10 things about me

Visited my friend's blog and linked to another website, with tests!! Oh, i just love to do them sometimes.. so fun. haha.. basically this'll be a blog of test results :P

I've decided, to post 10 things about me. :D

You Are 14% Evil

You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm. Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!

How Evil Are You?

HAHAHA!! Some of you must be pointing your finger at the screen, saying that the system lied about me :p

You Are a Visual Learner

You tend to remember what you see, and you have a good eye for aesthetics. You excel at art, design, and computer programming. You would be an excellent film director - or the next Bill Gates!

What's Your Learning Style?

This is quite true. Perhaps that explains why i do better in dance than in school.

You Should Be A Gemini

What's good about you: witty and energetic, you're simply the most fun to be around What's bad about you: you're flighty - losing interest in people and projects quickly In love: you enjoy the "honeymoon phase," but after that it's hard for you to stick around In friendship, you're: likely to have many groups of friends, with many different interests Your ideal job: mime, guru, or cartoonist Your sense of fashion: casual and simple You like to pig out on: fast food, especially burritos

What Sign Should You Be?

I'm true to my sign! WOW!

Your Aura is Green

You're very driven, competitive, and even a bit jealous. However, you seek out balance in your life - and you usually achieve it! The purpose of your life: inspiring others to be better Famous greens include: Tony Robbins, Donald Trump, Martha Stewart Careers for you to try: Guru, CEO, Talk Show Host

What Color Is Your Aura?

Green again! so green recently. And Donald Trump!!! I'm gonna be rich, hahaha..

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest: You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary. At Your Lowest: You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in. In Love: You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated. How You're Attractive: Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room. Your Eternal Question: "What else do I need in my life?"

What's Your Power Color?

Erm.. another green? HAHAHA... guess i'm really green then.

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

HAHAHA... that's up to you to judge. But someone had said tt i'm quite weird. :P

You Are 12 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Wow! I'm a kid! So I should be excused if i happen to be childish! Yay!

You Are An INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

What's Your Personality Type?

Yeah, i'm a thinker. Agree that i'm logical, and i think i lack creativity!! eeks

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

I'm airy! haha.. kidding.

You Are 24% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal. You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.

How Shy Are You?

Hmm.. i'm actually quite shy you know.. I'm telling the truth here k.

That's 10 things about me. You must think that i'm really bored.. haha.. but actually i had intended to study at great world if it wasn't for all the tv shows and my mum's pork chops!! Haha...

Mood Swing

Guess I'm having a mood swing today. Feel like locking myself in the room until my brother comes home. Don't even feel like eating dinner. Swinging to chips instead.

I miss you... I really do.

Temptations

Went to popular bookstore with Yuan Yuan. As she went off searching for her pen refills, I looked through the arts stuff there. Was so so so so so so tempted!! Pastels!! 48 beautiful colours winking, and 20 acrylic paints giving me the seductive smile! AHHHHH~ hahaha.. Luckily I have not much money with me. Phew... If I buy them, I guess I'll be spending my time trying them out bah.

Anw, got back gp today. I actually passed!! SHOCK! haha..

Found this song yesterday and i'm already in love with it. Love the lyrics, love the singers, love the rhythm, LOVE IT!!! There's this part that says

坏的是我发现不知不觉
不见到你不是很习惯

Well, left an impression coz that's how i feel.

Results!! Fresh from the oven!

Came to update on my prelim 2 results.. no, I've not gotten back everything, but well...

econs p1 -- 23/30
(hmm... that's the highest in my class -_- guess we're doomed)
econs p3 -- 23/75
(haha.. amazingly amazing! It's the same as my mcq =X -Dead-)

Math p1 -- 74/100
(YAA!! i was confident for this one. :P 74 surprised me, but i'm not satisfied of course!!)
Math p2 -- 49/100
(*sob* forgot to study stats... Pulled my grade down to a low B, how sad)

That's all that i've gotten back. Sigh.. am worried about econs. :( Math boost my confidence though ^^V Perhaps I should really try very hard to reach my dream of squeezing into the top for math C, so that ppl won't look down on arts students anymore when it comes to math! :D

Guess my class's really in a very dangerous position now. Sigh.. Like, none of us had managed to pass econs so far, and I doubt paper 2's gonna be a saviour. And I'm actually the only one who got a B for math in my class, when all those brainiacs are reaching 90. We really have to work hard bah. Still have to try to push some of my friends to study, which can be quite tiring and frustrating at times.

