. And I keep feeling so sleepy.. even when i get enough sleep. More than enough, in fact. I've been resting a lot during the weekend. Resting TOO MUCH!!

I wanna join Archery Club :( Went for the one-day-beginners'-class a few weeks ago, and they asked me to go for the selection, but I can't. All because of dance! Haiz... i've sacrificed so much for dance that sometimes I really feel like quitting it, stop dancing once and for all. But i'm not dumb enough to do that. I know i'll regret. I want to finish it. Just one more grade after this year and i'm done! But the timing sucks! Can't they change it?! Haiz... Archery's practice clashes with dance practice and 3 absence from Archery practice = out of school team. :( Wonder if i can still go for selection nx sem coz dance exam is end of this yr. HOPE!! HOPE!!!

Very much NOLIFE now... haiz...