juz updating

Juz updating, before i get more complaints

well, before i start blogging a really long entry (since i hadn't been blogging for such a long time), juz wanna say tt this time, it'll be separated into different parts. To some of you, like miss act cute eng siew, (hahaha.. juz kidding), some juicy news and updates larz.. =)

today...

as usual, i went for dance. but dunno why, while dancing 延场 today, i felt like laughing, so i juz smiled happily and naturally while dancing larz. hahaha.. which is something good. Something that I will need to do esp in dance exams and performances.. =) dance dance dance dance dance.. .. until 3pm,

then i went to TCC(tanglin CC) to meet up with kah yin, wai sze and sarah. HAHAHA.. it was a fun trip, what with kaya roti and KP. HAHAHAHAHA... due to e fact tt kah yin had complained about my blog.. this part is being censored.. XD so if you did not read it last time.. too bad larz.. oh oh oh.. and brendan is not there!! =( to think that I went there to see him and he's not there. =(=(=(='( His brother Bryan(i think is spelt like tt) aka GC lookalike is there though.. but i wanna see brendan. I wanna play with brendan. His dad is there too. but brendan is not.. brendan. brendan... brendan... kah yin says tt he should be there in weekdays, so if kah yin is not tired from mugging on tuesday, we might be able to go TCC on wed!! then i might have a chance to see brendan!! hee~ brendan is really cute, really really cute!!

actually arh.. i wanna talk more abt kah yin and KP, but i'm afraid tt later kah yin will kill me, and KP will bash me up coz i'm "bullying" kah yin. HAHAHAH.. so i shall stop here.

next, is e juicy news part. HAHAHA.. nothing much actually. Juz a full-stop to something, and juz tt i wanna thank someone =) To T21 peeps, well, juz an updated update lorz.. same to mama.. to innovians, except mel, it's very new. very new. haha.. it'll be a long long story, so pls skip to e nx part larz.. haha.. juz kidding. well, juz to introduce to e innovians, if you all remember, there was this time, PE lesson, when someone called "freddy" messaged me and mr koh actually said "whose phone arh? you juz received a message from freddy". yeah.. hahha.. was a little embarrassed at tt time. to my dear yuan yuan, freddy is "tt sms guy", to mel, freddy is "banglah" or juz fred, to iman, freddy is a mad guy from his sec sch (i think. haha). shall not talk about e whole story, juz the last part of it only. =) the most recent part and my thoughts..

Well, we sort of officially ended a relationship that had never started. =) A great end, great relief, no more tears for tt matter, no more confusions. =)

There was this period of time, when I was still confused if I do like fred. I'm scared tt I "like" him because i'm repaying his good deed.. haha.. but i'm also afraid tt if i reject him, i might regret in e future. He's a nice guy, really. strongly recommended to be your boyfriend(he's straight, jason. haha..), but that is if you don't mind him being a little immature sometimes.. haha.. maybe more than just a little larz. heh heh.. He did a lot of nice things, some really obvious actions that made everyone suspicious, and some that only I know. A funny way to begin, it all started with meiji black chocolate. Haha.. juz shared it with him and he started messaging me.

well, perhaps not just e recent parts .. hahaha. >_<>

Well, yeah.. so he started messaging me. And he messaged me more and more often, asking me lotsa things. Still remember him messaging some very obvious hints, making me suspect and suspect, in the meantime, afraid tt i'm juz being oversensitive. Haha.. so this one fine day, I couldn't stand it anymore, I did sth tt my frenz said "whoa" when they knew about it. Haha.. my frenz think tt i'm very daring and straight. haha.. i actually messaged him and asked, "do you seriously like me or are you juz kidding around?". was i mad? I don't know. hahha.. yeah.. his 7.90(juz got to know tt from him only) blue hippo is still standing with my comics in my display cabinet =). It's fat, like kah yin.. hahaha.. oops.. lucky she doesn't read my blog.

I juz wanna thank you for all the things that you had done. Thanks for showing your concerns, thanks for being nice to me. Thanks for going to Kbox, accompanying me at macs while e other play pool because I can't go in, chatting with me all this while, sharing my problems, listening to me cry like mad when something bad happened in my family, giving me advices (though sometimes they pissed me off. haha..), all the jokes, all the fun, all the laughters that you brought. I can't exactly say that it had been a wonderful experience coz of the sadness and the tears that came along, but still, it was great. Thanks for everything, fred! *hug hug, and pats your back*

as usual, wrote some things while in school, so shall type it here larz.. basically it's almost e same, but juz an additional info bah.. read it or else.. nothing will happen anw, hahaha..

23 sept 2005

1234

我 跟 fred 算正式结束了吧。星期三，到 downtown east 去参加 fel 的 birthday bbq, 我再次确定了我的感觉与感情。他并不真的是我在寻找的人。他只是一个过程，一个新生活的开始，序幕，一个经验。他是幽默，是高，但是他不够成熟，不懂得如 何在不同的场合里该有何表现。

晚 上，我跟他在网上聊天。他也说了，他觉得我并不属于他，因此他也 停止了那份对我的喜欢，欣赏。总觉得一切结束了之后，很轻松。一个正式的结束让我松了口气。不需要在为了她哭泣，烦恼，困惑。这经验，对他，对我都很宝 贵。他也说了，经过了一切之后，他学了很多。它又说我会是个好女朋友，问他为什么，他只说那是通过他的观察所得到的结论。该怎么说呢，他的这句回答令我很 感动。不知道他为什么会那么想。仔细想想，它是个难得的男生，但就是有点太疯了。

我很好奇，还会有人像他一样吗？也没什么啦，就很想谢他所作的一切，谢他给我的宝贵经验，谢他让我留有一些美丽的回忆。thanks for the wonderful experience

美丽的回忆？但不知为何，回想着从前所发生过的事，眼泪夺眶。应该是有点感动吧。难得的经历。一切的一切，有份感激的心情。我们会成为很好的朋友吧。

that's all.

It's wonderful recalling what had happened back in the first 3 months. Everything was fun. Until we're posted to different places, that was when things started to go bad. hmm.. perhaps fred was the reason why I had been very moody at times. Not always though. Sometimes, i'm moody because it's just me and my mood swings. =) After everything had ended, the weightload is lighter, life's happier. =) You're a nice guy, seriously. You'll find a better girl for yourself, i'm not good enough for you. =) you deserve better.