Oh! Miss Chua (my ct) reminded me yesterday that they have high expectations for me. Eeks! She actually said that I shouldn't be failing anything!! O.O Whoa~ she expects me to get at least an E grade (if i didn't really study). Ha.. ha.... ha...... ha....... ha......... don't worry, I'm not gonna stress myself up. I'll just be forcing myself to work harder than ever to meet their expectations, sacrificing all my entertainment times to do so... Hahaha.. I will NEVER do that to myself. :P But if there's one more mock exam for math before 'A's, I might really work very hard to squeeze into the top and make arts fac proud. See first bah.. haha. Perhaps a smaller and more reachable aim of being the top for math in arts first. :P

My toes hurt, no idea why. It's the twisted/sprained kinda pain, got to notice it during math today. Eeks~ Then while walking out of school, realised that my left ankle seems weird too. I hope it's not because of dance! Oh, and it's not the first time anyway.. so hopefully it'll be alright soon :)

This was meant to be a short entry... with only my results shown. :P HAHAHA!! oops!

MErcury

Look at me! I'm posting almost every day!! What had I been doing all this while? Anything but studying. haha.. that's bad :(

Anyway, had been searching for myself on the net. Haha.. what an interesting thing to do. What's not so interesting is that there are many xiaohei-s around, including pets (many of them!!), and many simin-s around too. -_-" Sad right.. haha.. Eh, but I still managed to find myself in various blogs larz... blogs from frenz, seniors, juniors, and of course, my own blog. Haha... So what do they have to say about me? I only found 2 that really can show you how i am, or had been bah.

-From Jason's blog-

Simin (XIAO hei)
the dancer... the tallest gal in class.. hmm... i always call her dao kia cos she doesnt have any expressions.. her results are damn good ( quite obvious) and her excuse would be " i really nv study" .. she is a night owl who doesnt need to have sleep and can come sch the nxt day... oh ya.. pls sleep more nxt yr and come to sch fresh can.. ahahaz.. always lie on the table and zzz..

-Crez Dance junior-

last time xiao hei, audrey.they dun even hav 2 scream @ us.one look @ them and u noe whether they are pissed.when they scream, it's e end.BUT NOW.goodness. i shout n shout like dunno wad, nobody hears.

Hahaha... Jason, up till now, still calls me a dao kia. At other times, he'll call me black black. -_-" Thanks for the english name man. As for what the dance junior had to say about me and audrey lim (my successor), BWAHAHA.... see how power i was in crez dance? :P Found myself in another junior's site, this one's an older junior. Haha.. i know who she is arh.. so well, from her blog, it's quite clear that she's quite fond of me bah... Goodo!! haha... i had been popular AND unpopular in crez dance k. So weird.. hahaha..

水星 (Mercury)

我们都来自水星，所以我们是同个星球的人 ...

忽然，想起了从前的事。前些日子，看了日本真人版的HYD，台湾叫它作《流星花园》。戏里的道明寺司有一天突然对杉菜说，他们都是同个星球的人。原来，他说的是星座。他们俩的星座，都受到同个星球的保护。后来发现，我和他的星座，都受到水星的守护。或许就因为如此，所以我们才会那么相似，却又那么的不同。

Waiting for more signs to show so that i can come to a conclusion....

Talents, redundants, and dance : P

I wonder if you guys re-read your blogs. Well, yesterday, I had been re-reading my blog. Not the whole thing of course. Started from April 2006's entries. Reached one entry where I mentioned Frank Sinatra's song "It had to be you", which, when i was typing that entry, was being played on Windows Media Player. Why the emphasis on this particular song back then? Well, the lyrics hit me hard on my face, and the bruise's still there :P So I thought I should listen to that song again! Went to windows media player to search for that song. As i listened to it play, something struck me. The beginning tune sounds so familiar... FIR!!

