Eh... i just went to take a look at e students' well-being board, and realised tt i just missed e 2nd SSS (self-study session -- which is actually detention larz..). It's like so what the miaow larz.. I looked at it on thurday and realised tt i missed e wed session, but they didn't post anything abt fri's session larz.. It's not my fault ok.. so pissed off.. argh.. then now i might have to go for 4 sessions coz i missed e 2 sessions without giving them a proper excuse.. lame-O... lakherkladjfalsdkj fklajsdkfl jkla so angry.. SO ANGRY!! hmpH!
Hmm.. hahaha.. this weekend was damn fun, though feel a little sorry abt what happened to fel, but well.. it's still quite fun larz.. =P
Basically saturday was MJ's (xD tt justin say one mah.. MJ = Marcus and Justin) competition.. so went to support lorz.. So disappointing!! not that their performance is disappointing, it's the judging that's disappointing larz.. =( thought tt justin will make it to e grand finals.. he got kicked out.. and tt shanghai tan guy sang so well arh... stupid judges.. thought tt MJ will sail through to grand finals too.. got kicked out again.. -_- so sad..... how can this happen?? how?? i can't believe it!! and guess what.. it's a lil funny, this one.. the emcees were talking to MJ aft e show then e girl congratulated them, thinking that they got into e finals. xD They made her realised tt they didn't get through. I like e 2 emcees, quite nice =) still, the judging sux to e core..
went eating and playing after tt, and seriously... if you need some laughter, you just need to get 3 ppl together, marcus, jia hao, and fel. Actually, with the first 2, it'll be enough already.. but with the third one joining, it'll be hell lot of laughter.. your stomach might burst from laughing. xD Was walking home from the bus stop after dance on sunday, suddenly thought of what happened on sat when they were playing pool.. e "stripes" and e "ball"... couldn't help but laugh, to myself.. haha.. managed to keep myself quiet before anyone thinks tt i'm mad. xD Fred wasn't there.. is that fortunate or is that unfortunate? xD i think fel's opinions might oppose that of e trio.
Sunday was quite a serious day at first.. because we were all studying.. gradually, e madness in marcus and jia hao uncovered bit by bit... xD jia hao ate chicken rice for dinner. Nothing exciting about this? Well, read on. His portion = my lunch + dinner. At times, it can last me for the whole day. TeoMonster arh TeoMonster.. xD just think of you arh.. i feel like laughing in the library le arh... no no.. i can't.. i can't be deemed as mad.. no.. relax.. breathe in, breathe out... hoooo.... ok, back to norm. oh no i'm going to have to stop myself from laughing again coz i'm about to type sth tt's so funny.
Jia Hao, with $1 left and wondering what to play since the para para machines are occupied. Marcus, at his mad mode. Gk and I, audience. xD
Marcus helped Jia Hao made a decision and chose the dancing machine, whatever you call tt, for Jia Hao to spend his $1. After choosing the song, Jia Hao decided to challenge himself with "trick". As the game starts, marcus ran away to hide and laugh, and pretend tt he doesn't know JH. When he finally decided to reveal himself, after a really short while, the screen displayed "Failed", followed by "Game Over". xD And nothing else we can do but to go HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... oops... Jia Hao is really a funny guy larz... natural comedian. Dun even need to talk can make ppl laugh le.. natural talent.. xD
Plan for Hols (hey ppl can quickly confirm your time table so tt we can plan when to play and study. ahem..) :
1. study.. of course.
2. ice skating!!! so long nv skate le.. i want!!! e ice hockey so cool!
3. k box AH!!! muz pull justin along.. haha.. then we juz go for MJ concert. =P
4. i'll think about it.. >.<
muz contact k.. muz arh!! so long nv play and sing with you bunch of monkeys le.. xD
Monday, 27 February 2006
Friday, 3 February 2006
still in school
Of course, as usual i'm using the school com. It's yet another free period, first one of the day though. I have free periods every day!! coz they now have history/geography lessons every day.. so sad.. have to stay back all because chinese A's always e last period.. haiz.. sianz..
Today's not a good day because i woke up late.. and was late for school (duh.. not surprising at all, isn't it?). Stepped in my dad's car and realised tt i didn't bring my phone along!! ARghH~ so sad.. so sad.. but well, lucky today's an early day.. can go home earlier to sleep and all... =) Oh! and lucky miss lim didn't say have to do economics review, coz i was late for lecture since i was late for school.. haha.. phew~ =P
A lot of work supposed to be handed in today, case study 1, math tutorial 25B, GP compre yadda yadda.. and guess what? i didn't do them!! e math can heck larz.. if she doesn't want to mark it, so be it.. doesn't affect me as long as i complete them at my own time.. =P so bad.. but so true.. but well, i really am very tired what.. not really able to do them lorz.. then yesterday i reached home at 8pm ++ , and and and.. my mama brought us to this shanghai restaurant to eat xiao long bao and la mian for dinner. so i reached home at abt 10? ya.. aft shower, so late le.. did hw until i ended up sleeping.. too bad.. too bad.. too bad! xD haha..
Am still considering if i should stay back today to do my work.. hmm.. i still have to find e dance teacher i/c to tell her tt i wanna quit dance and join New Media Arts so that i can build up my portfolio for ADM admission =) wonder if she's free.. AH~~ i never bring my phone.. cannot message her =.= haiz...
Today's not a good day because i woke up late.. and was late for school (duh.. not surprising at all, isn't it?). Stepped in my dad's car and realised tt i didn't bring my phone along!! ARghH~ so sad.. so sad.. but well, lucky today's an early day.. can go home earlier to sleep and all... =) Oh! and lucky miss lim didn't say have to do economics review, coz i was late for lecture since i was late for school.. haha.. phew~ =P
A lot of work supposed to be handed in today, case study 1, math tutorial 25B, GP compre yadda yadda.. and guess what? i didn't do them!! e math can heck larz.. if she doesn't want to mark it, so be it.. doesn't affect me as long as i complete them at my own time.. =P so bad.. but so true.. but well, i really am very tired what.. not really able to do them lorz.. then yesterday i reached home at 8pm ++ , and and and.. my mama brought us to this shanghai restaurant to eat xiao long bao and la mian for dinner. so i reached home at abt 10? ya.. aft shower, so late le.. did hw until i ended up sleeping.. too bad.. too bad.. too bad! xD haha..
Am still considering if i should stay back today to do my work.. hmm.. i still have to find e dance teacher i/c to tell her tt i wanna quit dance and join New Media Arts so that i can build up my portfolio for ADM admission =) wonder if she's free.. AH~~ i never bring my phone.. cannot message her =.= haiz...
Wednesday, 25 January 2006
What happened these few days??
Last night was a WOW night.. happening arh.. haiz.. stayed in school till 10 pm with fellow CL A ppl juz to hang the lanterns. Yi Zheng and i were having marathon too. Took a cab to causeway point, ran to popular only to find out tt they dun have what we want. Ran down to cold storage and found our materials. Ran to macs to buy food to eat since i was so hungry tt i felt like puking and the bamboo's feeling the hunger too. Ran to the taxi stand and took a cab back to school. Then, we started hanging the lanterns, fishing and all.. tired tired.. and very sian. We have so much work to do, as in homework, but well, too bad larz.. Miss Chua can't say anything since we're so involved in the chinese new year. Anw she doesn't really pay too much attention to me one larz, as long as i do well for my tests. =( later still got GP test leh.. so sad.
Today's another long day. Even more of the decorations, and we have to walk along with the judges to judge the classrooms, the lanterns, the class objects and all. Well, well, well..... hmm... if we're free still have to replace e guys and do some backstage stuff since they'll be hanging more lanterns. You see, they said tt it's not nice for us girls to climb up the stairs, esp when we're wearing skirts. Forgot to bring PE shirt today, but in fact, i remembered, just that I was rushing. Stupid Gerald larz.. ask me to come early today to do announcements, then in e end eileen's replacing me. I could have stayed on my bed for a longer time. =.= very tired leh.. ahhhh~
Hmm.. I got caught by the male VP, for wearing coloured socks. Well, i can't say anything since i'm wearing red socks. But, why must we wear white socks? isn't that like secondary schools? And we're supposed to be in JC, we're innova. We're supposed to be different from others! stupid school rules. Our human rights are violated as we are not given the choice to choose what socks to wear. Isn't shoes enough? socks?! Bah.. And guess what, he claimed that he had seen me and warned me personally before. Liar! Since when did he warn me? i told him that he had not warned me before and he continued, saying that he remembers my face. Like hello, am i supposed to be the one lying? what's all that about trust? Of course i stood for myself and said that i'm speaking the truth, seriously. and you know what he said? "oh maybe i remembered wrongly since there are so many students." if you can't remember, then don't even mention it! You're embarrassing yourself for the cat's sake! Right after that, he actually said tt my skirt is too short! My friends were shocked when i told them that. And i mean SHOCKED!! My skirt, short? My skirt length should be considered normal. Sorry to say this but due to the fact that i'm a little pissed off,
STUPID OLD MAN!!
well, i said sorry already. >=(
I'm not happy about this. I mean seriously, why is it that we must have white socks? That's so old-fashioned. They're preparing us for the University, why don't they give us more freedom, more choices? If you talk about Unity, what about diversity? you mean we're only different because of our colour? can't we express ourselves through the different shoes and socks we wear? Can't we wear different colours to show our different moods? White is what, purity? Ok, ok.. perhaps it is purity. But are we supposed to be angelic all day long? Are they mad or what? I mean, even SAJC is lax about this school rule. Our school talks about diversity, and what are we doing here with white socks? We're just following the trends of "must-haves" in schools. Anyway, as we look like secondary school students with our school uniforms, can't they at least give us the freedom to wear coloured shoes and socks just to let the public know that we're from JC and not from secondary schools? You know, our school is not really famous, like RJC or so, so can they at least let us make ourselves known as JC students? then the public will wonder which "JC" we're from instead of which "secondary school" we're from. Won't the public then wonder which JC this is, and gradually find out about our college?
We're already so controlled in terms of academics, can't we enjoy more freedom in our attire? Uniforms are enough to deliver the message of unity, and we also have to wear a specific type of shoes. You mean all these are insufficient? Perhaps we should then introduce standard hairstyles and bags, and wallets, stationary, hairbands, clips, spectacles. Standard way of walking and talking. MADNESS!!!