I'm a little unhappy with my dad now. He's always angry at trivial matters. Okay, I know i'm wrong too, i mean we, me and my bro, but still.. he's so grumpy.. so am i.

haha.. jason recently read my blog, oops.. and found out about me talking bad abt him.. eeks~ haha.. and he stopped calling me tao kia!! yay!!! hahaha.. okay okay.. i admit tt i do LOOK dao, but i'm reall dao meh? my frenz say tt i only look dao, but i'm not dao leh.. well, you're juz unlucky tt you see more of my dao side. Too bad.. you should have been in crescent, then you'll see how not dao i am. hahaha.. now it feels weird coz you're not calling me dao kia le.. hahaha.. weird weird hei hei.. sorry larz.. am juz eccentric. genius is like tt one mah.. oops~ hahahaha.. k then

last last last last last..

good luck to every single soul in innova except some ppl (evil me) for this coming promos!! esp to me!! hahaha.. k i'm mad coz of e funny and entertaining experience in TCC, watching yan yan. Kaya roti, come to me~ hahahahaha..

evil~

I am 16% evil. Take the test :: koolplace.com

haha.. not true.. i'm very evil. VERY EVIL!! you should know =) I'm evil inside out, totally, every single cell.

whoa.. very tiring to do that thing up there, but it looks nice. =)

weirdo

Let's start talking from 31 august...

went to school as usual, went through all the mundane activities, reached the very last one, the celebrations of teachers' day. While people are enjoying their show, I was shutting myself off from my class, drawing and drawing, going through the day my way. Don't ask me why, I just suddenly felt like drawing, so i just drew. My whole class is right at the front, all high and enthu, while i'm just at the corner of the canteen, drawing quietly. Suddenly, a face popped beside me, with a pair of eyes staring hard at my "artpiece". The face with the pair of curious eyes belong to one of the teachers of my school. Like all those who had seen my irresistable "artpiece", she praised me, saying that my drawing's really nice. I just said "huh" as a reply, and she said that i'm supposed to say "thank you", which i replied "oh" without a "thank you". She merely chuckled and asked one of her student, who was nearby and staring at my drawing too, "very nice right?" and he agreed. Then another guy came and said that it's really nice.

You must be thinking (esp fred, coz you always say that), "this girl's being so proud of herself again, boasting and boasting". Well, perhaps, perhaps. But actually, I'm reviewing the comments i've received so far. Why do they think that I draw well? My drawing's nice just because it's so precise, so detailed, so small and fine, and done only with madness, nothing else. Everyone can do that if they want to, just that not many are as mad as i am to attempt. You just need a pinch of madness, 500 ml of patience, a Pilot G2 0.5 black pen, a piece of blank paper or just a blank space on a sheet of paper, if you're very mad, you might need a pen refill and another piece of paper. Ya.. that's all. You can try too, and you'll see what i mean that it's not that difficult.

Come to think of it, people seem to think that I'm what I'm not. Haha.. confused? I always hear things like "did you take art?", "are you from basketball?", "you mean you're not from track?", "you must run well right?", "you're a dancer?!", "you must be real smart right! Your school results are surely very great", "You must be from a very rich family to live in town", "You're 56 kg? But you don't look like it!"... ... ... ...

yeah.. great isn't it? great. I can bluff people even without the intention to bluff them. Cool like the container in crescent and the study room in innova right? Oh.. that happened when i'm playing bridge with my friends too. Haha.. it was funny when I wanted to cheat only one of them but ended up cheating all 3 of them, including my own partner. Hahaha.. I'm a pro.

Alright, so back to 31 august.. erm.. oh ya i was drawing. after some time, I was drawing to kill time. Waiting for everything to end and i can leave and meet kah yin and company to play. Finally, it all ended. Walked alone before Cassie joined. While waiting for my train, I saw Ming Yuan. She greeted me warmly (haha.. her "hei hei"s and mushy mushy stuff XD). She was with her sec school friends, going for an outing, a gathering. After that, saw Jason too. The first thing he said to me was "dao kia". Haha.. he's forever calling me dao, nothing new.

This is going to be a really really long entry. Giving up? bye bye then.. reading on? read on then.

Met kah yin and wai sze at Tanglin CC, studied (didn't even finish one qn) for a few hours until 5, when we went to play badminton. KP popped in, think he had intended to ask kah yin to play bball or sth, or just to say hi. Kah yin asked whether he wanna join in, he did. He doesn't seem that KP at tt time eh.. haha.. oh.. oh.. oh.. and that P2 boy brandon (not sure if it's spelt this way) is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!! Now i know why kah yin's so obsessed with him. He's irresistable! A really nice little boy. Haha.. lovable and adorable. So adorable that kah yin claimed that janice will stop hating kids so much when she meets him. Hahaha.. That's how adorable he is! Power right? Had a really fun time with him, made me feel like going there more often just to play with him. =D

Went to GWC with kah yin after that, when it's like 9.45 pm. Haha.. yeah. Borrowed 10 bucks from her, and bought, and bought, and bought.... MAYDAY'S LATEST CD!!!!! am listening to it now. Heh heh.. soooooooooooo nice!! soooooo soooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!! yay! thanks kah yin!

that's all for 31 aug.. proceed.. 1st sept.

nothing much on this day. Was supposed to meet up with kah yin to study and play badminton. Ended up sleeping till 3 pm plus plus plus.. heh heh.. sorry larz.. need to recharge since my life's a slow suicidal case. Watched Naruto!! I found out that my left arm has some kind of allergy or insect bites. I'm quite worried that it's allergy, or some kind of skin disease. Why am i worried? When i was younger, in primary school, I had 假麻. It's like rashes all over the body, very itchy, very uncomfortable, very difficult for me to sleep. I'm worried that it's that again.

lately...

I'm deciding whether I should stay as i am, which is an easier choice, or to really work hard, mug, do all my homework, study real hard. It's harder for me to choose the second one because i'm never determined, never persevered to the end. Always bored with what i'm doing, and switch to another task. Well, it's just that i suddenly have an intense feeling of being the second one.

wrote something in my drawing book just now,

"but suddenly you walk away from me"
That's The Waltz. As for me, there's a sudden urge of shutting myself off from the whole group of you and enjoy solitude. To prevent conflict, to increase efficiency as I raise my concentration level, to stop all these feelings of betrayal. With solitude, there's no need to trust anyone, no chance for any of you to betray me, to disappoint me.

No tears, no sadness, no diappoinment, no hatred, just peace and quiet, like death.

Am I being weird here or am i trying to be weird? I don't know, I don't care. That's just me, for now.

The things that i'm worried about, teachers' concern, whether true or feigned, participation in groups, something very important in future.

What do you think of my plan?

风吹着~

看着窗外那绿油油的草地，突然很想就这么坐在窗前，看着窗外的东西，安安静静的远离种种的束缚，压力。感觉风吹着我的脸庞，很舒服。但不知为何，有股很想哭的感觉。风越是吹着我的脸，眼泪越是止不住。就这样，我再一度莫名其妙的流下了眼泪。

其 实，当时我正在课室里，与几位朋友等着下一堂课的开始。我什么都 不说就突然坐在窗前的举动，令朋友认为我很忧郁。当时听到他们那么将是，还蛮好笑的，但那静静的感觉，让我不想笑。就在我泪眼迎眶的时候，同学叫了我一 声，便走过来把东西交给我。眼泪收不回去呀！只得大方得让他看到我流泪。我面带笑容的指着我的眼睛，叫他看。他却下了一大跳，还往后退了几步。哈哈。。。 男生真得那么怕看到女生的眼泪吗？哈。。。那是女生的武器吧！

tt jason arh.. cannot make it larz. Haha.. after he recovered from tt shock i gave him and put my homework under my file, he sat by the window too and attempted to do the same. After a while, he got up and said tt he's a good actor. Walked around, and told others tt his eyes have tears while the others thought otherwise.. Hahaha.. mine's more power larz.. you cannot make it arh jason.. haha.. dun think he had my blog add, tt's why i can laugh at him all i want here! Hahaha...