Yeah, it sounds like one of the songs from FIR. Thought hard and i remembered the song title. So, I went to search for that song. Since "F.I.R." and "Frank Sinatra" both begin with F, they're in the same page. I played FIR's, yeah it sounds alike... played Frank's again... hmm... seriously very alike! Played FIR again, omg they're almost the same. Played Frank's again, ok they ARE the same. And what did I do while going through this whole process of double clicking here and there? I was laughing mad!! Hahaha.... Thought this discovery's funny. In the end, I spent quite some time amusing myself clicking these two songs repeatedly. Haha...

Actually, this isn't the first thing I found out about FIR being a copycat. The first "copy" was months ago. Haha.. Perhaps last year :P Not sure if all of you had heard of this japanese band called "do as infinity" (aka DAI). They're quite famous actually. Anw, in that band, there's 2 guys, and one female singer. They also play rock music.. soft rock? not sure if that's what you call them. :P It's not just this that seems alike. Sometimes, I find that Faye's style and look is a copy of the lady from DAI. Oh, and actually the band names seem kinda similar too. Do as infinity, Fairyland in reality. Sigh... why is it that mando-pop must be so cheap at times? But I still kinda like FIR, so well... hahaha... as long as they stop trying to act cool.

My favourite's still Mayday! But there's a possibility that they'll be leaving this industry soon. That's sad isn't it? Not that the crowd don't like them, but that they might voluntarily leave the industry. They're original! And crazy!! hahaha... they're a bunch of funny people. Unlike those useless boy bands with only their faces to show (or for some, their body) mayday has talent! I mean, look at say... 183 club. I bet that's the funniest of them all. Hahaha... My friend laughed at the band's name. They're called 183 club because their average height's 183. -_-" Alright, perhaps name's not that important an issue. But can they sing? *ahem* nope. hahaha...

There was this time, when I was watching a taiwanese entertainment show. Someone from ENERGY's co-hosting the show. So, they were supposed to have a singing competition (with a theme) among several celebrities invited, and including the hosts. He, the one from ENERGY, self-admitted that he can't sing! GOodness!! You're in a boy band and you can't sing?! What is this? o.O What's worse? He actually knows that he can't sing!! Hahaha... I guess pure talent's not that important anymore.

Talent! That brings me to the "next big thing" in singapore. You know, that dance competition. Yep, I think it'll be better than Singapore Idol. BUT! Can singaporeans appreciate those artsy dances? Or would we just go for hip hop or break dance? I guess this show would reveal more than just the talented dancers in Singapore. It might be able to show us Singaporean's taste and preferences, when it comes to dance. I really wonder how it'll be like... *excited* haha... But i'm more excited about the second season of "So you Think you can Dance"!!! ^^

I feel like Colbert now.. haha.. "dance" brings me to the next topic, which is, dance! hahaha... k lame. Went for dance practice today. Second time since the comeback. :) Good sign! Last week, I could feel that I've lost a lot of -- no, it's not weight, though i wish it is -- flexibility as I warmed up. But as i danced through the day, it got better. Today, of course it's better than last week, but i'm still not fully back yet. Surprisingly, my teacher asked me if I had been stretching at home. This question came as a surprise! What went through my mind...

"Oh no, is she trying to find out if i had been a lazy student? coz I hadn't been practising at all! Sharks! Wait... she seems quite happy, she must be expecting a positive for some reason..."