Can someone please tell me why we're supposed to wear white socks? hmm? hmm? hmm? stupid school rule.
Today's another long day. Even more of the decorations, and we have to walk along with the judges to judge the classrooms, the lanterns, the class objects and all. Well, well, well..... hmm... if we're free still have to replace e guys and do some backstage stuff since they'll be hanging more lanterns. You see, they said tt it's not nice for us girls to climb up the stairs, esp when we're wearing skirts. Forgot to bring PE shirt today, but in fact, i remembered, just that I was rushing. Stupid Gerald larz.. ask me to come early today to do announcements, then in e end eileen's replacing me. I could have stayed on my bed for a longer time. =.= very tired leh.. ahhhh~
Hmm.. I got caught by the male VP, for wearing coloured socks. Well, i can't say anything since i'm wearing red socks. But, why must we wear white socks? isn't that like secondary schools? And we're supposed to be in JC, we're innova. We're supposed to be different from others! stupid school rules. Our human rights are violated as we are not given the choice to choose what socks to wear. Isn't shoes enough? socks?! Bah.. And guess what, he claimed that he had seen me and warned me personally before. Liar! Since when did he warn me? i told him that he had not warned me before and he continued, saying that he remembers my face. Like hello, am i supposed to be the one lying? what's all that about trust? Of course i stood for myself and said that i'm speaking the truth, seriously. and you know what he said? "oh maybe i remembered wrongly since there are so many students." if you can't remember, then don't even mention it! You're embarrassing yourself for the cat's sake! Right after that, he actually said tt my skirt is too short! My friends were shocked when i told them that. And i mean SHOCKED!! My skirt, short? My skirt length should be considered normal. Sorry to say this but due to the fact that i'm a little pissed off,
STUPID OLD MAN!!
well, i said sorry already. >=(
I'm not happy about this. I mean seriously, why is it that we must have white socks? That's so old-fashioned. They're preparing us for the University, why don't they give us more freedom, more choices? If you talk about Unity, what about diversity? you mean we're only different because of our colour? can't we express ourselves through the different shoes and socks we wear? Can't we wear different colours to show our different moods? White is what, purity? Ok, ok.. perhaps it is purity. But are we supposed to be angelic all day long? Are they mad or what? I mean, even SAJC is lax about this school rule. Our school talks about diversity, and what are we doing here with white socks? We're just following the trends of "must-haves" in schools. Anyway, as we look like secondary school students with our school uniforms, can't they at least give us the freedom to wear coloured shoes and socks just to let the public know that we're from JC and not from secondary schools? You know, our school is not really famous, like RJC or so, so can they at least let us make ourselves known as JC students? then the public will wonder which "JC" we're from instead of which "secondary school" we're from. Won't the public then wonder which JC this is, and gradually find out about our college?
We're already so controlled in terms of academics, can't we enjoy more freedom in our attire? Uniforms are enough to deliver the message of unity, and we also have to wear a specific type of shoes. You mean all these are insufficient? Perhaps we should then introduce standard hairstyles and bags, and wallets, stationary, hairbands, clips, spectacles. Standard way of walking and talking. MADNESS!!!
Can someone please tell me why we're supposed to wear white socks? hmm? hmm? hmm? stupid school rule.
Monday, 23 January 2006
I'm back!
Hello!!!!!! I'm back to blog.. but i can't blog too much since i'm in school using e library's com and i only have abt 15 mins... haiz... I'm back but my com's net's not. =( Pls.. fred, pls stop telling me tt you're playing neopets, deliberately!!! >=( dun friend you le.. hmph!
I'm really very sad about my com but my days are getting better =)
Well, i cleaned up my room here and there, not finished yet though. I threw away a lot of things tt I had never used and will never use, which my mum would refer to as wastage. So, ya.. you should have guessed, i threw them away behind my parents' back. =D That cleared a lot A LOT of space in my room. But well, there are still a lot of things and guess what, though my kor kor said tt he'll clean up, he did not.. =(
Am late for school today. First latecoming this year.. I hope this doesn't go on.. I can't go on like this!! I'm attempting to change!!! oops.. ran 8 rounds for PE. =( so sad... hopped around like a kangaroo aft tt and swinged like a monkey at the monkey bars. Haiz.. but i didn't run like a banglah k, didn't even have the strength to run like a banglah.
Notice:
Miaow's place is having an open house on the third day of new year. Please tell me if you wanna come =) and please come coz i might be a lil lonely since my parents are going to malaysia, and my kor can't even get out of camp =) Free flow of drinks and tidbits. TV available, VCDs can be played. Comics such as onepiece, deathnote, conan etc also available for rental (juz joking). Juz come and visit me k!! but there'll be no ang paos since my parents are gone. Erm.. if your parents wanna give me, i dun mind larz.. =P Details will be provided some time later, or you'll just have to ask me personally larz..
THANK YOU!! *muacks*
That's all for the day, i guess.. 8 more minutes till lesson starts. haiz.. sian.. today's a long day. Actually, Almost every day's a long day coz of CL A.
Teacher-in-charge of dance called me juz now to ask if i'm still interested in joining dance, which i said yes, but am currently busy with chinese new year stuff so ya... haiz.. feel so sian leh... sian sian sian sian sian.. no GB to cheer me up too. sian sian sian sian sian...
I'm really very sad about my com but my days are getting better =)
Well, i cleaned up my room here and there, not finished yet though. I threw away a lot of things tt I had never used and will never use, which my mum would refer to as wastage. So, ya.. you should have guessed, i threw them away behind my parents' back. =D That cleared a lot A LOT of space in my room. But well, there are still a lot of things and guess what, though my kor kor said tt he'll clean up, he did not.. =(
Am late for school today. First latecoming this year.. I hope this doesn't go on.. I can't go on like this!! I'm attempting to change!!! oops.. ran 8 rounds for PE. =( so sad... hopped around like a kangaroo aft tt and swinged like a monkey at the monkey bars. Haiz.. but i didn't run like a banglah k, didn't even have the strength to run like a banglah.
Notice:
Miaow's place is having an open house on the third day of new year. Please tell me if you wanna come =) and please come coz i might be a lil lonely since my parents are going to malaysia, and my kor can't even get out of camp =) Free flow of drinks and tidbits. TV available, VCDs can be played. Comics such as onepiece, deathnote, conan etc also available for rental (juz joking). Juz come and visit me k!! but there'll be no ang paos since my parents are gone. Erm.. if your parents wanna give me, i dun mind larz.. =P Details will be provided some time later, or you'll just have to ask me personally larz..
THANK YOU!! *muacks*
That's all for the day, i guess.. 8 more minutes till lesson starts. haiz.. sian.. today's a long day. Actually, Almost every day's a long day coz of CL A.
Teacher-in-charge of dance called me juz now to ask if i'm still interested in joining dance, which i said yes, but am currently busy with chinese new year stuff so ya... haiz.. feel so sian leh... sian sian sian sian sian.. no GB to cheer me up too. sian sian sian sian sian...
Monday, 21 November 2005
The famous boot licker - Combalala
once upon a time, there was a guy called Combalala. Combalala is not poor, he has sufficient money to buy himself nike, puma, adidas, converse, billabong... ... and the list goes on.. just stuff that are expensive, but not to the extent of chanel and prada. Thought Combalala is quite well-off, he is certainly not satisfied. So he got himself a job...
Combalala chose to shine others' boots for a "living". He researched on them many ways of shining boots, and he came to a conclusion:
The best way to earn his billabong is to lick others' boots. It doesn't matter whether licking is the best way to shine the boots. As long as you lick their boots, they'll be happy to help you with your billabong and nike. =)
So.. Combalala became a famous bootlicker. Sometimes, he licked e wrong boots, awww.. too bad. However, he will always turn back when he realise that. Some other times, he was a little late to lick the boots, that the people will no longer be happy to help him with his billabong.
As Combalala became more and more famous, he attracted more and more people to him. Of course, not the people with boots. The people with boots for him to lick don't usually find him, because he will always find them =D. He attracted a lot of people whom ended up beating him to dust.
So, Comabalala died as he became specks of dust.
-The end-
This is literature with horrible language. =) Some of you will be talented enough to understand, but i doubt there are many of you who can do so =). For those who do not understand, it's ok. It's better that you dun understand. Don't want to pollute your innocent minds (if you do have an innocent mind, that is xD)
Combalala chose to shine others' boots for a "living". He researched on them many ways of shining boots, and he came to a conclusion:
The best way to earn his billabong is to lick others' boots. It doesn't matter whether licking is the best way to shine the boots. As long as you lick their boots, they'll be happy to help you with your billabong and nike. =)
So.. Combalala became a famous bootlicker. Sometimes, he licked e wrong boots, awww.. too bad. However, he will always turn back when he realise that. Some other times, he was a little late to lick the boots, that the people will no longer be happy to help him with his billabong.
As Combalala became more and more famous, he attracted more and more people to him. Of course, not the people with boots. The people with boots for him to lick don't usually find him, because he will always find them =D. He attracted a lot of people whom ended up beating him to dust.
So, Comabalala died as he became specks of dust.
-The end-
This is literature with horrible language. =) Some of you will be talented enough to understand, but i doubt there are many of you who can do so =). For those who do not understand, it's ok. It's better that you dun understand. Don't want to pollute your innocent minds (if you do have an innocent mind, that is xD)
Tuesday, 15 November 2005
Shall I dance?
I've been thinking about this question for a very long time... ...
Should I quit dance?
By this, of course I don't mean to stop dancing, but to withdraw from the college's dance club. I mean, what's the point when I don't enjoy myself there? It's very hard to dance well when you don't enjoy what you're dancing. Of course, I know that it is being professional to love all dances, but I just can't love dancing there as I had in crescent, or in my other affiliations. I had been telling many of my friends that the dance we have in the college is way different from what I expect. I was expecting modern contemporary or purely hip hop, but currently, we seem to be dancing what I refer to as "pop". Perhaps I'm too used to dancing modern contemporary, that's why it's hard for me to be passionate about "pop". Well, to put it simply, I'm not a professional. Either I'm not YET a pro, or I'm NEVER a pro.