Feeling better!! =)

Went to school as usual with something not tt usual though it can be usual at certain times of school life. It was a continued stomachache/gastric/whatever kind of ache larz.. Had it the day before. And before. haha. past 12 am.. so it's another day now! Actually, it's still aching, juz not tt bad. =)

Anw, got back my econ essay test on production and cost yesterday. Heard that the highest in arts fac is 21/25. Wow!! *clap clap clap* what's my result? ha.. i'm far from tt 21/25, 10 marks away. But, i'm like still the highest in class? but this time, Ming yuan got e same result as I!! =D =D =D =D =D.. i think both of us muz have crapped a lot in e essay. Haha..

Oops.. I think Miss Lim found out that I don't give e full attention to e lecturer during econs lecture. Heh heh.. She saw my drawings inside e lecture notes.. Oops oops oops.. She even asked me about it.. Haha.. anyway, she thinks that i'm artistically inclined. Hmm.. Many people think that I should have taken art, but i think otherwise. Though I think that art will help me in my drawings, but I don't like to be forced to draw. It'll make me dislike drawing. My results for art in sec sch is not tt great anw, not really up to the standard. That's why i didn't choose to do art.

Miss Lim also asked if i'm interested in the animation and 3-D animation industry since i love to draw. I thought about it, and concluded that it is a possible path for me to take. However, as i flipped through e section of e handbook showing the courses in local Us, I don't see anything to do with animation. Haha.. did see some desinging courses though. Hmm.. perhaps I'll go to e poly after jc.. haha.. waste of time right.. should have gone there in e first place if I really wanna do designing/animation. So now, I can choose dance, business, animation, road sweeper (haha.. back up plan mah.. juz in case I really cannot find a job. XD) as a career. Hmm.. Don't even think I'm up to standard.

Well, gotta do homework -again-. i owe a lot of hw.. eeks~

-watching charlie and the choc factory with kah yin and mag tmr, i mean today-

Back to tt moody me

...I'm back to tt moody me...

After such a long time of happy and carefree days, I'm back to that moody me. I'm disliking school life again, finding it stressful and too demanding for me to survive. I don' feel like going to school, don't feel like doing work, don't feel like attending lessons, don't feel like studying. Being back to that moody me also mean that my tears can't wait to be released... go to school, go through lifeless days, walk around unhappily, attend lessons without the proper attitude. Today, I actually had thought, seriously, of going home once the back gate is open, and not attend all the other lessons because I'm just so unhappy. But I also considered how my parents will react if they got to know that I skipped lessons.

Why am I unhappy? What happened? I have no idea. I suppose it's just my regular fluctuations. Nothing new, happens all the time.

This time, it's even worse. I was actually thinking of destroying my own body in order to get myself out of school early and go to some polyclinic to get MC. What did I do? I was very hungry, but I didn't eat. So I had gastric, and was enduring the pain the whole time. During lunchbreak, I just sat in the little house with my classmates (who ate already), twirl my phone round and round, daze, lay my head on the table, continue dazing...

快流出来的眼泪最后却被逼回去了。我也 不知道我为什么会突然很想哭。就连现在，我还是很想哭。我知道我这么做狠傻，为了我自己都不知道的理由哭泣， 甚至搞坏我那已经快彻底的坏掉了的身体。 我想，哪一天我会就这么倒在地上突然死去吧！我这样的生活，会让我成为朋友圈子中，第一个过世的人。那一天到来的时候，希望你们不要太惊讶。不过，会有人 惊讶吗？会有人管我的死活吗？我觉得，我这样的生活，也算是在自杀吧。不过，与普通的自杀方式不同的是，我这是慢性自杀， 并不会立即见效。

无聊的生活。。。 无聊的来了，活了。。。 又无聊的走了。 生活就是这么得无聊。如此无聊的生活，不过也罢。放心，我并不会真的寻死，只不过是突然丧失了生活的原动力罢了。乏味的生活，反复无常的过着同样的日子，每天，每天。。。

我会就这么突然的死去吗？我不知道，你也不知道吧！

我就这样无聊的结束了这一切。。。 多么想真正结束一切的一切。

我又累了，又想休个长假了。又想什么都不想，什么都不管，什么都不做，就懒洋洋的躺在床上。

“别担心，你们就让我平静得走吧。“ 哪天，我若说出了这一句话，就真得让我平静得走吧。那一天，因该不会这么快到来吧。

想哭。 又不想哭。哭了也无济于事，虽然我也不知什么事。

seven swords

七剑
徐克作品

Well, i went to watch seven swords with kah yin today. Frankly speaking, I had wanted to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, but kah yin has to watch with Mag, so we watched seven swords instead larz. It was VERY the EXTREMELY cool!! =D except those parts where it's erm.. quite "bloody". To add on, my beloved husband's acting too!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... first time seeing him act in a movie. Actually, it's the first time i see him in something other than 《少年包青天》. Haha.. yeah yeah yeah.. he's none other than my beloved husband, 陆毅!!

yeah.. see him in this pic? he's e one to e right. -^.^-

So.. what's Seven Swords about? Erm.. about the seven different swords lorz.. haha.. it's a movie based on the book 《七剑下天山》 by 梁羽生.

At that time, no one is allowed to learn or practise any form of martial arts as the emperor feared that he would be overthrown. (something like that.. haha) And the emperor has a special group of people, or juz army, that fights all those who learn or practise martial arts. Each head was worth 300 taels of silver. And heads of a highly skilled ones, much much more than that. So that special group of murderers killed A LOT of people, until they got quite worried that there weren't many left for them to kill. They even killed those innocent ones, women, children.

Then this girl called 小武(nickname) from a village called 武桩 (if i remembered correctly. haha), after saving an old man who sort of fought those murderers secretly, was told by him that her village would be attacked very soon and therefore she has to go to 天山 to seek help. She went, along with her childhood playmate 志邦 （陆毅！）. They met another old man, who trained 4 young men to become highly skilled swordsmen. <-- is that what you call them? haha.. nvm. ermm.. ya.. so the 4 young men went down the mountain with the 3, each was given a sword and each sword is different, very different. Those are the seven swords and the people who carried them. =)

Of course, i believe you can predict what happened. They fought those murderers and succeeded in the end，but there are many many exciting parts in between. 你要亲自去看才能感觉到那部电影有多好看！=D

hooray for me!!

Finally, i changed my template. Haha.. erm.. actually it didn't have comments larz.. but somehow, i figured out how to put it there. Phew.. lil bro, now i understand how you feel le. haha.. I really very pei fu those who do all these mad stuff. Pro arh.. pro.

Haiz.. supposed to go to GWC with fat pig yesterday. But she messaged me to tell me that she's too lazy to go out le. So we cancelled our trip. So sad.. could have done a lot of work yesterday lorz.. In the end, I just sat in front of e com, looking for blog templates. Didn't do any work, though i had planned to do as much as possible. Then.. disaster!! My ma yelled for us to help clean up. I knew that would happen. Sigh.. So I had no choice but to help her out.

Finally, I'm done with Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince. Whew~ Cried at e last part, when dumbledore died, when harry thought of leaving his friends and leaving hogwarts to find the horcruxes and voldermort. How sad... Weeps.

Bought snowy margarine and cream cheese some time ago. Guess I'll eat a lot of bread! Carbo intake rises when metabollic rate goes down = addition to my fats collection = gain weight. Eeks~ Not good. Not good.

Am a slacker. Slacker, I am. Slacker is me!

Feel like eating pizza, or bread. Haha.. hopefully my pa and ma won't say anything.. hmm.. oh! and tt means I'll gain weight again! sigh.. can't be bothered now. Ha.. wait till i'm a fatty, then you can laugh at me.