So in the end, I took a lot of turns and didn't really answer her question. :P hahaha.. but by listening to what I had said, most people would think that I had practised a little at home. hahaha.. Well, she asked that question because she found that my recovery's quite fast. Although I hadn't been dancing for weeks, I can still bend backwards and touch the ground etc. Well, I have to admit that my back's quite flexible, so it's pretty easy to "recover". Haha... so bhb :P But, my leg's not that well. Sigh... they're not as flexible. And I can't point well, which is really bad for a dancer. Ouch! I'm not that good afterall. haha..

sleepless night

才刚睡下去没多久，就有醒了。那时大概是凌晨一点时分... 好久没有这种感觉了，还蛮累的，但就是睡不着。好希望自己能快点睡下去，但就是睡不着。光躺在床上，什么也不做，只会让我想很多事情。所以在床上翻了大概两个钟头后，便起床干点事儿了。

I suspect this has something to do with that something which i suspect is that something. Haha... I guess a person can go mad at 4 am due to insomnia :P

How is it possible for one to feel happy, hopeful, yet sad and worried? But that's exactly how i feel right now! While tossing and turning for 2 hours, wondering how I'm feeling exactly, that's what I get. All of a sudden, the emotional self has taken over the calm one. Perhaps it's a sign of the arrival of the monthly one. eeks.. ok random. Sat on the bed hugging my pillow while wrapped in my super thick and comfortable blanket, I thought of things that i could do while going through a sleepless night. Computer wasn't available back then coz it was occupied :P Haha.. brother was playing dotA. What came to my mind? First, comics! Coz i'm currently re-reading some books of conan. Second, milo. Haha... so it'll be drinking milo while reading comics. :) Third, pride and prejudice vcd. Seems like it's my all time favourite.

-sidetrack-
Pride and prejudice vcd. Since the time i bought it, it had been with me through quite some stuff. Remember crying over all the sad things and all the happy things when I'm sad, thinking that all the good things rarely happen in real life. But also grinning at all the happy stuff, funny stuff AND sad stuff when I'm happy, thinking that all the things happening are just part of the happy ending. Keira Knightley's so beautiful. Ha.. random too.
-moving back to main topic :P-

All of a sudden, while I thought and thought (and perhaps had thought too much) about the thing, I felt like crying. Seriously I think it's a sign of the monthly one. haha... oh no, :( I feel like crying again. hahaha... sure sign already. It's not that bad things had happened, it's the reverse! Good things had happened!! In fact, many good things had happened. Everything's good (if we ignore academics :P). Just the 2 arts related events are good enough already! I've also moved back to dancing last saturday (which reminds me, I have to contact my friend who hadn't been attending for a long time) after a few weeks of skipping. And the balloon that seems to be hope is showing again! I'm just worried...

我很怕... 怕这一切只是我一厢情愿的想法。我担心一切的一切，只因为我非常在意，而显得特别。眼中的希望，或许只是我太敏感而幻想出来的。他说的一句话，不断地在我脑海里，重复的出现。我听起来，那句话非常特别，似乎有双重意思，英文把它叫做 "pun"。可是，我就是担心那只是我一厢情愿的想法。我害怕说者无意，而听者多心呀！为什么事情就不能简单点，清楚点，让一切都明了，省得我心里七上八下的。唉~ 不禁让我在心中呐喊着：

“单恋好辛苦呀！”

猛然发现，沉浸在这痛苦的单恋里的我，竟变成了一个小女人。真不知该喜还是该忧。

Happy Birthdays!!

Happy Birthday to Fel! Paiseh, downtown east's a bit far and no one on our side's going... it'll be so awkward :P But well, we don't have to be physically present as long as you know that we're always there to care :) it rhymes!! haha... Take care lots and lots k fel!

Next, Happy Birthday Chaky!! Let me see... minus away the games, I guess i still got treat you larz :P Fun games!! (with some that seems a bit *ahem* yep, boring) YOU STOLE MY HEART QUEEN!! Hmph you for that! And i've got no other choice but to admit that your brains are a lot better than mine coz you're always left with less squares. I won't mind if you slice a bit off your brain and stick it to mine. Oh, i mean you keep the tiny slice and i take the big portion. Hahaha...

Swensens was way too full, I wonder why... I didn't eat anything after I woke up at 11, and drank only dilmah peach tea. We had free ice cream! Nope, not the usual firehouse. Well, of course the firehouse's there too, but got one extra plate each lei. =/ And she didn't even bother to check his ID for birthday!!