Today, I was actually expected to help out in the banner-painting thing. The only thing that was pushing me to help out is that conscience, and the guilt that is plaguing me. I feel guilty because I'm so totally not committed. Very VERY unlike my dance life in crescent, when I object to anyone skipping dance lessons - well, perhaps except the thursday sessions *wink* - and will get angry with my friends if they do so. I had not been participating enough, and I felt like repaying by painting the banner. However, I decided not to go. AND, i've also decided to find Mr. Eric Wong to consult him (well, actually I just want to tell him that I want to quit dance, and try my luck asking if my outside dance affiliations can be considered as CCA). I've decided to quit dance.
Like I've mentioned, I don't really enjoy myself when I dance there. Perhaps it's due to the fact that I don't really know anyone there. I don't know why, but after coming here, my passion for performances diminished significantly. I used to love performing, love dancing on the stage and all. But now, I don't feel like dancing in this college at all, and I mean AT ALL! Maybe I've lost my passion for dance, I mean, I'm losing the passion gradually.
Wish me luck in my attempt to quit dance and not join any CCA in college =)
Should I quit dance?
By this, of course I don't mean to stop dancing, but to withdraw from the college's dance club. I mean, what's the point when I don't enjoy myself there? It's very hard to dance well when you don't enjoy what you're dancing. Of course, I know that it is being professional to love all dances, but I just can't love dancing there as I had in crescent, or in my other affiliations. I had been telling many of my friends that the dance we have in the college is way different from what I expect. I was expecting modern contemporary or purely hip hop, but currently, we seem to be dancing what I refer to as "pop". Perhaps I'm too used to dancing modern contemporary, that's why it's hard for me to be passionate about "pop". Well, to put it simply, I'm not a professional. Either I'm not YET a pro, or I'm NEVER a pro.
Today, I was actually expected to help out in the banner-painting thing. The only thing that was pushing me to help out is that conscience, and the guilt that is plaguing me. I feel guilty because I'm so totally not committed. Very VERY unlike my dance life in crescent, when I object to anyone skipping dance lessons - well, perhaps except the thursday sessions *wink* - and will get angry with my friends if they do so. I had not been participating enough, and I felt like repaying by painting the banner. However, I decided not to go. AND, i've also decided to find Mr. Eric Wong to consult him (well, actually I just want to tell him that I want to quit dance, and try my luck asking if my outside dance affiliations can be considered as CCA). I've decided to quit dance.
Like I've mentioned, I don't really enjoy myself when I dance there. Perhaps it's due to the fact that I don't really know anyone there. I don't know why, but after coming here, my passion for performances diminished significantly. I used to love performing, love dancing on the stage and all. But now, I don't feel like dancing in this college at all, and I mean AT ALL! Maybe I've lost my passion for dance, I mean, I'm losing the passion gradually.
Wish me luck in my attempt to quit dance and not join any CCA in college =)
Thursday, 10 November 2005
If's so unfair!!
what's so unfair?!
My parents just returned from taiwan and i just got to know from my mum that i'm supposed to change my name from si min to SHI min....... nooooooooooo!!!!!!! i love my si!! i dun wanna change!!
according to my mum, a "da shi" asked her to change my name. He said that my current name will make me fall ill easily and that the new name will ensure a luxurious life. Okay, for now, i will say this, WHAT CRAP?! I was quite angry, and very sad. i wanted to ask my mum, "you actually believe in that?!" ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhalskdjf laksjdflka jdlkfjasldkfj al;ksdjflkadsjflk alsdkj fal;skdjf lakjsdf lkajsdlkf jalksdjf lkasjdflk ajsdfj lkasdjfl...
i'm not happy now!!!!!!!!! not happy!!!!!!!! not happy at all!!!!!!!
it's so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UNFAIR!!!!!!
i know that she did this for my well-being, hoping that i'll have a better life. But, it's just not that easy to accept!!!!! nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!! And the thing is that, it's even harder to accept when i dun really believe in such stuff!! Why can't they wait for me to be convinced, then change it? it's unfair! unfair! unfair! UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm angry!!!!!!! ANGRY!!! NOT HAPPY AT ALL!!!
IT'S JUST SOOOOOOOO UNFAIR!!!
!#$*(#!&$*!#(&$(*!#&*$)!(#*$!#@^&*@$&*@#!
My parents just returned from taiwan and i just got to know from my mum that i'm supposed to change my name from si min to SHI min....... nooooooooooo!!!!!!! i love my si!! i dun wanna change!!
according to my mum, a "da shi" asked her to change my name. He said that my current name will make me fall ill easily and that the new name will ensure a luxurious life. Okay, for now, i will say this, WHAT CRAP?! I was quite angry, and very sad. i wanted to ask my mum, "you actually believe in that?!" ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhalskdjf laksjdflka jdlkfjasldkfj al;ksdjflkadsjflk alsdkj fal;skdjf lakjsdf lkajsdlkf jalksdjf lkasjdflk ajsdfj lkasdjfl...
i'm not happy now!!!!!!!!! not happy!!!!!!!! not happy at all!!!!!!!
it's so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UNFAIR!!!!!!
i know that she did this for my well-being, hoping that i'll have a better life. But, it's just not that easy to accept!!!!! nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!! And the thing is that, it's even harder to accept when i dun really believe in such stuff!! Why can't they wait for me to be convinced, then change it? it's unfair! unfair! unfair! UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm angry!!!!!!! ANGRY!!! NOT HAPPY AT ALL!!!
IT'S JUST SOOOOOOOO UNFAIR!!!
!#$*(#!&$*!#(&$(*!#&*$)!(#*$!#@^&*@$&*@#!
Monday, 7 November 2005
::sometimes, all it takes is to believe::
Indeed, sometimes, you just have to believe. Believe in yourself, believe in your friends, believe in what you do, believe in your beliefs... ...
Had been doing some thinking yesterday - i do that sometimes, especially when i'm alone and everything's quiet - and i thought that at times, I believe in myself so much that I'm overconfident. I've been convincing myself that I am smart, and I learn fast. This resulted in failures along with my inbornt slacker attitude. I believe that I learn fast, so I had always been reluctant to study. I thought that I was smart, so I spend less time studying than my friends. Of course, my results were quite bad.
I remember days in crescent, when many of my friends were so fed up with my slacker attitude. They're always asking my to study, but oh, well.. yeah. haha.. i'm just like that. I recall my partner commenting, "I find it very unfair. I study so hard and I got B3, you don't study but only read through the morning we have our test, and you got B4!!" or something like that. Well, it was just that she was complaining how unfair it was that I don't study but I still can pass. And one of my other friend, Nadia, >.<" she wrote in my autograph book, "I bet you are also very smart. If you take the trouble to dust your books and creak them open, I'm very sure you can get 9 points and below." Haha.. well, I think everyone who does that can get that kind of results. *chuckles* But sometimes, I realise that I'm not that smart anyway. If I am smart, then i would've gotten 9 points and below without even dusting my books and creak them open! Haha.. Her way of expressing is interesting. She reads a lot. =) Now that I've come to the autograph book, let's take a look at what my friends had said. Well, I shall type some of them. Haha.. my seniors' autographs are hilarious.. Never fail to make me laugh. XD wahaha.. "You know... when you 1st join dance, ni3 shi4 you4 hei1 you4 bu4 smile.. kan4 le wo3 pa4 pa4... :S BUT! after 3 yrs, ni3 hai2 shi4 yi1 yang4 hei1 (and even hei1-er) but you cheer up ALOT... :) and smile ALOT now... ..."
"love your incredibly black n long n straight n silky hair... yea, i very jealous, cos my long hair looked like helmet instead... (haha, dun laugh)... ...."
"i notice we everytime also pair up together one. maybe cos we so tall. hee..."
Had been doing some thinking yesterday - i do that sometimes, especially when i'm alone and everything's quiet - and i thought that at times, I believe in myself so much that I'm overconfident. I've been convincing myself that I am smart, and I learn fast. This resulted in failures along with my inbornt slacker attitude. I believe that I learn fast, so I had always been reluctant to study. I thought that I was smart, so I spend less time studying than my friends. Of course, my results were quite bad.
I remember days in crescent, when many of my friends were so fed up with my slacker attitude. They're always asking my to study, but oh, well.. yeah. haha.. i'm just like that. I recall my partner commenting, "I find it very unfair. I study so hard and I got B3, you don't study but only read through the morning we have our test, and you got B4!!" or something like that. Well, it was just that she was complaining how unfair it was that I don't study but I still can pass. And one of my other friend, Nadia, >.<" she wrote in my autograph book, "I bet you are also very smart. If you take the trouble to dust your books and creak them open, I'm very sure you can get 9 points and below." Haha.. well, I think everyone who does that can get that kind of results. *chuckles* But sometimes, I realise that I'm not that smart anyway. If I am smart, then i would've gotten 9 points and below without even dusting my books and creak them open! Haha.. Her way of expressing is interesting. She reads a lot. =) Now that I've come to the autograph book, let's take a look at what my friends had said. Well, I shall type some of them. Haha.. my seniors' autographs are hilarious.. Never fail to make me laugh. XD wahaha.. "You know... when you 1st join dance, ni3 shi4 you4 hei1 you4 bu4 smile.. kan4 le wo3 pa4 pa4... :S BUT! after 3 yrs, ni3 hai2 shi4 yi1 yang4 hei1 (and even hei1-er) but you cheer up ALOT... :) and smile ALOT now... ..."
Chia Shi Hui (aka pig-chia XD)
[senior: dance chair]
[senior: dance chair]
"love your incredibly black n long n straight n silky hair... yea, i very jealous, cos my long hair looked like helmet instead... (haha, dun laugh)... ...."
Xiao Yun (always being called Cai Yun by miss lee. Haha.. )
[senior: forgot her post le *oops*]
[senior: forgot her post le *oops*]
"i notice we everytime also pair up together one. maybe cos we so tall. hee..."
Lilynne (actually, she's not that tall also larz.. hahaha.. oops.. hahaha)
[senior: DM]
[senior: DM]
"you are one of the coolest dancer i know... ... ...thanks for all the little things, like getting the grp 2 concentrate during projects..."
"just want to let you noe that you are e most xiong1 woman I've ever known and also e person who loves drawing. ... ... also noe you as a notti person who wants to blackmail..."
