I feel like crying, so hopeless.... haha.
I love the walk home from great world city, quiet...
Just now, while walking back, I felt so much like crying...
just so I can get rid of the unhappy monster living inside me currently.
It's time I realise that there isn't hope, it's time...
and it's time I give up gracefully and stop feeling so useless and stupid.
My last decision was to wait till I hear from him,
but it never came, and it will never come.
I know it, this time, I'm dead sure...
It's the "now or never" kind of thing.
It's the last day of the year... nothing came...
No more speculation, no more...
It's not easy getting out even if you know that you'll get nothing staying inside.
I guess that's the hard part that we all have to learn the hard way.
But, learning doesn't mean you'll be able to get out of it. Ha...
Perhaps I should move on with my plan and just spit it all out,
then wait for the harsh words to come,
the harsh words that i need to hear in order to wake up.
I can only console myself,
"All these things I'm experiencing now will be a source of laughter in the future. I'll just look back at these stupid times and chuckle!"
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