To banglah tay, so what if i call you banglah tay? You are banglah tay!! hahaha.. =D
To lil bro, nothing much to say to you, but jia you, jia you, jia you!! oh ya.. and stop tt 74.8 thing le larz.

to pei he this new template, i shall add rainbow!!

Off to prepare supper for myself sneakily.. hahaha..

camping =(

got back my most recent math test (trigo). That day after e test, my frenz and i were making predictions of our results. I was right. I thought tt if i didn't get my concepts wrong, i might get full marks. I got close to that in reality, 19/20. =) That's enough already. =) =) =) I'm moving a step closer to my proposal!! =D

Juz in case you dunno about my plan abt e proposal, let me juz tell you abt my plan:

Some Background Information
As they changed our young math tutor to 2 boring teachers. Old, monotonous, weird, not fun at all. I start to really dislike math tutorials. Had been motivated to get an A for math 9233 aft my summer test, which i got a D grade when I had expected an F (I didn't study for e test, so didn't expect much). That's how I was motivated to get an A, coz i sort of know that if i work harder, i'll get an A. =) Unfortunately, they changed my math teacher. =( Now i don't like to attend math tutorials and i won't be able to pay attention and enjoy math, which is bad. =( However, I found a new motivation to get an A grade for math. =D

New motivation
As i grew to dislike attending math tutorials, i thought of ways to not attend it, or ways to attend it but do my own stuff. And here comes my plan for a proposal. =) My idea is that I'll achieve an A for my next math test (which has gone by already with A grade) and sustain that A for a time long enough for the teachers to believe in me, to have faith in me and be quite sure that I don't have much problems for math 9233. Why so? Because, I actually thought of coming up with this proposal to request for permission to not attend math tutorials as i find them quite useless for me since i can't pay attention (or juz because i find tt e teachers cannot teach?). If not, I might suggest that I attend math tutorials with my friends, but i do my own math works. =)

Yeah.. that is my plan. But i doubt that i will really carry it out, especially when J2 is coming nearer and nearer (that is if i managed to go to J2 larz. haha). It's just a daydream to make me feel better about attending e boring math tutorials.

Have to go to camp tmr le.. I don't want!! I don't like camps, coz i won't get enough sleep one!! I want to sleep! Another reason why i don't want to go, I'm afraid of heights and they are so going to make us go through all those obstacle courses which i think is quite pointless. Something like OBS mobile is much better lorz. =( And none of my frenz pushed me down e steps today, so i have no choice but to go for the camp tmr. =( =( =( I'll cry my whiskers out while climbing up e high steps to somewhere so high that I wish to die than to stand there. Sigh.. can someone replace me for those obstacle courses? Please.. please.. please.. sigh...

25号的一堆字

嗯。。。 以下的一堆文字都是二十五号写的。有些被删除了，因为太personal了。=)

被人爱的好深好深的感觉是怎么样的？爱热奶的好深好深又是什么感觉？单恋是什么感觉？两厢情愿又是什么感觉？到了这年龄就是会开始想这种事吗？我的心中有好多好多的疑问啊！有人能提供我所有的答案吗？我想我别无抉择吧，只得亲身体验，自己领悟，自己寻找答案。

其实，我现在的观念是“爱情可有可无，不是必需品”。那我又为何会一直去想呢？不过是好奇，想体验一下罢了。遥远的未来里，爱着我的那个人，现在在哪里呢？

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就这样，我什么都不想做。只想懒懒散散的发呆，想事情，休息，偷懒。当日子越来越难过，压力越来越大的时候，我越想休息。当对我的要求越来越多，越来越高时，我越想偷懒。为何得那样的把知识硬塞进我们的脑袋里呢？日子镇难过！假期块到来吧！

抓狂

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突然之间，感到很空虚，很虚伪。跟朋友在一块儿时，闹啊，闹啊。朋友一离开，突然好寂寞，突然好安静。已经好久没这样的感觉了，我到底是怎么了？最近也没什么特别的事发生啊！一天之内，我竟然有如此多的感触，已是第三章了。

突然之间，好希望有个依靠。好希望有个人让我依赖，在我寂寞的时候陪我，帮我解闷，都我开心。好希望现在就有这么一个人出现在我眼前，立刻。虽然是有几个肯陪着我的人，但没有一个是跟我同校的。

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realised that i actually removed quite a great deal from my original copy. Many things inside are way too personal to be posted here for everyone to see. Ha.. oh ya.. it's the end of the 25 july things already. Here on, it's today's entry.

Hmm.. that fred said tt he dreamt about me, a bad dream, he claimed. Of course right, any dream with me inside is bad. Haha.. however, his dream doesn't seem to have a plot. Shall i say what he dreamt? nah.. haha.. anyway i also dun really know what he dreamt about. Go bug him then!! Go now, go! HAHAHA.. i'm evil. I did that on purpose so tt people will go bug you, fred. Hmph! Not like they will though. hahaha.. eeks~

I'm mesmerised by someone's handwriting. It's soooooooooooooooooooooooooo beautiful. It's chinese writing arh.. anw, it's really nice. I think it has a character, attitude? haha.. dunno larz.. just find that it's really beautiful! And if i'm not mistaken, it's actually a guy's handwriting. Wow like wow right.. (erm.. stop smiling to yourself, it's not you. XD) I don't know how he looks like though, but i think i would rather not know. Just need to look at the handwriting. It's sooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice!! How i wish i can write like him. Ha! It'll take me eons to be able to write like him. eeks~

Got back our result slip. Miss Lim's remarks for me is :

Simin is a pleasant girl and contributes actively in group work. She however has to learn to be punctual and come to school on time.

Yeah.. you must be laughing your whiskers off now right... And my conduct is fair. Which my friends claim is due to my latecoming. Haha.. I was late this morning again. sigh.. hopeless arh. haiz.. have to see Mr. Koh again, then do detention again. Haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. Haaaaaiiiiiizzzz.....

Got back my econ MCQ test on production and cost today. I got better than my summer test, amazingly amazing. I got 17/20.. and one of e 3 marks tt i missed is totally soooooooooooooooooo careless. so sad.. e other one got a wrong concept, and e last one cannot differentiate between the choices.. hahaha.. see larz lil bro, all your fault arh.. tt i lost 3 marks. Hmph.. all your fault! I don't care, it's ALL YOUR FAULT!! XP

Miss Lim's comment on our MCQ test made me 哭笑不得. She said, "The highest in our class is 17/20. And not surprising, it's xiaohei again." Ermm.. what can i say. I think arh, if this goes on, I'll become soooooooo complacent that i'll just play 24/7 and end up getting Fs for every subject, which is really bad. =[ complacency is bad for health. Hmm.. my comments for this MCQ test, it's easier than I had expected it to be. After doing the test, I was quite relieved. Haha.. at least I thought that I can pass the test. XD Erm.. actually, I tried studying for the test the day before, but i just couldn't stand the boredom, and chose to sleep instead. Ha.. so I ended up all panicky right before the test. That was the time I did my TYS qns. Luckily I did my TYS qns, because some of the qns are similar. So it's really last minute work. And also, it's a little based on luck. For example, i don't really know what's implicit cost and explicit cost. Sort of got the two mixed up. So i just made a guess, and I guessed correctly, and got the right answer. Haha.. lucky bugger right. Conclusion? TYS MCQ helps a lot in MCQ tests! So in order to do well in econ MCQ tests, go do your TYS. =) Yeah.. that's my advice. Ermm.. as for luck, I can't really give you tips larz.. haha..