"Initially, when i first met you, i was scared witless by your frightening, intense stare *grin* though now i am more impressed than afraid"
"You're a really nice person who's very sweet, but I still remember the time you tried 2 blackmail me... "
"will always remember you as crez's dancer. Never knew you could be so fierce, but really, i truly admire your dedication and determination when it comes to dancing."
"well, first impression of u was dat u abit DAO(hee) coz u seldom smile... but later realised u are actually veri frenly & nice :) & of coz a wonderful dancer!"
"she's a bit violent tho, she inflicts whacks and pokes on me!"
Well, hahaha.. basically it's like that. Till now, I still hear many people saying that their first impression of me was dao, fierce (well i am fierce! XD dao, depends .. hmm) etc etc.. hahaha.. of course i'm naughty and playful. Reading their writings, i recalled all the things that had happened. I enjoyed myself blackmailing farah and huilin. hahaha.. so fun, so fun.. XD Hmm.. I remember soy hoon (xiao yun).. some memories. Before an incident that occured, I had always thought that she's biased against me. But there was this time, I got so stressed up with SYF that I had an emotional breakdown. I felt that a few juniors are not trying hard enough. So i shouted so loudly when dancing. Finally, I couldn't stand it and i ran out of the dance studio, sat on the step and started crying like mad. It was soy hoon who came out, she actually sat down beside me and consoled me, asking why am i crying and so on. My impression of her changed a lot, after that incident. She said that i'm one of those juniors who will always have a place in her heart, and I believe that she's a senior who'll always be remembered too! Of course, other seniors did manage to find a place in my heart too. They're just so mad that you can't forget them. Haha..
Camellia
[classmate]
[classmate]
"just want to let you noe that you are e most xiong1 woman I've ever known and also e person who loves drawing. ... ... also noe you as a notti person who wants to blackmail..."
Huilin aka da jie
[classmate]
[classmate]
"Initially, when i first met you, i was scared witless by your frightening, intense stare *grin* though now i am more impressed than afraid"
Nadia
[classmate]
[classmate]
"You're a really nice person who's very sweet, but I still remember the time you tried 2 blackmail me... "
Farah
[classmate]
[classmate]
"will always remember you as crez's dancer. Never knew you could be so fierce, but really, i truly admire your dedication and determination when it comes to dancing."
Sofia
[classmate: e only councillour in our class XD]
[classmate: e only councillour in our class XD]
"well, first impression of u was dat u abit DAO(hee) coz u seldom smile... but later realised u are actually veri frenly & nice :) & of coz a wonderful dancer!"
Geline (we used to joke abt combing leg hair >.<)
[classmate]
[classmate]
"she's a bit violent tho, she inflicts whacks and pokes on me!"
ginny
[dancemate: dance chair]
[dancemate: dance chair]
Well, hahaha.. basically it's like that. Till now, I still hear many people saying that their first impression of me was dao, fierce (well i am fierce! XD dao, depends .. hmm) etc etc.. hahaha.. of course i'm naughty and playful. Reading their writings, i recalled all the things that had happened. I enjoyed myself blackmailing farah and huilin. hahaha.. so fun, so fun.. XD Hmm.. I remember soy hoon (xiao yun).. some memories. Before an incident that occured, I had always thought that she's biased against me. But there was this time, I got so stressed up with SYF that I had an emotional breakdown. I felt that a few juniors are not trying hard enough. So i shouted so loudly when dancing. Finally, I couldn't stand it and i ran out of the dance studio, sat on the step and started crying like mad. It was soy hoon who came out, she actually sat down beside me and consoled me, asking why am i crying and so on. My impression of her changed a lot, after that incident. She said that i'm one of those juniors who will always have a place in her heart, and I believe that she's a senior who'll always be remembered too! Of course, other seniors did manage to find a place in my heart too. They're just so mad that you can't forget them. Haha..
Friday, 4 November 2005
2nd Day - Fishball, Curry Puff, Sushi
Fishball, curry puff, and sushi. My dinner for today. Not bad right.. haha.. i juz feel like eating sushi, but it's not filling, so i bought e other 2. =) Survived a day on my own, this is the second day >.<
Went for the advance placement seminar just now. Got to know that we'll be able to choose one module to learn, being treated like an undergrad. Hmm.. and i realised how we were chosen, selected, short-listed - whatever - I found out that we are actually the top 30 percent of our cohort. That's like WoW!! haha.. but take a look at my grades. Just in case you don't remember, it's A, B, AO, and C6. With this kind of results, i can actually be the top 30% of my school.. Hmm.. This is way different from my secondary school like. Not trying to be proud whatsoever, because there's nothing to be proud of. Being in crescent, my kind of results is the last 30% of my school, which explains why I'm not in SAJC, NYJC, or even NJC. Well, it reflects quite badly on Innova too. What can i say? Sigh... It's so pathetic.
So i was selected yadda yadda.. .. and i chose financial accountancy. I find it quite stupid that we have to submit the form today if we want to choose and accountancy module. I need time to consider, you know. Anw, now that I've reached home, and have time to think through. I actually think that I might want to reject this course. Why? You might ask. It's just SO NOT ME to take extra lessons. Perhaps it can be the turning point, but, I doubt I'll put in enough effort and work hard. I'll just continue slacking as usual. I prefer a quiet and slow-paced holidays. Here comes my other side of thinking, "but it's a really good chance!! What if I got rejected my NTU ADM? This can act as a back-up plan!!" Sigh.. i'm just like that.. I can never make decisions, NEVER.
What's more. We have to go through interviews to get into this programme. And out of so many people, only 45 are picked for each course. Hmm.. I'm competing with people from JCs all over Singapore, including RJC, ACJC, yadda yadda... It's so eeeeeeks~ >.<
I really don't know what to do. I just need time to sort things out. I need time to talk to myself, and ask if I am willing to put in extra effort next year. I'm so troubled, again!! XD Well, the best way to stop this troubling, reject the course. =) But it's such a good chance!! ._o here goes again.. sigh..
Went for the advance placement seminar just now. Got to know that we'll be able to choose one module to learn, being treated like an undergrad. Hmm.. and i realised how we were chosen, selected, short-listed - whatever - I found out that we are actually the top 30 percent of our cohort. That's like WoW!! haha.. but take a look at my grades. Just in case you don't remember, it's A, B, AO, and C6. With this kind of results, i can actually be the top 30% of my school.. Hmm.. This is way different from my secondary school like. Not trying to be proud whatsoever, because there's nothing to be proud of. Being in crescent, my kind of results is the last 30% of my school, which explains why I'm not in SAJC, NYJC, or even NJC. Well, it reflects quite badly on Innova too. What can i say? Sigh... It's so pathetic.
So i was selected yadda yadda.. .. and i chose financial accountancy. I find it quite stupid that we have to submit the form today if we want to choose and accountancy module. I need time to consider, you know. Anw, now that I've reached home, and have time to think through. I actually think that I might want to reject this course. Why? You might ask. It's just SO NOT ME to take extra lessons. Perhaps it can be the turning point, but, I doubt I'll put in enough effort and work hard. I'll just continue slacking as usual. I prefer a quiet and slow-paced holidays. Here comes my other side of thinking, "but it's a really good chance!! What if I got rejected my NTU ADM? This can act as a back-up plan!!" Sigh.. i'm just like that.. I can never make decisions, NEVER.
What's more. We have to go through interviews to get into this programme. And out of so many people, only 45 are picked for each course. Hmm.. I'm competing with people from JCs all over Singapore, including RJC, ACJC, yadda yadda... It's so eeeeeeks~ >.<
I really don't know what to do. I just need time to sort things out. I need time to talk to myself, and ask if I am willing to put in extra effort next year. I'm so troubled, again!! XD Well, the best way to stop this troubling, reject the course. =) But it's such a good chance!! ._o here goes again.. sigh..
Thursday, 3 November 2005
7 days - day 1
Living on my own for 7 days (Day 1)
I'll be living on my own for 7 days, as i've mentioned up there. Well, my parents went to taiwan from today till the 9th. My only problem with them leaving, no one to call me up in the morning, and my OP date is on the 7th. >.< I hope that i'll wake up early enough not to be late. Eeks~
My brother's back.. that's weird.. This whole week, he had been coming back a day, going back the next day.. then after a day, he came back again, and next day he has to return.. XD now he's back again, but he'll be going back to camp on saturday.. This means that i can't use the com =( So sad...
Today's the first day, and i had been able to wake up early enough to attend dance at 10 =) *applaud* There will be school tmr.. eeks eeks eeks.. sigh.. days when i can stay at home and use e com, my bro's back.. so sad.. i shall go play now, before he can use it >=D
I'll be living on my own for 7 days, as i've mentioned up there. Well, my parents went to taiwan from today till the 9th. My only problem with them leaving, no one to call me up in the morning, and my OP date is on the 7th. >.< I hope that i'll wake up early enough not to be late. Eeks~
My brother's back.. that's weird.. This whole week, he had been coming back a day, going back the next day.. then after a day, he came back again, and next day he has to return.. XD now he's back again, but he'll be going back to camp on saturday.. This means that i can't use the com =( So sad...
Today's the first day, and i had been able to wake up early enough to attend dance at 10 =) *applaud* There will be school tmr.. eeks eeks eeks.. sigh.. days when i can stay at home and use e com, my bro's back.. so sad.. i shall go play now, before he can use it >=D
Saturday, 29 October 2005
there goes my charger
my handphone charger's dead. After getting drenched on 27 October, it suffered from high fever. Eventually, it died. *mourn* RIP, charger.. *mourn*
Due to the death of my handphone charger, my handphone will be switched off for quite a long time, mourning the death of its best friend. Till the next best friend is found, my phone would most probably be mourning all the time. So, please don't blame me for anything if I am unable to reply your message, receive your call etc. I apologise.
Enough of this mourning thing.
Got informed today by my CT that i'm actually shortlisted for the SMU advance placement programme. Basically, if i participate in this programme, I will be reading modules taught by SMU's top professors. And would then be able to use these modules as exemptions into SMU Business Courses.
What can I say.. I believe we are chosen by our CTs, or by our econs tutor. Well, for my case, they are the same. Hmm... I really wonder what makes my CT think that I'm so good. If it's during summer test, okay.. but this time, this promos, i failed econs!! didn't even get a 15/20 for MCQ.. sad case. Anyway, the seminar is about 3 hours after the school ends on 4 Nov, which means that I have to wait for 3 hours just to attend that seminar. Hmm.. that really makes me consider if I want to join or not. XD Well, basically I'm just worried that if i join this programme, I won't be able to cope with everything, UNLESS i buck up.. work harder.. but. but... but... i'm a lazy bum =( it's very hard to ask me to work, you know.. That's why, I'm wondering if i should participate or not.