Was supposed to watch "The Devil wears Prada" at gv grand. The only slot available's 4.50pm. Well, I thought we'll end early, but we ended up playing board games and card games which took about 2 hours. Hahaha... The cafe was way noisy, reminds me of IJC's library with J1s :P

While walking back to ps, where chaky'll meet his second batch of clients for the day, where I'll cross the road to take a bus home :) Saw a familiar uniform that looks like half-riped bananas, then saw a familiar face.... it was cassandra from dance!! She saw me too of course. Ha.. Then, at the bus stop, I saw someone as skinny as zihua, and looks like zihua in JJ's uniform. Messaged piggy and found out tt zihua's in JJ, so it IS zihua. :P haha.. town's filled with crescentians i guess.

Still working on fel's birthday present :) Done the basic structure already, just need some colours.. Chaky suggests we mass-produce these cards and sell in school, to start small. hahaha... So, any orders? :P

希望之火再度燃起，但我总得警惕。。。

或许，这已成为了一种习惯，因为害怕受到伤害。

若可行的话，希望点燃蜡烛的人能清楚地说明那是否就是希望之火。

More pictures

Travelled around today, to SPH then to AKQA@ADK. Went to SPH to get my prize, the $300 pilot hamper. Well, a lot of pens, but not as many as we had all imagined. Hahaha.. some of them look really expensive. Haven't opened it yet, so I didn't find out what are those things hidden inside. 2 unknown boxes. Hmm.. but well, some of these pens would be gone to chaky bah. To AKQA@ADK located at bugis to pass the CD with the high resolution files to them. Well, My dad drove me around, so it wasn't tiring. But i walked in the rain while trying to search for the company at bugis. Didn't mind doing that though, feels good. :) Anw, i wore a cap, so it's alright. As long as my eyes don't get provoked, I doubt they'll eat you up.

So well, here are more pictures. Enjoy, and comments please!


These 2 pictures of 2 heads (Each) are attempts to do sth different, inspired by a card eileen had bought for me while she's in taiwan. Haha.. Had wondered why she actually bought sth for me, but she said that she thought of me immediately when she saw it. Well, it was a card, designed of course. :) As usual, I used my pilot G2 0.5 black pen, with a marker that's quite like copic, but I've forgotten the brand name. :P



For the pencil doodle, if i'm not wrong, it was done when i'm still in a rather moody self. And if i'm not wrong again, it was due to him. Yes, him. =/ Oh, well. Whatever! That's why the picture looks lonely and sad. Not sure if it does with you, but well, I drew it, I know how i had felt. Another one of my "eerie no eyes" series :)



The colourful one, it's my attempt to do sth new (yet old) again. Think I did it when zek was trying to psycho me into joining the contest organised by TNP. Yep, tried out some stuff with colours, and that's one of them. It was meant to be quite big actually, but I was lazy. Anyway, my friends didn't think it was good. Hmm... But come to think of it, I think it's more that i'm lazy bah. Haha.. coz actually, i'm quite fond of this too. Don't know why but it seems quite 2D moving to 3D. Get what i mean?

. . . a r t l o a d s . . .

YAY! Though I don't have a scanner at home, my bro has his digi-cam. But i never knew how to control e flash and e macro thingy, so i seldom touch it. But just now, I suddenly felt like taking pictures of my drawings. It all started with e present that I'll be giving my friend as a birthday present. I kinda like it, so I thought I should take it down before it's gone! Haha... So in the end my bro came back to teach me more on how to operate his camera :)

In short, enjoy the pictures :)

2 shots of the birthday present.

(my friend doesn't visit my blog.. so it's ok to post it :P)

While trying out the colour combi, I doodled a little. And i think it's quite cute. haha...

This one is a third drawing done after being inspired by alex noriega :) He made me spend so much time drawing in the school library when i'm supposed to mug up!! It looks kinda empty. I had intended to draw some more things inside, but well, lazy. The engine stopped after I've reached this stage.