No one believes that my results for Summer tests are really due to luck. I passed my math, coz for most qns which i didn't really know how to do, I got e first line right. Haha.. so i got a lot of 1 marks here and there. Which are added to my other marks and tt's how i passed. Ahh.. anyway, if you call last minute work "study", then okay larz.. i sort of studied. But please take note that my "last minute" is REALLY last minute. It's different from most people's last minute. Take math as example again. I only started doing qns the night before e math test. Only managed to do a few qns, so didn't have enough practice. Then, right before the test, I was reading through my math lecture notes to cram things in. I forgot to read MI coz i was too confident in MI. In the end, I forgot the steps to solving MI qns.. sigh.. still got a few marks though. Yeah.. last minute work. Econ, I "studied"(did some mcq qns, and read through those tt i didn't understand to try to understand) for like 1 or 2 days. If you take abt an hour a day for 2 days as 2 days, then it's 2 days. haha. act i read a little at the beginning of the holiday, but of course, it's holiday. Do you think I went on studying. I'm not the kind who will continue to study.. haha.. yeah..

Just from econ mcq, you can't really see if i really know the concept well, because most of e mcq qns are e same. If you do your tys, you'll sort of know the answers. *wink* as for essays, I think tt's e one that will reflect on what you know abt econ. Which is precisely why I do badly for essays.

Haha.. lazy miaow miaow can't help being lazy. Time for the cat to sleep..

Topic of the Day!!

Before I begin on today's topic, I would like to comment tt my chinese blog is currently facing a slow death.. haha.. I post my chinese entries here too!! That's weird. Hmm... Shall i just close my miaowupmiaowdown and just post everything here? Ah.. I shall just leave it there and post some new entries when i feel like it. =) Any other suggestions?

Nope.. it's not the beginning of my topic of the day yet. MAMA!! COME BACK!! I miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you, my harry potter and the half-blood prince!! haha.. just kidding. I plan to try my best to clear up my undone work before kinia's back with my harry potter. If I'm able to be VERY unlike me, i might be able to work ahead, then I can devote my time to Harry Potter! =)

Topic of the Day

"I feel that teachers should never say that a student is hopeless, gone case, has no brains and things like that. It is a taboo!!" (said by miaow miaow) Please comment

Just an introduction to why I thought of this so suddenly. Well, I guess it's really easy to guess. One of my various tutors just said something like that. But she was more specific. As I'm trying to set a topic, I feel that it should be a little more broad.. ya.. hahaha.. broken engish. I'm "breaking" the english like a broken englisher.. HAHAHA..

In GP, we are grouped into 4 different groups based on our summer test performance (summer test = common test). As I only got 45.5, I was in the last group (Haha.. not afraid to admit this. come suan me larz..>=]). We asked her to repeat her question, and she said something like, "Arts students can never listen. They have zero concentration, zero IQ... ..."

Before I continue, please understand that I most probably am biased in this entry.. Very biased because I'm against teachers who think in this kind of way. This is my first experience of this kind of humiliation and dehumanisation and you know what? I HATE IT! Eversince my third year in Crescent, I HATE this kind of comments from teachers. You might ask, why do i have such a strong feeling against it when i had never really experienced it. Well, though i had not experienced it, I have friends who are being treated that way as a whole class. I condemn this act of dehumanisation!

The thing that I would like to highlight is the part about zero IQ. She's not being fair. The principal, vice principals, lecturers, tutors all said that we are the top 25% of our cohort. Being able to make it into a JC meant that we have what it takes. Now, she is contradicting herself, contradicting the whole team of educators in Innova. Of course, that doesn't mean anything. My argument is that arts students are not equivalent to bad students. Some people think that arts students are not as good as science students because the cut off points in JC for science is always lower than that of arts, and that students who are in the arts faculty are those who cannot make it to science or are those who cannot study. This is not true! I doubt that she thinks in that way though, because she being in this career meant that she knows more about how these things are. I think that she looks down on the whole of innova, or most. Just because there are people getting 20 does not mean that we are stupid and have zero IQ. If you're going to judge people like that, then bless you.

Making comments like "You're hopeless", "You have zero IQ", "You are stupid", "You should be in the Poly" and things like that, is a taboo! At least that's what I think. To me, it shows that you are not professional. You're not really into this teaching career. You're teaching because it's your job, but not because you love to teach and want to teach us young people. Teachers should never make this kind of comments even if they are really frustrated. It really strengthens the barrier between teachers and students. That's bad. =( If you say things like "You all don't listen", or "you are just so lazy", I won't be so agitated because those statements are true. It's true for almost all cases of students who perform under expectations. It's true for me, especially the part about laziness. I'm just so lazy. I wonder where I'll be now if I had been hardworking. Hmm... SAJC with kah yin? Or at least NYJC. Well, but i'm just lazy. I admit that there are things which we can never get along well with. For example, I can never get along well with history, unless I study 24/7. Haha.. I'm completely opposite!

When I told my classmates about what my GP tutor had said, one of them said, "You should shoot her back and say, 'Hey! You're talking to someone who got 'A' passes for all subjects.' "

Haha.. actually, when my GP tutor made that unforgivable comment, I had thought about something like that. I was thinking, if I really have zero IQ, then how had i managed to pass my subjects? Of course, all this while, i had been saying that I'm really lucky to pass, but it's not just luck. The luck made me pass of course, but the truth is that I didn't even put in a considerable effort and that's why I had expected to fail my math, econ and GP. Which is 3 out of 4 subjects. If I have zero IQ, why do my friends in crescent think that I'm really mad to be able to pass math with A1 when i didn't really touch it, didn't do homework, always got chased by Mrs. Gek. Or pass A math with A2 when the same things happen, didn't do homework, got chased by Mrs. Gek all the time. If i have zero IQ, what had made my friends think that if i had studied as much as they had, I would get around 10 points? If i have zero IQ, why are you expecting so much from me? I'm not trying to say that i'm smart, but am trying to say that I do not have zero IQ. Hmph you arh... >=P If you don't like us, just say that you don't like us!

Haha.. didn't really say much about my topic of the day.. Just said how i feel towards my GP tutor's comments

eh.. you think too highly of me?

Quite amazing larz.. First, my math teacher came and ask if I need the trigo one solutions, to check my answers and perhaps teach some of my classmates. Ha.. think too highly of me le.. My math also not very good now what, it's a D grade now.. so pathetic right.. haha

Then, my CT came and chat with me on her way to staff room. She told me that I should target higher than my fellow classmates for my A level subjects, because she thinks that I have a certain level of thinking skills. Haha.. yeah.. you don't believe it right. well, i don't blame you, because I can't believe it too. >_< hahaha.. My friend asked me to do math with her, so that I can teach her math too. That's like, wow... All of you think so highly of me, and I'm scared that I will be a disappointment. You expect so much from me, yet I can only offer so little! Haha.. actually, I can offer more than that, but i'm too lazy to work. So... well,erm.. just don't give me too much pressure and I'll appreciate it le. =) I don't want to disappoint any of you, so please don't expect too much of me. Ya.. that's all. =)

Oh.. and my results for summer test, if you're interested:
GP - 45.5
CL A - A
Math C - D 36/70
Econ - E 46.4
(if my math C got C, it'll be so cute larz! A for A, C for C, E for E.. hahaha.. oops. sorry.. =P)

I'll think of more discussions if I have. =) Till then!

eh.. setting up a 讨论会 here =)

今天的问题是。。。 啊！哈哈。。。少在这里看到华文字吧！就如标题所显示的一样，创造了一个讨论社。为何不在华文博客设这讨论会而在这儿设呢？我爽就在这设你想怎样？哈哈哈。。。 对， 对。。。今天的问题，那就是

男女之间能有纯友谊吗？

哈哈。。。如果你又看到广告或什么的，应该不难发现我是从电视上取出 这题目的。我认为，这是个有趣的题目！因此想要大家发表意见！用英文或华文都没问题，但是要在comments登出，而不是在tagboard。=) 希望大家能够踊跃参与这次的讨论！哈哈。。。sounds so funny, because not many people come to my blog.. in fact, i'm quite sure it's less than 5．X D oops.. well, just give me your comments larz.. i'll type my comments here =).

