Depression

Sharks... I think my depression is coming back. I'm starting to lose even more of my self-confidence. I can feel myself hunching back, going deeper... I can sense that I long more to be in the room.. I need to get hot water all the time, but it meant that i have to go out, walk past some doors to reach the pantry... and i am very unwilling to do so. It's a bother to keep asking my roomie to help me take hot water esp when i'm the one who wants it.

I really seriously doubt tt i can get through this sem. There's still so much to do before the end of sem, so many things to complete and submit as portfolio. I'm hopeless.. head-bangingly hopeless.. Sometimes I feel that I'm really on the verge of breaking down, crying my lungs out. It's the kind of feeling I had previously, from december to ard jan/feb. That same kind of feeling. I know this time is not as bad as that time, but still it's bad enough. Especially when i have so many things to do now.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! STOP LOOKING AT ME! STOP TALKING ABT ME! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

I feel so much like spending the whole day on my bed