This is my third attempt in sketching real life ppl. Why didn't I complete it? Because the hair's too Urghh.. to draw. And i drew the whole thing in the school library again. :P My way of making use of the school library!

Lastly, something that i'm VERY fond of. :) Guess it really says what i'm trying to say. Read the chinese words! Well, if you can't read, it says "is this how it feels like to lose hope, to wait alone?" Sometimes, I still feel this way, but not as often as the past. Perhaps it's because I kept psycho-ing myself to give up bah! o.O This is one of my "eerie no eyes" series that's forever growing! :P A few of them are being *favourited* by me. Haha.. meaning that i really like them a lot, and this is one of them!

Well, my bro wants to use e com. So i can't upload anymore (and it takes such a long time to upload coz the file's big. But i'm lazy to shrink them anw :P). So, now that you've taken a peek at my sketchbook 2, comments please? :)

W O O O O O O O ~

Never ending surprises! They just pop up like that! You know, just like *poof*. Yeah! Just like that! Haha... you must be wondering what i'm on about. Well, it's

Good News!!

That's what it is! :)

Well, someone called me while i was in the midst of my chinese paper yesterday. I didn't know i had a phone call of course, I don't cheat during exams :P So anw, 2 miss calls from the same number that's not in my record. So while I was wondering if I should call back, after I've checked my phone, someone called with that number again! Whoaa~ Must have sensed my mind power. Haha... So anw, while walking to the toilet, outside, waiting for my friend, that person said that she's from -----Singapore. So it's something singapore, but i didn't catch that "something". So I was like "what?!", she repeated, and this time round I heard it clear!

"I'm calling from NoiseSingapore. Congratulations, you have been shortlisted. Now we need a high resolution copy ... ... ..."

Once i heard, NoiseSingapore, I knew what it's all about! Haha.. Just never knew that they'd inform me this soon. I thought it'd be like around november or earliest possible october. Yeah, I'm shortlisted! I mean....

YEAH!!

Haha.. that's about all the excitement I've got here. But I don't know about all the resolution stuff. :P Had them email me the details so that I can ask chaky for help :D Since he did all those things already, doubt he'll mind helping. :P Haha... happy happy happy!!!

HURRAH FOR ME!!! HURRAH FOR ME!!!

NoiseSingapore's bigger than TNP's "express yourself" contest, most probably(even though I don't get a prize from NoiseSingapore :P). To know what NoiseSingapore's all about, click on the link on the right column *wink* Just in case you had no idea, the link had been there since.... some time ago. haha.. since i changed my blogskin bah! :)

So now there's gonna be a festival, and according to the email, the festival's on 9 Nov 6.30 - 9 pm. And guess what, I've just checked my 'A's timetable, and on that day, it's math paper 2, ending at 5 pm!! And the next paper's econs essay on 14 Nov!! I wonder if i'll have the time for all these. Eeks~

Random stuff in great world macs

Days of studying in Great World macs... see that it's a favourite hangout for many more other than me. More people go there to study now, some others just sat there to chat and have fun... some always spend their time outside with their usual cliques. Sometimes you'll catch some underage smokers, or some gang-member-looking people. Haha...

Anyway, i've realised some interesting things about myself. They seem interesting to me, not sure if they are interesting to you. :P

First, height seriously helps when you need some attention. Well, I know i'm not good-looking (might not even fit for average looking :P) and that I don't catch attention in macs. BUT! haha.. when I stand up to go to the toilet, or to buy food/drinks, I'll see some eyes on me. Well, it's all about height. Some will look at me, then look at my feet (to search for heels xD). But of course, these eyes do not stay long on me since i'm no interesting creature with no good looks and no figure. HA!