While making the decision, of course, I think of many many things. The first thing that came into my mind was that i want to get into NTU's ADM course. So what's the use of this programme? However, i'm worried that I might not qualify for my dream course. So i'm thinking of joining this programme, then at least i'll have somewhere to go. But, like i've mentioned earlier, i'm worried that I won't be working harder, which means that i won't be able to cope at all. Sigh... But i still don't understand why she thinks that I'm smart.. she actually told my dad that i'm hardworking.. that's something that will drop my fellow crescentians' jaws. XD This shows that she doesn't know me well? haha.. i'm a sloth... SLOTH!!
Due to the death of my handphone charger, my handphone will be switched off for quite a long time, mourning the death of its best friend. Till the next best friend is found, my phone would most probably be mourning all the time. So, please don't blame me for anything if I am unable to reply your message, receive your call etc. I apologise.
Enough of this mourning thing.
Got informed today by my CT that i'm actually shortlisted for the SMU advance placement programme. Basically, if i participate in this programme, I will be reading modules taught by SMU's top professors. And would then be able to use these modules as exemptions into SMU Business Courses.
What can I say.. I believe we are chosen by our CTs, or by our econs tutor. Well, for my case, they are the same. Hmm... I really wonder what makes my CT think that I'm so good. If it's during summer test, okay.. but this time, this promos, i failed econs!! didn't even get a 15/20 for MCQ.. sad case. Anyway, the seminar is about 3 hours after the school ends on 4 Nov, which means that I have to wait for 3 hours just to attend that seminar. Hmm.. that really makes me consider if I want to join or not. XD Well, basically I'm just worried that if i join this programme, I won't be able to cope with everything, UNLESS i buck up.. work harder.. but. but... but... i'm a lazy bum =( it's very hard to ask me to work, you know.. That's why, I'm wondering if i should participate or not.
While making the decision, of course, I think of many many things. The first thing that came into my mind was that i want to get into NTU's ADM course. So what's the use of this programme? However, i'm worried that I might not qualify for my dream course. So i'm thinking of joining this programme, then at least i'll have somewhere to go. But, like i've mentioned earlier, i'm worried that I won't be working harder, which means that i won't be able to cope at all. Sigh... But i still don't understand why she thinks that I'm smart.. she actually told my dad that i'm hardworking.. that's something that will drop my fellow crescentians' jaws. XD This shows that she doesn't know me well? haha.. i'm a sloth... SLOTH!!
Saturday, 22 October 2005
fatigue ==> slack
Well, basically i slept till abt 1.30 pm today. And it's not because i slept late last night.. It's one of the days that i slept very early. I think i slept at about 10.30 pm? haha.. actually, erm.. quite dirty larz.. but erm.. haha.. i went home, talked to my dad a while, then slept on the floor. For how long, i'm not sure. But i remember my dad calling me up, asking me to sleep in my room, which i did. I was still wearing my stinky PE T-shirt.. eeks..
While blog-hopping today, I realised that quite some of them actually blogged on friday.. yesterday.. Hmm.. i didn't even touch the com yesterday. Was really really tired. Actually, i'm quite surprised that i can actually move today. I thought that i'll be totally immobile. XD Come, let me tell you what had happened... ... (it's quite boring actually =P)
Now, now.. let's see.. Wed and Thurs trained for e Sports events that took place yesterday. Actually, after Wed, My muscles had been hurting. So after thurs's training, I was very worried that I would be unable to run on friday. Well, but i ran. I slowed down for 4 by 100, when i was reaching pei han, but others were still quite fine, I think.. =X
K.. erm.. first ever time i ran so much? Haha.. last time, the most i ran was 100 m and 4x100 m. And at least these 2 events have a longer time in between for me to rest. Yesterday, I had to run 100 m, 4x100 m, and 10x50 m. Hmm.. actually e last event like never run leh.. coz I took quite a number of steps ahead, for fairness.. so I juz ran a few steps before passing the baton. =P Oh ya.. this is e first ever time that i had actually made it to the finals for 100 m. Hmm.. This shows that our college is quite pathetic? Eeks! Sorry.. didn't mean to. Or perhaps because last time we had more girls, more pros? Hmm.. Whatever. <-- XD fred muz be totally "you did tt on purpose!!" Come to that, I think you're the only one i know how to attack with words. XD whatever. whatever. whatever. whatever. you pissed off? =P Ha... oh.. but you know how to attack me too.. Hmm.. dangerous, dangerous. Oh ya.. you still say what.. wanna suck my literally bloody finger is it? XD haha... i dun wanna get your madness virus k. Later i die of madness arh.. hahaha.. k not funny -.- Yesterday was totally madness. The sports day, that is. Hmm.. we had 3 events yesterday.. and i ran for all 3. =X wonder what will happen if i join the cheerleading. I'll die of fatigue. Well, but i'll never join cheerleading, so it's fine. XD Guess you'll say running for 3 events shouldn't make me so tired right. Well, it'll be very tiring if you have muscle aches and you run for all 3 events. Not to forget, after Sports Day, I actually went for dance lessons at 8 pm.. haha. madness.. but i made the right choice, because i couldn't wake up today. Hur hur.. =P Oh oh oh .. what was so tiring about the sports day, is the fact that I juz sat down to drink and rest for a while, I heard "4 by 100 m, runners please report to Mr. XX and miss XX..." was totally sighing.. Haiz.. And come to think I was actually only supposed to run for 4 by 100 and 100 m. Coz of someone *ahem ahem* by the name of jo, kana fever.. Hmph! Not forgetting, I joined 3 events and i got nothing at all. Haha.. but it's expected larz.. Oh.. if someone had joined arh.. maybe we could have won something larz.. but *ahem ahem* stupid yuan yuan!! dun wanna join!! hmph! nx year I'll sign you up for everything i tell ya!! HMPH!!
basically, my day comprised of naruto and gunbound. Fred's not online to chat =( Well, it's a bit Haha.. to hear, but I enjoy chatting with you fred!! XD juz juz juz.. it's alright.. not all the time though. You can be irritating at times too.. so can i .. XD meanies rule!!!!!
While blog-hopping today, I realised that quite some of them actually blogged on friday.. yesterday.. Hmm.. i didn't even touch the com yesterday. Was really really tired. Actually, i'm quite surprised that i can actually move today. I thought that i'll be totally immobile. XD Come, let me tell you what had happened... ... (it's quite boring actually =P)
Now, now.. let's see.. Wed and Thurs trained for e Sports events that took place yesterday. Actually, after Wed, My muscles had been hurting. So after thurs's training, I was very worried that I would be unable to run on friday. Well, but i ran. I slowed down for 4 by 100, when i was reaching pei han, but others were still quite fine, I think.. =X
K.. erm.. first ever time i ran so much? Haha.. last time, the most i ran was 100 m and 4x100 m. And at least these 2 events have a longer time in between for me to rest. Yesterday, I had to run 100 m, 4x100 m, and 10x50 m. Hmm.. actually e last event like never run leh.. coz I took quite a number of steps ahead, for fairness.. so I juz ran a few steps before passing the baton. =P Oh ya.. this is e first ever time that i had actually made it to the finals for 100 m. Hmm.. This shows that our college is quite pathetic? Eeks! Sorry.. didn't mean to. Or perhaps because last time we had more girls, more pros? Hmm.. Whatever. <-- XD fred muz be totally "you did tt on purpose!!" Come to that, I think you're the only one i know how to attack with words. XD whatever. whatever. whatever. whatever. you pissed off? =P Ha... oh.. but you know how to attack me too.. Hmm.. dangerous, dangerous. Oh ya.. you still say what.. wanna suck my literally bloody finger is it? XD haha... i dun wanna get your madness virus k. Later i die of madness arh.. hahaha.. k not funny -.- Yesterday was totally madness. The sports day, that is. Hmm.. we had 3 events yesterday.. and i ran for all 3. =X wonder what will happen if i join the cheerleading. I'll die of fatigue. Well, but i'll never join cheerleading, so it's fine. XD Guess you'll say running for 3 events shouldn't make me so tired right. Well, it'll be very tiring if you have muscle aches and you run for all 3 events. Not to forget, after Sports Day, I actually went for dance lessons at 8 pm.. haha. madness.. but i made the right choice, because i couldn't wake up today. Hur hur.. =P Oh oh oh .. what was so tiring about the sports day, is the fact that I juz sat down to drink and rest for a while, I heard "4 by 100 m, runners please report to Mr. XX and miss XX..." was totally sighing.. Haiz.. And come to think I was actually only supposed to run for 4 by 100 and 100 m. Coz of someone *ahem ahem* by the name of jo, kana fever.. Hmph! Not forgetting, I joined 3 events and i got nothing at all. Haha.. but it's expected larz.. Oh.. if someone had joined arh.. maybe we could have won something larz.. but *ahem ahem* stupid yuan yuan!! dun wanna join!! hmph! nx year I'll sign you up for everything i tell ya!! HMPH!!
basically, my day comprised of naruto and gunbound. Fred's not online to chat =( Well, it's a bit Haha.. to hear, but I enjoy chatting with you fred!! XD juz juz juz.. it's alright.. not all the time though. You can be irritating at times too.. so can i .. XD meanies rule!!!!!
Tuesday, 18 October 2005
18 0ct
Today's not my day.. but it's ok =)
Don't worry, not talking about my results.. haha.. e "not my day" is not abt bad results larz.. but i doubt it'll be any better. If i'm not lazy, i'll talk abt it tmr =). Erm.. what happened?
