Depression

Sharks... I think my depression is coming back. I'm starting to lose even more of my self-confidence. I can feel myself hunching back, going deeper... I can sense that I long more to be in the room.. I need to get hot water all the time, but it meant that i have to go out, walk past some doors to reach the pantry... and i am very unwilling to do so. It's a bother to keep asking my roomie to help me take hot water esp when i'm the one who wants it.

I really seriously doubt tt i can get through this sem. There's still so much to do before the end of sem, so many things to complete and submit as portfolio. I'm hopeless.. head-bangingly hopeless.. Sometimes I feel that I'm really on the verge of breaking down, crying my lungs out. It's the kind of feeling I had previously, from december to ard jan/feb. That same kind of feeling. I know this time is not as bad as that time, but still it's bad enough. Especially when i have so many things to do now.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! STOP LOOKING AT ME! STOP TALKING ABT ME! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

I feel so much like spending the whole day on my bed

Line of the day

Imaginations can make you so happy,
before reality pulls you back.


I've finished watching claymore.. seems like there's gonna be season 2. It's really cool, but the ending's a little too draggy.

Sin

Eventful Friday... plagued with guilt. What have i been doing all this while when... -censored- ?

Claymore's really cool. Pure addiction. At episode 19 already... and it's been only 2 days.

Hi.story WAH

Yes... i'm currently more into reading up on WAH. haha.. wahaha... WAH = Western Art History. Don't ask me why... it's interesting (lack of the word "very" because it's a module with hw, tests, grades and deadlines). :) Didn't read it since the first chapter... which is classical greek.. So i'm now reading hellenistic greek and roman empire... Interesting... Did my essay outline on the Altar of Zeus.

Because we don't learn history from greece, then rome and so on (not like those ang moh kids), it's pretty interesting to see bits and pieces of it in the art history textbook. It's like we're learning abt the general history while learning the art history... or, we learn it through art history... Cool huh... Anw, it's time i go back to art history :) It's like the only subject i feel like doing now... haiz... i'm buried in the pile of hw... and it's all because of my attitude...




*omg.. I actually checked it a few times! I can't believe it*

I give up

Oh wow... I wanted to upload photographs but it seems rather hard using my mac.. hmm.. haha.. shall do it nx time then.. what a waste of time.. OH WOW... i just learnt that mac can only use html at blogger... AHHHHHH.. what is this? WHAT IS THIS?!