Second, this might sound "not bad mah!" to you guys, but I know it's not good. xD At times when I sit backfacing the wall, people who walk past will look at me. BUT! That's when they're a distance away, and when my head's a little down. HA! So well, if they're up close, I think I'll scare them away :P

Nothing more to say le bah. So sian every day. SIgh...

h e l o o k s c o o l o n h i s b i k e

The last time i saw him, he was in his school uniform, I think... haha.. if it was him. But the uniform looks alien! I mean, we're of the same age, so naturally if he's wearing uniform, I'd be expecting JC, or some institute(which currently is just MI)... can't be ITE also mah.. he doesn't look ITE to me, neither does his uniform. He's still tall and lean, and a lot fairer than i am :P And he still looks quite him.

Remember discussing about the guys in our class with a friend of mine back in primary school days... I remember her mentioning that he's actually quite shuai, just that he's short. Hmm.. look at him now! He's tall! He was so so so so short!! NOW HE'S TALL!!! Bet my friend would be so excited, if she remembers what we had discussed about, and in the first place, if i remember who that friend is :P Yeah, i've forgotten who she is. HAHA...

Anyway, I saw him just now. I was walking out of the lane, turning to walk along the main road back home. Then, I saw this guy cycling downhill. Alright, he's not the poseur-like kinda cool, but the naturally cool, in his casual wear. :) That's cool isn't it! So i saw him, and I saw that he saw me too. And i guess he saw that I saw him too. HAHAHA... Not sure if he recognises me though. Hmm... never mind that. Yeah, so he looks quite cool cycling, and to add on, he had looked smart and cool in his uniform too!! It's that kinda tucked in smart and cool!! Was wondering if he's cycling with a destination in mind or just cycling. My guess is just cycling in the night feeling the breeze :)

It's not my first time seeing him on his bicycle, but again, I don't see him often. Seeing him cycle just now makes me feel like doing the same! Because the night breeze's just so refreshing, and it's quiet! Seeing him again, makes me feel like making friends with him. :)

We had been classmates for 6 full years, and we don't really know each other. He helped pass notes to me though, back in primary 4, when I had a very long MC and had to stay at home after surgery. We live in the same block you see... so, well. :) Hadn't been able to thank him back then, so I shall thank him here, where he most probably won't get to see... haha.. Thank you Julius! :) Oh, and we actually said hi to each other back in secondary school days, when I saw him one day with his brothers. Bumped into them at the gate downstairs, so he said hi. Hmm.. Kids make friends easily. But that time, we were in the lift together, no one spoke! HAHA.. I can't confirm it's him, so i didn't speak. But then again, even if i can confirm it's him, I most likely won't speak anyway. :P

So well, hopefully I'll make friends with him one day. :) At least we'll greet when we meet, and not just suffer the awkward moments, debating whether we should say hi. HAHA...

These foolish games are tearing me apart

一次又一次，

屡战屡败...

我投降了，

我认命了。

累了又怎样？

还得再战啊！

当我痛苦的在战场上，

挣扎着，想打赢你时，

你毫不费力的，毫无知觉的，

就这样一直让我惨败。

对于我的痛苦，

你一无所知。

对于你心里所想得，

我一无所知。

无奈的是...

我只看得见你的不屑。

Foolish games - jewel

You took your coat off and stood in the rain

You were always crazy like that I watched from my window

Always felt I was outside looking in on you

You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair

You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care

Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say

Besides some comment on the weather

Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see

This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in morning

Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee

You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you

You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones

As I clumsily strummed my guitar

Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else

Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart

You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart

You took off your coat and stood in the rain

You were always crazy like that

that's all!

More youngsters spotted at gwc macs today, studying. Seems like the number of muggers there's shooting up. Hmm... Is that due to the nearing of Os and As? But i do see a lot of Os students there, and sometimes a few As students. Oh, well.. as long as they shut up, it doesn't bother me that much. :)

Met chaky today to pass him e card i made specially to thank him for the x number of times. Haha... no scanner to scan the (supposedly) beautiful card (which got ruined by my attempts to make it even nicer). Yep... but anw, he said that it's nice, so i guess it's fine larz. :P Oh, but when i said "i'm off le...", he's like "huh? that's all?" HAHAHA.. oops. Sorry to say, but yeah, that's all. :X I'll still be giving him a treat of course. I'm considering 2 options currently, swensens or a week's worth of canteen food. haha... not that i'm trying to be stingy k, it's because he's ever so busy and not like i'm always free, it's hard to find time. No choice... But he said that it's ok to not treat him, since we actually had agreed that i'll treat him if i get the canon ixus. perhaps I should heed his advice. :P Juz joking.