Went to TCC today to play badminton with kah yin, wai sze, and athena. Was wearing my new size 10 slippers (haha.. so big right..), and was walking to somerset station's bus stop. Was lucky! I just reached and the 190 bus was about to leave, but e bus driver saw me... so I got to take e bus. On e bus, aft i tapped my ez link card, i wanted to walk already, and my foot slipped off my slipper. Haha.. so malu. so i juz casually wear it back and walked. Well, I don't know why. Nowadays, if this kind of level of paiseh things happen, i won't really panick. I'll just do what I have to do, though i feel a little embarrassed, but it's quite fine. Guessed too many maluating things happened le.. hahaha..
second bad thing tt happened.. I reached TCC, went to e badminton court. After playing for a while, i choked on my on saliva, haha.. and started coughing.. coughed for a while, put down e racket, went to take a drink. haha..
then.. erm.. oh ya.. went to e petrol station nx door to buy drinks. I thought that i'll be thirsty enough, so i bought a 1.5 litre H20 thirst quencher, and a canned pokka carrot juice. THEN, haha.. while i was opening e can in e court, i felt tt my finger was hurting a little. Didn't really care about it at first, but when i lift it up to see where it is painful, i saw the tip of my finger red. Haha.. was stunned. hahaha.. i calmly showed my red finger to kah yin, and she said, "oh my god". >.< me ="D" jobs ="D" painful ="=""> paindul or paingul. Haha.. yeah.. quite hard for me to type fast now.. sigh..
Guess I'm in good mood these days. =) Until tomorrow, i guess.. haha.. bad things happened, but i'm still quite happy. That's good isn't it? Yes it is, i say yes, so yes!! >=d
Yesterday, this professor came from NTU to talk about arts, media and design in NTU. XD was so happy!! but it was quite stupid that they have it in the library, with a screen so small and we have to look over so many heads to see the little presentation. They should have it in an LT what.. this kind of thing is impt you know.. Well, so he talked about animation, photography etc etc. =D so happy!! was inspired. Now i want to go NTU take animation or sth like that larz.. hahaha.. but, i have to get through tmr morning >=] am taking back my results tmr.. HAiz.... hmm.. tt makes me think of sth..
Ever since, i don't know when.. but i remember in sec sch, before exams, my friends will always ask me whether i studied well already, because i always look very calm and unaffected by this "exam" at all. Well, I'm this kind of person, can't help it. I'll only get nervous when i'm inside the exam hall, sitting and waiting for the clock to tick to exactly XXXX hour. Haha.. Oh.. and when it comes to results, my friends are nervous too, but as usual, i'll look calm and totally unaffected. Maybe it's just my expressionless face. - . - <== forever like tt =P oh.. and always, i'll either be wanting my results back or it doesn't really matter if they return us. But my friends will be.. "oh no.. i don't want them back!!" kind of thing. haha.. it's not because i'm like e smartie hermione.. i just want to know how badly i had done.. when i did not really study or even worse, didn't study at all. =D You juz have to get use to me larz.. i'm quite mad ._o haha.. or, i'm very mad!! hahahaha.. haiz.. had typed so much, with my handicapped left hand.. haha.. it's really hard to type k!! muz appreciate that i typed so much eh.. =D not like you all will read until here actually.. =P haha.. anw, i'm glad that it's not my right hand that's handicapped. Or my thumb that has a great responsibility in my life, with many roles to play. When you injure your finger, you'll appreciate them more. You'll realise that all of them are important to you, crucial, and losing any one of them will affect your life. =) *nod nod* so remember to kiss them everyday and talk to them k =) even the teeny weeny ones!! Haha... non-sensical.. is there such word in the first place? oops.. =X GP dead le..
Monday, 17 October 2005
memories
MeMoRies
不 知道为什么，突然就回想起从前。小学时的无忧无虑，中学时的玩闹，那三个月的疯狂与热情？哈哈。。。 回忆起过去时，也突然想到了这么一句话。我们会珍惜回忆，会很想念从前的生活，是因为我们回不去从前。有些事情，真的是回不去的。该珍惜身边的人和事吗？ 嗯。。。总那么说，但却总会忘记。最终仍后悔。太迟了，一切都太迟了。
买了梁静茹从前的唱片，听她的歌，很舒服。她唱歌很好听，但是要唱她的个好难！因为她可唱得很高或很低，高水准。好难学唱！好想买她的新CD, 但没钱。谁向捐钱给我呢？哈哈。。。或直接买那专辑给我也好。 =)
梁静茹的新歌里，有首歌的词儿是这样的：
感觉很贴切，很想我曾感觉过的那感觉。事实上，到现在，还是有点迷惑呀！但是，不论如何，时机不成熟吧！也许是他，也许是别人，也许谁都不是，就我一个人也说不定。世界上有很多未知数。重新读了Harry Potter, 发现了类似这样的一句话：what we fear is not death, but the unknown. 好像是，大概是这样吧。嗯。。。不完全记得啦。 其实，什么都顺其自然，不就很好吗？时机到了，一切便会揭晓。但是，又有那么一份不安，担心会后悔。或许，我的选择是所谓的顺其自然，又或许是我累了，想 好好休息。
找不着方向的感觉，并不好。就是那份未知数？很希望我能知道我自己要什么，希望能找到我的生活目标。真担心我以后是个没用的东西啊！=D
听中学同学说，她看见某某同学与男友在一起。想想，现在好多的中学同 学都在交往吧！像大姐啊！哈哈。。。嗯。。。很奇怪。有时候，我会很羡慕，但是，我却又选择了不与他们走相同的路。我呢？其实，我真的有认真想过。有些时 候，我会渴望爱情，希望能够交往，但又有些时候觉得有了男友好想少了自由的感觉。茅盾的心情，矛盾的思虑，真想我啊！哈哈。。。顺其自然吗？嗯。。。就顺 其自然吧！
哎呀！要是未来的夫婿（哈哈）能陪我一起懒懒散散的过日子，但又不愁 吃不愁穿，该有多好啊！毕竟，我也是懒猪转世的呀！每天就躺在草地上，看着天空，感觉那微风吹在脸庞，听着那北风吹过的树叶“沙沙”的声音，听着身旁的人 的心跳声，呼吸声，安安静静的睡去，不被谁打扰。晚上也能看星星！
哈哈。。真是恰当啊！我不知为何不想睡觉，而电脑正播着梁静茹的《不想睡》。恰当，恰当！可是呢，已经五点多了。得赶快关电脑！在爸爸近来之前，赶快装睡！
一夜的胡言乱语，没睡觉的人是这样的。
买了梁静茹从前的唱片，听她的歌，很舒服。她唱歌很好听，但是要唱她的个好难！因为她可唱得很高或很低，高水准。好难学唱！好想买她的新CD, 但没钱。谁向捐钱给我呢？哈哈。。。或直接买那专辑给我也好。 =)
梁静茹的新歌里，有首歌的词儿是这样的：
差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
感觉很贴切，很想我曾感觉过的那感觉。事实上，到现在，还是有点迷惑呀！但是，不论如何，时机不成熟吧！也许是他，也许是别人，也许谁都不是，就我一个人也说不定。世界上有很多未知数。重新读了Harry Potter, 发现了类似这样的一句话：what we fear is not death, but the unknown. 好像是，大概是这样吧。嗯。。。不完全记得啦。 其实，什么都顺其自然，不就很好吗？时机到了，一切便会揭晓。但是，又有那么一份不安，担心会后悔。或许，我的选择是所谓的顺其自然，又或许是我累了，想 好好休息。
找不着方向的感觉，并不好。就是那份未知数？很希望我能知道我自己要什么，希望能找到我的生活目标。真担心我以后是个没用的东西啊！=D
听中学同学说，她看见某某同学与男友在一起。想想，现在好多的中学同 学都在交往吧！像大姐啊！哈哈。。。嗯。。。很奇怪。有时候，我会很羡慕，但是，我却又选择了不与他们走相同的路。我呢？其实，我真的有认真想过。有些时 候，我会渴望爱情，希望能够交往，但又有些时候觉得有了男友好想少了自由的感觉。茅盾的心情，矛盾的思虑，真想我啊！哈哈。。。顺其自然吗？嗯。。。就顺 其自然吧！
哎呀！要是未来的夫婿（哈哈）能陪我一起懒懒散散的过日子，但又不愁 吃不愁穿，该有多好啊！毕竟，我也是懒猪转世的呀！每天就躺在草地上，看着天空，感觉那微风吹在脸庞，听着那北风吹过的树叶“沙沙”的声音，听着身旁的人 的心跳声，呼吸声，安安静静的睡去，不被谁打扰。晚上也能看星星！
哈哈。。真是恰当啊！我不知为何不想睡觉，而电脑正播着梁静茹的《不想睡》。恰当，恰当！可是呢，已经五点多了。得赶快关电脑！在爸爸近来之前，赶快装睡！
一夜的胡言乱语，没睡觉的人是这样的。
Saturday, 8 October 2005
blue blue blue
蓝色的世界
蓝色的天空，一望无际
蓝色的海，看不见底
蓝色的感觉，自由自在
像那一望无际的天空，那看不见底的海洋
鸟儿天上飞，鱼儿水中游
蓝色的我，在这永无止境的人生里走着
深怕会被那蓝色的生活吞没而消失不见
找不着方向，找不着退路
难道我只能站在原地等着天下起雨吗？
something that i had written some time ago, some time after i started to like blue. I think that it ended a little abruptly, don't you think so? Anyway, so far i've only received a comment about this Blue thing.. haha.. i sent it to fred forcefully >.<.. hahaha.. so he read and told me that he likes the first one. Hmm.. see if your taste is good enough to like it or not .. ^_^ haha.. well.. juz something that i wrote larz.. tell me your comments k =)
Personality Test
i did a personality test to see which evil character i am, and i'm gaara!!!! muahahaha.. but he's not evil what.. hmph! nvm.. I'm gaara!! Gaara!! GAARA!!!!! hahaha.. i'm so happy to be evil.. if it means i'm evil like gaara!! hahaha.. i shall go kill everyone now!! XD
Construction related
Gourd maker
Sand trader
Gourd Artist
Psychopath
It's a lil lame though.. but nvm of coz.. it's gaara!! gaara!! gaara!! XD muahaha..
Naruto Personality Test: Which Evil Naruto Character Are You?
Your results are in! You're not very stable up there and you're quite a psychopath. But you weren't always like that. Long ago, you innocently searched for love but people feared you as you could not control the power in you. You lost all hopes of receiving love when even your most precious person tried to assasinate you... Now living only for yourself, you are Gaara of the Sand. Oh yah, your best friend is probably a gourd.