My comments:

虽然有许多人都说男女之间无法拥有纯友谊，但我却不那么认为。我相信 人与人之间，无论是男或女，都有可能存在着纯友谊。为什么会成为朋友呢？ 情投意合？个性相通？谈得来？常在一块儿？兴趣一致？真是选啊！我们为什么会成为朋友呢？哈哈。。。我无法回答，因为我知道会成为朋友不是只有上面所提到 的几个原因。大家也想想看吧，为什么我们会成为朋友呢？

据节目所说，会成为朋友代表着对方有一点是吸引你的。因此很有可能会 跨过那条隔开友情与爱情的线，而发现自己其实是以另一种方式喜欢着对方。我同意这种说法，但这并不代表男女之间不能够有这纯友情。理清了自己的感觉，心 情，想法，就不难发现自己是以什么方式喜欢这一个人。

老实说，我并不能够说很多，因为之前的四年里，我都是跟女生在一起的，根本就没有异性朋友。嗯。。。我算是经验不足？哈哈。。。还是当局者迷，旁观者清？哈哈哈。。。越扯越远了。

end of my comment. am going to talk abt sth else

也许是因为到现在，我没真正喜欢过一个人吧！也或许是由喜欢过人，但 那种心情不够强烈，不是喜欢到很想告诉那个人。我想说的，是也许是因为我没有经验，所以才会认为喜欢一个人，就该直截了当地告诉她/他！虽然有可能面临被 拒绝的厄运，但至少你知道对方是怎么想的啊！至少你知道他不喜欢你，而你就不用再烦恼着他是否对你也有感情之类的。把握时机吧！

爱情是个必需品吗？哈哈。。我不知道。我没经验，所以不知道。我没体 验过，所以我现在认为没有他，仍然能生活。现在，对我来说，爱情不是个必需品。有，就有。没有，就没有。你也知道，爱情是强求不来的。如果爱情是必需品的 话，拿我现在就是个流浪猫，等着好心（但倒霉 XD）的人，把我捡回家好好疼，好好养，好好爱。那个人何时会出现呢？我不知道。哈哈。。问题是，世界上真有那么一个人，也正在等着一只可怜的流浪猫吗？

现在，对我来说，朋友在我生命里扮演着很重要的角色。因此，我想借此 机会，向所有的朋友说声，谢谢。谢谢你们这段日子以来，一直支持着我，关心着我，陪着我，容忍着我，爱着我，守护着我。我真得很感谢你们！我不是个好东 西，能够拥有你们这般朋友，算是非常有福气的吧！我耳垂的形状，我圆圆的鼻子，都代表着我是个有福气的人。这就是我的福气吧！很对不起，常让你们讨厌，常 把你们逼得快疯掉了。这种感情，是金钱所卖不到的东西，是无价之宝，是珍贵的，是要珍惜的。你们都是好人，因为你们肯跟我交朋友，跟我这只坏猫作朋友。

谢谢你们！友谊万岁！

The things I HATE about you

Yeah.. i have to admit that for my past 17+ years, you had been a really good mother to me. You are still a good mother, really. However, I am a rebellious daughter deep inside. I rarely talk back, close to never. But right now, I really feel like talking back. I sort of envy people who are able to just tell their parents what they want, to talk back. At least they made themselves clear. I really wish that I have the courage to talk back. I really wanted so much to shout back at her, "你知道我最讨厌你什么吗？ 就是你每次不懂装懂。 每次只会在我退步的时候指责我，而不在我进步时夸奖我。 你就不能看到我如何往好的方面走吗？你就一定要一直说我会有此结果都是我自找的吗？你就不能说点好的吗？我在你心里真的就是那么糟糕吗？“

Of course, I did not do that. The only time I remember i "talk back" is when I was doing a card for my teacher and she came up with some suggestions, which I did not accept. She got a little unhappy and said some things, which made me unhappy too. I forgot what it was about, but that was the only time I ever "talk back". To others, it's not even what they call "talk back", it's just telling her something. I really envy how my friend can just talk back to her mother when she really felt that her mother is doing something wrong to her, or maligning her etc. How i wish that i can do that too.

When i improved, you did not say anything to me. No encouragements, no praises, nothing. But once the condition turned for the worse, you immediately pointed it out, and shoot at me. Is this what you call the traditional chinese way of treating your children? If that is the traditional chinese way, then that is something I HATE about my tradition. Do you know that sometimes, it's not the fact that you're pointing something bad that will make me change for the better, to strive for improvement, it is in fact, the encouragements and praises that do the job.

你难道不明白什么是软硬兼施吗？有些时候，用硬的不行，就得用软的呀！

I tell you something so that you can see a change in me. But you just said something that totally hurts me. I have feelings too! I know that it's been hard for you to be a mother, but can you just stop doing that to me? It really makes me cry a lot. Can't you just see that I don't like it that way? I had never talked back in my whole life, but if you want my "first", then continue doing that. I'm sure one day, I will grant your wish of me talking back for the first time. I'm feeling bad because I want to do something but I just can't bring myself to do it!! Why did you teach me to be like that? Why didn't you teach me to express myself better? To tell others how I feel? It's killing me!!

I also hate the way you embarrass me. Telling things which I want to be kept private to relatives and friends. Are you threatening me so that I will stop doing all those bad things and start doing everything you want me to do?

一个小学生都有自尊心了，更何况是我这个十七岁的女生？你能告诉舅舅他的儿子是有自尊心的，为何你就不能了解到我也有自尊心？说到来，你也只是会说不会做，嘴上说得头头是道，但所作所为却跟你说的有差异。

I had told so many of you that "hate" is a strong word, but here I am saying things I HATE about her. Yeah.. I'm using "hate" because I think that dislike is not a strong enough a feeling to express how I feel towards some of the things she does to me. Perhaps I will regret in the future or be ashamed of myself for using the word "hate", but for now, I'm just trying to relief my anger, my fury... so that I won't do things that I'll regret forever.

Joke of the day

Well, once again, the joke's not from me but from kah yin. After her "famous five" and "batman returns", i didn't expect something hilarious from her again. However, she proved me wrong...

