Monday, 7 November 2005

::sometimes, all it takes is to believe::

Indeed, sometimes, you just have to believe. Believe in yourself, believe in your friends, believe in what you do, believe in your beliefs... ...

Had been doing some thinking yesterday - i do that sometimes, especially when i'm alone and everything's quiet - and i thought that at times, I believe in myself so much that I'm overconfident. I've been convincing myself that I am smart, and I learn fast. This resulted in failures along with my inbornt slacker attitude. I believe that I learn fast, so I had always been reluctant to study. I thought that I was smart, so I spend less time studying than my friends. Of course, my results were quite bad.

I remember days in crescent, when many of my friends were so fed up with my slacker attitude. They're always asking my to study, but oh, well.. yeah. haha.. i'm just like that. I recall my partner commenting, "I find it very unfair. I study so hard and I got B3, you don't study but only read through the morning we have our test, and you got B4!!" or something like that. Well, it was just that she was complaining how unfair it was that I don't study but I still can pass. And one of my other friend, Nadia, >.<" she wrote in my autograph book, "I bet you are also very smart. If you take the trouble to dust your books and creak them open, I'm very sure you can get 9 points and below." Haha.. well, I think everyone who does that can get that kind of results. *chuckles* But sometimes, I realise that I'm not that smart anyway. If I am smart, then i would've gotten 9 points and below without even dusting my books and creak them open! Haha.. Her way of expressing is interesting. She reads a lot. =) Now that I've come to the autograph book, let's take a look at what my friends had said. Well, I shall type some of them. Haha.. my seniors' autographs are hilarious.. Never fail to make me laugh. XD wahaha.. "You know... when you 1st join dance, ni3 shi4 you4 hei1 you4 bu4 smile.. kan4 le wo3 pa4 pa4... :S BUT! after 3 yrs, ni3 hai2 shi4 yi1 yang4 hei1 (and even hei1-er) but you cheer up ALOT... :) and smile ALOT now... ..."
Chia Shi Hui (aka pig-chia XD)
[senior: dance chair]

"love your incredibly black n long n straight n silky hair... yea, i very jealous, cos my long hair looked like helmet instead... (haha, dun laugh)... ...."
Xiao Yun (always being called Cai Yun by miss lee. Haha.. )
[senior: forgot her post le *oops*]

"i notice we everytime also pair up together one. maybe cos we so tall. hee..."
Lilynne (actually, she's not that tall also larz.. hahaha.. oops.. hahaha)
[senior: DM]

"you are one of the coolest dancer i know... ... ...thanks for all the little things, like getting the grp 2 concentrate during projects..."
Camellia
[classmate]

"just want to let you noe that you are e most xiong1 woman I've ever known and also e person who loves drawing. ... ... also noe you as a notti person who wants to blackmail..."
Huilin aka da jie
[classmate]

"Initially, when i first met you, i was scared witless by your frightening, intense stare *grin* though now i am more impressed than afraid"
Nadia
[classmate]

"You're a really nice person who's very sweet, but I still remember the time you tried 2 blackmail me... "
Farah
[classmate]

"will always remember you as crez's dancer. Never knew you could be so fierce, but really, i truly admire your dedication and determination when it comes to dancing."
Sofia
[classmate: e only councillour in our class XD]

"well, first impression of u was dat u abit DAO(hee) coz u seldom smile... but later realised u are actually veri frenly & nice :) & of coz a wonderful dancer!"
Geline (we used to joke abt combing leg hair >.<)
[classmate]

"she's a bit violent tho, she inflicts whacks and pokes on me!"
ginny
[dancemate: dance chair]



Well, hahaha.. basically it's like that. Till now, I still hear many people saying that their first impression of me was dao, fierce (well i am fierce! XD dao, depends .. hmm) etc etc.. hahaha.. of course i'm naughty and playful. Reading their writings, i recalled all the things that had happened. I enjoyed myself blackmailing farah and huilin. hahaha.. so fun, so fun.. XD Hmm.. I remember soy hoon (xiao yun).. some memories. Before an incident that occured, I had always thought that she's biased against me. But there was this time, I got so stressed up with SYF that I had an emotional breakdown. I felt that a few juniors are not trying hard enough. So i shouted so loudly when dancing. Finally, I couldn't stand it and i ran out of the dance studio, sat on the step and started crying like mad. It was soy hoon who came out, she actually sat down beside me and consoled me, asking why am i crying and so on. My impression of her changed a lot, after that incident. She said that i'm one of those juniors who will always have a place in her heart, and I believe that she's a senior who'll always be remembered too! Of course, other seniors did manage to find a place in my heart too. They're just so mad that you can't forget them. Haha..

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