Wonder if I should study out tmr. If i do study out, should i ask my frenz to go to sch and study, or should i study alone in gwc? Hmmm... Oh well, i'm hungry. Shall go play gunbound now. haha.. no link. OH YA! I'm no longer a tiny axe!! I'm now a BATTLE AXE!! but i'm e noobest battle axe. At least I won't get kicked out that easily with a battle axe. Haha..

HUH? THAT'S ALL? yeah. xD

A roller coaster ride

Yesterday had been a roller coaster ride? Can i say that? Haha...

Zek called while i was at e bus stop outside orchart mrt station, asking me to get a copy of the new paper because the results of "Express Yourself" was out yesterday. The first thing that came into my mind, and which i blurted out on the phone, was "Don't tell me i won something..." Unfortunately, zek replied "I don't know the results, but it's out today.... " -_- CHEH!

*You ppl muz be asking, 'what's "Express Yourself"?' Well, remember the other time I asked all of you to vote for green, blue or orange? Yeh, that was for "Express Yourself" competition. And i guess you all know what "Express Yourself" means right. haha.. *

The 2 of us then debated for a while...

--his stand: "I think you'll win"

my stand: "I don't think i'll win anything"--

...with him saying that he has confidence in me, in the kinda tone like I've seriously won it.

So first thing I did when i reached gwc was to purchase the new paper from 7-eleven. Flipped through the pages, frantically looking for my art, and didn't managed to find a thing. Flipped from the back to the front, and it ended the same way. -_- I called to tell him that it's not inside, but that was after I jokingly lied to him that i won. Haha.. He said that he'll check with his friend again, and less than a minute after I hung up, while flipping through the pages again, reading the news, I FOUND IT! It was pictureless, and only showing the names of the winners(no wonder I couldn't find it). So, I started looking for my name, which should be an easy job since i've seen it for at least 15 years (nursery till now) and because "Q" is such a rare letter for a surname.

Surprise, surprise! I found my name! It was under "consolation prize". So I did win something(yay!) but i lost the debate(boo..)! Hahaha... mind you, I don't mind losing the debate to win that competition k. Of course, I called him!! And i told him calmly that I won a consolation prize. He seemed more excited than I was, but well, I'm always seemingly calm. Haha.. He was like "hey not bad what! Consolation prize! $300 hamper!..." and all i could say was, "orh, ok lorz" HAHAHA... totally, see how calm I was. And my calmness only made him think that i'm not happy that I won a consolation prize. He even asked me if it's because I thought that i'll win a canon ixus (which is e prize for e top 3 entries). Haha.. please lorz, i didn't even think i'll get anything.

He then told me that his friend had told him that my drawing's displayed on the webby, as one of the "selected entries" for category 2. I just checked it for myself, and found that it was one of the four selected entries. FOUR!!! that means i was so close to winning an ixus!! hahaha.. but never mind. It's beyond my imagination for winning a consolation prize already. Oh, and my bro mocked the other winner "who won just by taking a picture of his eye", quoting him. HAHA.. whatever.

Winning something in a competition does help in your life sometimes, even if it's just a consolation prize. I told my bro that i won, and when i got home, he told me that he told mum already. And surprisingly, I kinda got a different treatment from my parents! Not that they don't usually treat me well, but yesterday was all smiles and happiness, you know. haha.. and my dad was still saying happily "wha.. you finally woke up!" when i woke up at 3 pm today. Oh and btw, I woke up finding a fan at the door, facing my room. My dad had specially moved it there so that I can sleep well, although it's time when i should wake up. See how powerful it is?

Anyway, check it out yourself...

http://www.beyourselfday.com.sg/entries.html