The two of us were walking towards the cinema. I saw a poster, "War of the worlds", and i said that I want to watch that movie. we chatted a while, about the movies we want to watch, and she said "Oh! And I want to watch the movie 'Mr. and Mrs. Jones'." X D Of course, i stared at her, and asked, "Mr. and Mrs. what?" She got my message, but didn't know what's the actual name. Well, she's really... best at twisting the movie titles. It's Mr. and Mrs. Smith!!! I told her the actual title, and she laughed. Luckily for her, I think I'm the only one who heard that. But, unfortunately, I'm spreading it through my blog!! hahaha.. not like a lot of people read my blog though. X D At least the few of you will know =)

Hmm... Batman's cool! and rich! and black! X D

bruce wayne -> batman -> black -> bao zheng -> my husband !! -> hooray!! -> X D

Eh.. read this entry to laugh...

I'm not sure if it's funny to you, but I think that it's really funny. It's about kah yin (fat pig) and the things she said. Ever since i got to know her, she had said some very funny things, but I am only going to talk about 2 very recent ones. Eh.. yesterday, I went out with kah yin and janice. We were talking about movies in the bus, and kah yin mentioned something about "don't-know-what four". *I started laughing* After we told her the title of that movie which she referred to as "don't-know-what four*, janice told us about "Famous Five" and "Secret Seven" and went on joking, saying that it's called "Famous Four". Poor kah yin.. she got all confused and said "That Famous Four movie .. yadda yadda... ". *janice and I laughed*.

Well, and if you thought that was funny enough, kah yin said something funny again today. =D

On our way to Cold Storage in GWC, kah yin told me "Hey! I want to watch that 'Batman returns' eh..". *I laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and ... ... ...*

Eh.. sorry if you don't find it funny, but i seriously think that it's very funny. She's just so interesting. Now you know why I always tease her. XD

oOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOo

Just in case you don't know, the "don't-know-what four" and "famous four" is actually "the fantastic four". And "batman returns" is supposed to be "batman begins". =D

Thanks arh ppl...

Hmm.. this entry is to thank 3 people who told me the same thing:

"You're destroying your own body day by day"

And that's exactly what i am doing now, sleeping late!!

Well, the first person to tell me that was my mum. She said that to me a few times, unhappily of course, with some anger >=( . Well, it's quite irritating, but I know that she's just concerned about my well-being, my health. I know she cares about me, so stop trying to tell me that I shouldn't blame my mum whatsoever, because I do know that she loves me. That was the very serious way of telling me the "... ..." up there.

Hmm.. the second person to tell me that was less serious. In fact he sounded as if he was joking, or perhaps only I will think that he's saying it in a jokingly manner, i don't know. Well, the second person was Fred the Fanglah. Haha.. yeah.. Fanglah! I created that, but he used it. It's okay though, because i don't plan to use that. Not nice. One of the origin of the name's not good. Haha... heh heh heh.. you're ill and i'm not!! But to be polite, i shall ask you to take care. Ha.. I'm so polite, i know. Thank you, I'm welcomed, I'm so polite, thank myself, I'm welcomed... ...

And.. The third person .. no, no.. I mean, the third living thing to tell me that "... ..." was fat pig. Haha.. yes, yes... I'm mean. Heard that comment a million times already! Heh! =D She asked if I slept late when I told her that I'm tired. I said yes, but it wasn't just that I slept late. Then she told me "... ...". I told her that it was partly due to the fact that I've been dancing for the past few days, that's why I was so tired. And she replied "GO AND SLEEP NOW!!" Haha.. can't deny that I was shocked to see that. She's seldom so aggressive. =P But i thought that it was quite funny too, haha.. laughed to myself, a little.

Well, yeah.. I just want to thank the three I've mentioned above, for showing their "care and concern" in various ways. haha.. oh.. and to GK, don't worry, you're not that much of a bad influence, because i'm much worse than you! =) So, I am the bad influence!! Hee~

As you all can see, i'm still destroying myself now. It's already 2 am!! heh heh heh... My mum asked me to watch tv, and the movie ended at 12.30, so i used the com. Until this time. But don't worry, I'm going to sleep now. Yep. I'm tired. Just hope that i'm not too late tomorrow. =P Yeah yeah.. I'm a lazy bum. One of my previous lives's a lazy pig, can't help it.

Last but not least, I shall pray, to any god that exist,

please let me grow taller!! please let me grow taller!! I just need 3 cm, that will do!! Please! Please! Please! Come people, come pray with me, to let me grow taller, and I'll thank you forever.

Haha.. that's all for "Miaow Miaow's life at 02:00". Thank you, and good bye! =^o.o^=

开心的时候，我都跑哪儿去了？

好少在这里用华文，感觉有一点儿怪怪的，会吗？我刚刚到喵上喵下blog了，所以就干脆用华文输写在这里说废话。=) 没错，没错，都是废话，别读了，去睡吧！

在我的博克里，记着好多不开心的事情。放心，我当然不是一直都那么不 高兴的。我也有开心的时候！不过开心的时候，通常都回去玩，或做一些我喜欢的事情，因此很少会把开心的事记下来。对我来说，一个人通常都是快乐的吧！所以 开心是很平常的事啊，不怎么需要写下来嘛！哈哈。。没错！我实在找借口，其实我只是懒惰罢了！你可以这么说，但你仔细想想，我们是不是大多时间都算开心 呢？因此，当我们一旦伤心的时候，便会记得很清楚。因为那是比较少发生的事情。

我现在不算很开心，但还是开心，还是不伤心，所以才会那么乐观吧！在我的博克里，这算是一篇罕见的文字吧！

啊！开心就是要把心打开吧！就是把心事都说出来了，所以开心啊！那关心是什么呢？这个好难解，我那只懂得胡言乱语的脑袋，怎么也想不到！你想到了吗？

一整篇的胡言乱语，乱七八糟的东西，有影响到你吗？哈哈哈。。你也要变得跟我一样疯了！

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I want to have things my way!! GEt losT!!

我 是个任性的孩子，我没用，我不想承受这一切！！ 放我走吧！！放我走吧！！放我走吧！！把我留着也没多大用处，就让我走吧，放开我，让我自由，好吗？不要把我逼疯了好吗？你一定是知道我无法说“不”所以 才会那么做吧！我不仅仅是在一方面被束缚着。我已经很痛苦了，你们为何还要那么做？放我走吧！！让我快乐，不好吗？

Book Recommendation

A Boy Beyond Reach by Cheri Florance

• Misunderstandings
• difference between autism and Florance Maverick Syndrome
• how our minds work differently - visual and verbal
• a mother's love and determination

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i think one reason why i like this biography is that I have a cousin who's diagnosed to be mildly autistic. While reading this biography, I kept wondering whether my cousin is really autistic, or is he just like Whitney? A boy who was trapped by his inability to communicate? I used to see him every week when my Aunt came to visit my grandma. After my grandma's death, I only get to see him in special occasions eg. Chinese New Year, wedding banquets, death anniversaries of my ancestors. He's really adorable, and he always put on this smile that is so innocent and charming that it makes you smile too. We should focus on his abilities and not his disabilities, as Dr. Florance had said, though I can't be sure whether he is really autistic or was he just unable to communicate.