Gaara the Metal Worker
In real life you have a great affinity with sand and metal. You love the beach and loved playing with sand since young. You like building sand castles at the beach and most possibily you might be a gourd maker when you retire. You are also likely to be in the construction industry or you will be involve with metal works.
Likely occupations: (Metal Worker)
Metal workerConstruction related
Gourd maker
Sand trader
Gourd Artist
Psychopath
It's a lil lame though.. but nvm of coz.. it's gaara!! gaara!! gaara!! XD muahaha..
i love gaara!!!!!!
Monday, 26 September 2005
blue
蓝蓝的，还是蓝蓝的。
已经好久好久了，但还是蓝蓝的。
穿着粉红色上衣，深绿色裤子，
但还是感觉蓝蓝的。
蓝蓝的，其实很美，很静，很安详。
但是，蓝蓝得似乎有点忧郁。
难道我现在忧郁吗？
今天，到了诊所去边说实话边说谎。这让我有点厌倦撒谎。但却又认 为，有些时候，我们比不得已都得撒谎。是都得撒谎，还是都要撒谎？过后，到了图书馆，借了几米的书，《又寂寞又美好》。它的英文名，让我马上把它抽出来翻 阅，Beautiful Solitude. 也许是因为最近总觉得很孤独，很寂寞吧。就算在人群中，在学校里，在朋友群众，都难免会感到孤单。朋友们都说我很会画画，但看了这本书，我觉得我并不会画 画。我想要有自己的风格，但至今，我都是在抄别人的风格。想象几米那样，没事就画画。事实上，我是这样的。但是他的没事画画所画出来的画似乎是我精心策划 后才能画出来的画。欣赏他那天马行空的画，不拘束于现实世界。很想像他一样画画，但我知道，那是经验累积，经历了很多事后才能办到的。
其实，画画的好坏似乎都是由别人来批判的。什么时候，你会自认自己画的是好是坏，完全不被人影响？画画并没有好坏，喜欢就好了。画得开心就好了。管他那么多干嘛？
大家一起来画画吧！
已经好久好久了，但还是蓝蓝的。
穿着粉红色上衣，深绿色裤子，
但还是感觉蓝蓝的。
蓝蓝的，其实很美，很静，很安详。
但是，蓝蓝得似乎有点忧郁。
难道我现在忧郁吗？
今天，到了诊所去边说实话边说谎。这让我有点厌倦撒谎。但却又认 为，有些时候，我们比不得已都得撒谎。是都得撒谎，还是都要撒谎？过后，到了图书馆，借了几米的书，《又寂寞又美好》。它的英文名，让我马上把它抽出来翻 阅，Beautiful Solitude. 也许是因为最近总觉得很孤独，很寂寞吧。就算在人群中，在学校里，在朋友群众，都难免会感到孤单。朋友们都说我很会画画，但看了这本书，我觉得我并不会画 画。我想要有自己的风格，但至今，我都是在抄别人的风格。想象几米那样，没事就画画。事实上，我是这样的。但是他的没事画画所画出来的画似乎是我精心策划 后才能画出来的画。欣赏他那天马行空的画，不拘束于现实世界。很想像他一样画画，但我知道，那是经验累积，经历了很多事后才能办到的。
其实，画画的好坏似乎都是由别人来批判的。什么时候，你会自认自己画的是好是坏，完全不被人影响？画画并没有好坏，喜欢就好了。画得开心就好了。管他那么多干嘛？
大家一起来画画吧！
no sch for me please
peeps, a way to grab lotsa attention on sunday. Wear your school uniform and walk around.
don't feel like going to school. my nose is running away. i wonder if it'll continue running at this pace, or slow down to jog, or start sprinting. I hope it'll stay at this pace or accelerate. coz i dun wanna go to school. i wanna stay at home.. please dun let me get well tt soon, please. I wanna stay at home..
总觉得一切结束了之后，虽 然轻松了许多，却也多了一份空虚感。也许是已习惯了吧。你说我是个很难忘记的人，是吗？有些时候，我不愿相信男生的这种好话。因为感觉上有点虚伪，简单的 说就是甜言蜜语。现在虽这么说，但或许不久之后，你很快就会忘了吧。但也没差啦，反而更好，因为少了一份尴尬。=) 其实，到现在，我还搞不懂你为何会喜欢我。相信有很多人也都觉得奇怪吧。你的品味有点特别呀。哈哈。。。
naughty naughty fred.. tsk tsk tsk... your comment today arh.. tsk tsk tsk.. hahaha.. i can't compare with fel, fel's better. hahaha.. oops~ fel will definitely say sth like "why talk abt me again?" well, if i tell you why, you will kill both fred and i. XD so i shall not say anything larz..
最近心情还是蓝蓝的，也不知道为什么。我暂时爱上了蓝色吧。
don't feel like going to school. my nose is running away. i wonder if it'll continue running at this pace, or slow down to jog, or start sprinting. I hope it'll stay at this pace or accelerate. coz i dun wanna go to school. i wanna stay at home.. please dun let me get well tt soon, please. I wanna stay at home..
总觉得一切结束了之后，虽 然轻松了许多，却也多了一份空虚感。也许是已习惯了吧。你说我是个很难忘记的人，是吗？有些时候，我不愿相信男生的这种好话。因为感觉上有点虚伪，简单的 说就是甜言蜜语。现在虽这么说，但或许不久之后，你很快就会忘了吧。但也没差啦，反而更好，因为少了一份尴尬。=) 其实，到现在，我还搞不懂你为何会喜欢我。相信有很多人也都觉得奇怪吧。你的品味有点特别呀。哈哈。。。
naughty naughty fred.. tsk tsk tsk... your comment today arh.. tsk tsk tsk.. hahaha.. i can't compare with fel, fel's better. hahaha.. oops~ fel will definitely say sth like "why talk abt me again?" well, if i tell you why, you will kill both fred and i. XD so i shall not say anything larz..
最近心情还是蓝蓝的，也不知道为什么。我暂时爱上了蓝色吧。
Saturday, 24 September 2005
juz updating
Juz updating, before i get more complaints
well, before i start blogging a really long entry (since i hadn't been blogging for such a long time), juz wanna say tt this time, it'll be separated into different parts. To some of you, like miss act cute eng siew, (hahaha.. juz kidding), some juicy news and updates larz.. =)
today...
as usual, i went for dance. but dunno why, while dancing 延场 today, i felt like laughing, so i juz smiled happily and naturally while dancing larz. hahaha.. which is something good. Something that I will need to do esp in dance exams and performances.. =) dance dance dance dance dance.. .. until 3pm,
then i went to TCC(tanglin CC) to meet up with kah yin, wai sze and sarah. HAHAHA.. it was a fun trip, what with kaya roti and KP. HAHAHAHAHA... due to e fact tt kah yin had complained about my blog.. this part is being censored.. XD so if you did not read it last time.. too bad larz.. oh oh oh.. and brendan is not there!! =( to think that I went there to see him and he's not there. =(=(=(='( His brother Bryan(i think is spelt like tt) aka GC lookalike is there though.. but i wanna see brendan. I wanna play with brendan. His dad is there too. but brendan is not.. brendan. brendan... brendan... kah yin says tt he should be there in weekdays, so if kah yin is not tired from mugging on tuesday, we might be able to go TCC on wed!! then i might have a chance to see brendan!! hee~ brendan is really cute, really really cute!!
actually arh.. i wanna talk more abt kah yin and KP, but i'm afraid tt later kah yin will kill me, and KP will bash me up coz i'm "bullying" kah yin. HAHAHAH.. so i shall stop here.
next, is e juicy news part. HAHAHA.. nothing much actually. Juz a full-stop to something, and juz tt i wanna thank someone =) To T21 peeps, well, juz an updated update lorz.. same to mama.. to innovians, except mel, it's very new. very new. haha.. it'll be a long long story, so pls skip to e nx part larz.. haha.. juz kidding. well, juz to introduce to e innovians, if you all remember, there was this time, PE lesson, when someone called "freddy" messaged me and mr koh actually said "whose phone arh? you juz received a message from freddy". yeah.. hahha.. was a little embarrassed at tt time. to my dear yuan yuan, freddy is "tt sms guy", to mel, freddy is "banglah" or juz fred, to iman, freddy is a mad guy from his sec sch (i think. haha). shall not talk about e whole story, juz the last part of it only. =) the most recent part and my thoughts..
Well, we sort of officially ended a relationship that had never started. =) A great end, great relief, no more tears for tt matter, no more confusions. =)
There was this period of time, when I was still confused if I do like fred. I'm scared tt I "like" him because i'm repaying his good deed.. haha.. but i'm also afraid tt if i reject him, i might regret in e future. He's a nice guy, really. strongly recommended to be your boyfriend(he's straight, jason. haha..), but that is if you don't mind him being a little immature sometimes.. haha.. maybe more than just a little larz. heh heh.. He did a lot of nice things, some really obvious actions that made everyone suspicious, and some that only I know. A funny way to begin, it all started with meiji black chocolate. Haha.. juz shared it with him and he started messaging me.
well, perhaps not just e recent parts .. hahaha. >_<>
Well, yeah.. so he started messaging me. And he messaged me more and more often, asking me lotsa things. Still remember him messaging some very obvious hints, making me suspect and suspect, in the meantime, afraid tt i'm juz being oversensitive. Haha.. so this one fine day, I couldn't stand it anymore, I did sth tt my frenz said "whoa" when they knew about it. Haha.. my frenz think tt i'm very daring and straight. haha.. i actually messaged him and asked, "do you seriously like me or are you juz kidding around?". was i mad? I don't know. hahha.. yeah.. his 7.90(juz got to know tt from him only) blue hippo is still standing with my comics in my display cabinet =). It's fat, like kah yin.. hahaha.. oops.. lucky she doesn't read my blog.
I juz wanna thank you for all the things that you had done. Thanks for showing your concerns, thanks for being nice to me. Thanks for going to Kbox, accompanying me at macs while e other play pool because I can't go in, chatting with me all this while, sharing my problems, listening to me cry like mad when something bad happened in my family, giving me advices (though sometimes they pissed me off. haha..), all the jokes, all the fun, all the laughters that you brought. I can't exactly say that it had been a wonderful experience coz of the sadness and the tears that came along, but still, it was great. Thanks for everything, fred! *hug hug, and pats your back*
as usual, wrote some things while in school, so shall type it here larz.. basically it's almost e same, but juz an additional info bah.. read it or else.. nothing will happen anw, hahaha..
