2nd Day - Fishball, Curry Puff, Sushi

Fishball, curry puff, and sushi. My dinner for today. Not bad right.. haha.. i juz feel like eating sushi, but it's not filling, so i bought e other 2. =) Survived a day on my own, this is the second day >.<

Went for the advance placement seminar just now. Got to know that we'll be able to choose one module to learn, being treated like an undergrad. Hmm.. and i realised how we were chosen, selected, short-listed - whatever - I found out that we are actually the top 30 percent of our cohort. That's like WoW!! haha.. but take a look at my grades. Just in case you don't remember, it's A, B, AO, and C6. With this kind of results, i can actually be the top 30% of my school.. Hmm.. This is way different from my secondary school like. Not trying to be proud whatsoever, because there's nothing to be proud of. Being in crescent, my kind of results is the last 30% of my school, which explains why I'm not in SAJC, NYJC, or even NJC. Well, it reflects quite badly on Innova too. What can i say? Sigh... It's so pathetic.

So i was selected yadda yadda.. .. and i chose financial accountancy. I find it quite stupid that we have to submit the form today if we want to choose and accountancy module. I need time to consider, you know. Anw, now that I've reached home, and have time to think through. I actually think that I might want to reject this course. Why? You might ask. It's just SO NOT ME to take extra lessons. Perhaps it can be the turning point, but, I doubt I'll put in enough effort and work hard. I'll just continue slacking as usual. I prefer a quiet and slow-paced holidays. Here comes my other side of thinking, "but it's a really good chance!! What if I got rejected my NTU ADM? This can act as a back-up plan!!" Sigh.. i'm just like that.. I can never make decisions, NEVER.

What's more. We have to go through interviews to get into this programme. And out of so many people, only 45 are picked for each course. Hmm.. I'm competing with people from JCs all over Singapore, including RJC, ACJC, yadda yadda... It's so eeeeeeks~ >.<

I really don't know what to do. I just need time to sort things out. I need time to talk to myself, and ask if I am willing to put in extra effort next year. I'm so troubled, again!! XD Well, the best way to stop this troubling, reject the course. =) But it's such a good chance!! ._o here goes again.. sigh..