Shall I dance?

I've been thinking about this question for a very long time... ...

Should I quit dance?

By this, of course I don't mean to stop dancing, but to withdraw from the college's dance club. I mean, what's the point when I don't enjoy myself there? It's very hard to dance well when you don't enjoy what you're dancing. Of course, I know that it is being professional to love all dances, but I just can't love dancing there as I had in crescent, or in my other affiliations. I had been telling many of my friends that the dance we have in the college is way different from what I expect. I was expecting modern contemporary or purely hip hop, but currently, we seem to be dancing what I refer to as "pop". Perhaps I'm too used to dancing modern contemporary, that's why it's hard for me to be passionate about "pop". Well, to put it simply, I'm not a professional. Either I'm not YET a pro, or I'm NEVER a pro.

Today, I was actually expected to help out in the banner-painting thing. The only thing that was pushing me to help out is that conscience, and the guilt that is plaguing me. I feel guilty because I'm so totally not committed. Very VERY unlike my dance life in crescent, when I object to anyone skipping dance lessons - well, perhaps except the thursday sessions *wink* - and will get angry with my friends if they do so. I had not been participating enough, and I felt like repaying by painting the banner. However, I decided not to go. AND, i've also decided to find Mr. Eric Wong to consult him (well, actually I just want to tell him that I want to quit dance, and try my luck asking if my outside dance affiliations can be considered as CCA). I've decided to quit dance.

Like I've mentioned, I don't really enjoy myself when I dance there. Perhaps it's due to the fact that I don't really know anyone there. I don't know why, but after coming here, my passion for performances diminished significantly. I used to love performing, love dancing on the stage and all. But now, I don't feel like dancing in this college at all, and I mean AT ALL! Maybe I've lost my passion for dance, I mean, I'm losing the passion gradually.

Wish me luck in my attempt to quit dance and not join any CCA in college =)