23 sept 2005
1234
我 跟 fred 算正式结束了吧。星期三，到 downtown east 去参加 fel 的 birthday bbq, 我再次确定了我的感觉与感情。他并不真的是我在寻找的人。他只是一个过程，一个新生活的开始，序幕，一个经验。他是幽默，是高，但是他不够成熟，不懂得如 何在不同的场合里该有何表现。
晚 上，我跟他在网上聊天。他也说了，他觉得我并不属于他，因此他也 停止了那份对我的喜欢，欣赏。总觉得一切结束了之后，很轻松。一个正式的结束让我松了口气。不需要在为了她哭泣，烦恼，困惑。这经验，对他，对我都很宝 贵。他也说了，经过了一切之后，他学了很多。它又说我会是个好女朋友，问他为什么，他只说那是通过他的观察所得到的结论。该怎么说呢，他的这句回答令我很 感动。不知道他为什么会那么想。仔细想想，它是个难得的男生，但就是有点太疯了。
我很好奇，还会有人像他一样吗？也没什么啦，就很想谢他所作的一切，谢他给我的宝贵经验，谢他让我留有一些美丽的回忆。thanks for the wonderful experience
美丽的回忆？但不知为何，回想着从前所发生过的事，眼泪夺眶。应该是有点感动吧。难得的经历。一切的一切，有份感激的心情。我们会成为很好的朋友吧。
that's all.
It's wonderful recalling what had happened back in the first 3 months. Everything was fun. Until we're posted to different places, that was when things started to go bad. hmm.. perhaps fred was the reason why I had been very moody at times. Not always though. Sometimes, i'm moody because it's just me and my mood swings. =) After everything had ended, the weightload is lighter, life's happier. =) You're a nice guy, seriously. You'll find a better girl for yourself, i'm not good enough for you. =) you deserve better.
I'm a little unhappy with my dad now. He's always angry at trivial matters. Okay, I know i'm wrong too, i mean we, me and my bro, but still.. he's so grumpy.. so am i.
haha.. jason recently read my blog, oops.. and found out about me talking bad abt him.. eeks~ haha.. and he stopped calling me tao kia!! yay!!! hahaha.. okay okay.. i admit tt i do LOOK dao, but i'm reall dao meh? my frenz say tt i only look dao, but i'm not dao leh.. well, you're juz unlucky tt you see more of my dao side. Too bad.. you should have been in crescent, then you'll see how not dao i am. hahaha.. now it feels weird coz you're not calling me dao kia le.. hahaha.. weird weird hei hei.. sorry larz.. am juz eccentric. genius is like tt one mah.. oops~ hahahaha.. k then
last last last last last..
good luck to every single soul in innova except some ppl (evil me) for this coming promos!! esp to me!! hahaha.. k i'm mad coz of e funny and entertaining experience in TCC, watching yan yan. Kaya roti, come to me~ hahahahaha..
well, before i start blogging a really long entry (since i hadn't been blogging for such a long time), juz wanna say tt this time, it'll be separated into different parts. To some of you, like miss act cute eng siew, (hahaha.. juz kidding), some juicy news and updates larz.. =)
today...
as usual, i went for dance. but dunno why, while dancing 延场 today, i felt like laughing, so i juz smiled happily and naturally while dancing larz. hahaha.. which is something good. Something that I will need to do esp in dance exams and performances.. =) dance dance dance dance dance.. .. until 3pm,
then i went to TCC(tanglin CC) to meet up with kah yin, wai sze and sarah. HAHAHA.. it was a fun trip, what with kaya roti and KP. HAHAHAHAHA... due to e fact tt kah yin had complained about my blog.. this part is being censored.. XD so if you did not read it last time.. too bad larz.. oh oh oh.. and brendan is not there!! =( to think that I went there to see him and he's not there. =(=(=(='( His brother Bryan(i think is spelt like tt) aka GC lookalike is there though.. but i wanna see brendan. I wanna play with brendan. His dad is there too. but brendan is not.. brendan. brendan... brendan... kah yin says tt he should be there in weekdays, so if kah yin is not tired from mugging on tuesday, we might be able to go TCC on wed!! then i might have a chance to see brendan!! hee~ brendan is really cute, really really cute!!
actually arh.. i wanna talk more abt kah yin and KP, but i'm afraid tt later kah yin will kill me, and KP will bash me up coz i'm "bullying" kah yin. HAHAHAH.. so i shall stop here.
next, is e juicy news part. HAHAHA.. nothing much actually. Juz a full-stop to something, and juz tt i wanna thank someone =) To T21 peeps, well, juz an updated update lorz.. same to mama.. to innovians, except mel, it's very new. very new. haha.. it'll be a long long story, so pls skip to e nx part larz.. haha.. juz kidding. well, juz to introduce to e innovians, if you all remember, there was this time, PE lesson, when someone called "freddy" messaged me and mr koh actually said "whose phone arh? you juz received a message from freddy". yeah.. hahha.. was a little embarrassed at tt time. to my dear yuan yuan, freddy is "tt sms guy", to mel, freddy is "banglah" or juz fred, to iman, freddy is a mad guy from his sec sch (i think. haha). shall not talk about e whole story, juz the last part of it only. =) the most recent part and my thoughts..
Well, we sort of officially ended a relationship that had never started. =) A great end, great relief, no more tears for tt matter, no more confusions. =)
There was this period of time, when I was still confused if I do like fred. I'm scared tt I "like" him because i'm repaying his good deed.. haha.. but i'm also afraid tt if i reject him, i might regret in e future. He's a nice guy, really. strongly recommended to be your boyfriend(he's straight, jason. haha..), but that is if you don't mind him being a little immature sometimes.. haha.. maybe more than just a little larz. heh heh.. He did a lot of nice things, some really obvious actions that made everyone suspicious, and some that only I know. A funny way to begin, it all started with meiji black chocolate. Haha.. juz shared it with him and he started messaging me.
well, perhaps not just e recent parts .. hahaha. >_<>
Well, yeah.. so he started messaging me. And he messaged me more and more often, asking me lotsa things. Still remember him messaging some very obvious hints, making me suspect and suspect, in the meantime, afraid tt i'm juz being oversensitive. Haha.. so this one fine day, I couldn't stand it anymore, I did sth tt my frenz said "whoa" when they knew about it. Haha.. my frenz think tt i'm very daring and straight. haha.. i actually messaged him and asked, "do you seriously like me or are you juz kidding around?". was i mad? I don't know. hahha.. yeah.. his 7.90(juz got to know tt from him only) blue hippo is still standing with my comics in my display cabinet =). It's fat, like kah yin.. hahaha.. oops.. lucky she doesn't read my blog.
I juz wanna thank you for all the things that you had done. Thanks for showing your concerns, thanks for being nice to me. Thanks for going to Kbox, accompanying me at macs while e other play pool because I can't go in, chatting with me all this while, sharing my problems, listening to me cry like mad when something bad happened in my family, giving me advices (though sometimes they pissed me off. haha..), all the jokes, all the fun, all the laughters that you brought. I can't exactly say that it had been a wonderful experience coz of the sadness and the tears that came along, but still, it was great. Thanks for everything, fred! *hug hug, and pats your back*
as usual, wrote some things while in school, so shall type it here larz.. basically it's almost e same, but juz an additional info bah.. read it or else.. nothing will happen anw, hahaha..
23 sept 2005
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我 跟 fred 算正式结束了吧。星期三，到 downtown east 去参加 fel 的 birthday bbq, 我再次确定了我的感觉与感情。他并不真的是我在寻找的人。他只是一个过程，一个新生活的开始，序幕，一个经验。他是幽默，是高，但是他不够成熟，不懂得如 何在不同的场合里该有何表现。
晚 上，我跟他在网上聊天。他也说了，他觉得我并不属于他，因此他也 停止了那份对我的喜欢，欣赏。总觉得一切结束了之后，很轻松。一个正式的结束让我松了口气。不需要在为了她哭泣，烦恼，困惑。这经验，对他，对我都很宝 贵。他也说了，经过了一切之后，他学了很多。它又说我会是个好女朋友，问他为什么，他只说那是通过他的观察所得到的结论。该怎么说呢，他的这句回答令我很 感动。不知道他为什么会那么想。仔细想想，它是个难得的男生，但就是有点太疯了。
我很好奇，还会有人像他一样吗？也没什么啦，就很想谢他所作的一切，谢他给我的宝贵经验，谢他让我留有一些美丽的回忆。thanks for the wonderful experience
美丽的回忆？但不知为何，回想着从前所发生过的事，眼泪夺眶。应该是有点感动吧。难得的经历。一切的一切，有份感激的心情。我们会成为很好的朋友吧。
that's all.
It's wonderful recalling what had happened back in the first 3 months. Everything was fun. Until we're posted to different places, that was when things started to go bad. hmm.. perhaps fred was the reason why I had been very moody at times. Not always though. Sometimes, i'm moody because it's just me and my mood swings. =) After everything had ended, the weightload is lighter, life's happier. =) You're a nice guy, seriously. You'll find a better girl for yourself, i'm not good enough for you. =) you deserve better.
I'm a little unhappy with my dad now. He's always angry at trivial matters. Okay, I know i'm wrong too, i mean we, me and my bro, but still.. he's so grumpy.. so am i.
haha.. jason recently read my blog, oops.. and found out about me talking bad abt him.. eeks~ haha.. and he stopped calling me tao kia!! yay!!! hahaha.. okay okay.. i admit tt i do LOOK dao, but i'm reall dao meh? my frenz say tt i only look dao, but i'm not dao leh.. well, you're juz unlucky tt you see more of my dao side. Too bad.. you should have been in crescent, then you'll see how not dao i am. hahaha.. now it feels weird coz you're not calling me dao kia le.. hahaha.. weird weird hei hei.. sorry larz.. am juz eccentric. genius is like tt one mah.. oops~ hahahaha.. k then
last last last last last..
good luck to every single soul in innova except some ppl (evil me) for this coming promos!! esp to me!! hahaha.. k i'm mad coz of e funny and entertaining experience in TCC, watching yan yan. Kaya roti, come to me~ hahahahaha..
Thursday, 8 September 2005
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whoa.. very tiring to do that thing up there, but it looks nice. =)
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