"Florance describes in touching detail the agonizing journey taken by her family to help Whitney escape a bleak future" SUNDAY EXPRESS


"One cannot but admire Cheri Florance's love, courage and steadfastne ss in the face of adversity"TLS

miaow miaow's dead

I'm dead for my GP summer test today. Haha... I had wanted to sleep through the comprehension. Sigh.. it was so boring, and I slept late e night before... I dozed off, seriously. First, my mind was blank. Then, my eyelids were so, so heavy that I can no longer hold them up in position to reveal my eyeballs. That's when i dozed off.. haha.. but it was for a very short while only. I did that quite a few times though, so i don't think I can pass my GP. Hmm.. that means I have to do the GP homework well in order to pull up my marks, and try to get better results for e promos, which isn't called promos in my college. Ha...

Then we had our "Be Yourself Day" celebrations. We watched performances by drama, malay cultural club, chinese orchestra, wu shu, taekwondo, musician's club, cheerleading, Mr. Tommie Chen... ... Ermm.. what can i say about all these? Okay, drama has 2 performances. Pretty boy performed and some of my classmates were so excited. haha.. e chinese orchestra was great!! Especially the girl standing in the middle, she's mad like a madder!! <-- fred's way of saying. Haha.. (see larz.. influence miaow miaow larz.. tsk tsk tsk... bad whoopee.. bad bad whoopee!!) She's quite cool in a way. The malay dance was quite fine, very malay dance. Haha.. if you know what i mean.. coz malay dance is quite gentle and slow? Ha... whatever larz.. then there's wu shu. Oh!! I got things to say about this wu shu!! I'm so, so, so, so... ... ... disappointed when I watch the wu shu's performance. I thought that I would be able to watch some great stunts, but nope.. erm.. it was quite boring actually. Ha.. sorry to say that. Perhaps i'm too used to watching my lao shi's stunts and the things he teach us (mostly to the guys though... ). Sigh... disappointment. Unlike wu shu, taekwondo was very entertaining!! There's a black belt! A blue one, and a red? haha.. and e girl with the black belt, yes it's a girl, she's the star player in our basketball team too. Then this guy with the maroon belt was leading the whole group of them. He did a kick that's sooooooooooooooooooooo high.. yep.. soooooooooooooooooooooo high. There's this plank for him to kick which is erm.. the height of a 170 person with his arms up? yep. the wood plank was all the way up, and he kicked it. Cool~

Then there's tommie chen's singing in canteen. Can't really say that it's nice, but still can pass, I think. Ha.. well, at least he performed. He's the only teacher who performed today, apart from the Wu shu coach. And the musician's club performance was a little disappointing too. The guy sings quite well, but ermm.. i don't really know why actually. It's just not as i had expected it to be. Drama in canteen was once again entertaining. Haha.. quite funny. Oh.. then there's cheerleading. Erm.. what can i say? I think that they lack training larz. Can see them putting in the effort, but they lack training. They need to learn some other skills, to make their cheerleading more interesting. The whole cheerleading, was just some girls being carried by some other girls.. and they just keep repeating that. Also, it's always the same girls being carried up. Ha.. so, it's a little boring due to the fact that what they can do is quite limited. Hopefully the next time we see them, it'll be much better! =) Oh.. for the guys to know arh, a few of the cheerleaders are chio like a chioer.. oops.. ha.. i mean they are very good-looking. Yeah..

This reminds me of something my crez dancemate told me. She said that her brother told her that crescentians only know how to look at chio bu but not shuai ge.. haha.. how to look at shuai ge when we don't have them in our school?! I also don't have shuai ge to look at home.. oops.. haha.. it's okay. I don't think my brother has my blog add, dun think that he'll read my blog anyway. Haha..

--Dinner time--

My birthday was yesterday

Born on the 24th, you have a greater capacity for responsibility and helping others than your may have realized.
You may also become the mediator and peacemaker in inharmonious situations.
Devoted to family, you tend to manage and protect.

This birth date adds to the emotional nature and perhaps to the sensitivities.
Affections are important to you; both the giving and the receiving.

Do you think tt it's true for my case? Got this from my fren

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

poor fel...

first, i wanna sing..

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to miaow miaow... ... ... happy birthday to me!!!

haha.. sounds so lonely right.. hahaha...

poor fel being teased by all of us, but she juz love us, so she will be able to live with all these.. hahaha..

Messages to my frenz...

I remember there's this time, when my biological brother was talking on the phone. He was telling his friend about the girl he likes, and he said something like that, "aiyo. i really don't understand you girls arh. When you say yes, that means yes. When you say no, it also means yes. So you mean yes or no?" Haha.. yeah.. I can't help but agree to that. Sometimes, girls don't mean what they say. Girls seem to want the guys to find out themselves, to feel how she really feels, to know what she was thinking and what she wants. Guys, if you can do just that to your girls, to find out how she really feels, what she's thinking and what she wants, I salute you!! Haha..

And fred, I don't understand the whole thing about the feminity. You care to explain? I'm just being myself what. I don't really see a change in myself. I don't want to be confused over too many things, so if you don't mind, please explain and not confuse me. I have enough confusions already.

Little brother, thanks for being there all this while! It doesn't matter if you can't really give me good advices or what, what matters is that you are willing to listen. Haha.. I just need someone to share my problems with because they are full to the brim and are going to overflow. So i need to try to at least empty some of them, to make space for more. Haha.. whatever it is, i really thank you for just being there when I need someone to listen. Thank you!! You're a good little brother, and I'm a bad elder sister. Haha.. Oh ya.. thanks for all your comments in my chinese blog! I appreciate your effort to make my blog more interesting. Heh.. =P

~摇啊摇~

Ha.. my mood swings really fast. I was in a quite okay mood juz now, all of a sudden, while playing GB, the whole mood swing thing begins.. then I felt more and more unhappy. Hmm.. But this time round, it's not that bad. It's just a "natural phenomenon". haha.. it's that kind of mood swing that will take a short time to swing back to normal.

Had been a stray black cat on thursday again. Yep yep!! I forgot to bring my keys again, so have to wait outside for my papa to be back. So i waited for about 40 minutes. Was soooooooo hungry until i don't feel the hunger. Ha.. then my bro came back and I finally can get in and eat. Can't help being blur and forgetful, it's just me...

Love this song "break away" from kelly clarkson now. It's quite normal for me to like this song larz.. but there's another song that i like leh.. and tt one's a bit weird larz.. haha.. it's called "the girl from ipanema"... jazz bah.. haha.. it's nice larz... tt's why i like, coz i normally dun really listen to jazz one... so you should go and listen to that song too.. really nice.

And to all, I seriously seriously seriously HATE e F word. Juz in case you don't know. Don't ask me why. You can say that i'm weird or whatever you want to say about me, but i juz don't like that word. It's too vulgar. You can say that word, i'm not banning you from saying that word, but if you really treat me as a friend and respect me, please try , juz try, not to say that word in front of me. If you still want to say it, then go ahead, just don't be surprised if i stare at you coldly or suddenly go very quiet. Ha.. Why do i say this? Coz juz now, I was playing GB with frenz, then this non-friend used tt f word.. which totally pissed me off, especially when i was in the midst of my "bad mooding".

less than half an hour...

Miaow miaow had experience of being a stray black cat today. She had forgotten to bring her keys and was unable to get into the house, so she sat at the stairs and started her experience as a stray cat. But less than half an hour later, miaow miaow's uncle came home, and the door was opened, and miaow miaow was no longer a stray miaow miaow!!

Well, reached home quite late today.. i mean very late.. Only stepped into the house at about 2130. Had dance practice until 1930, then the back gate was locked, so i had to walk all the way back to the front gate to exit. Took a very long route to reach the MRT station, cannot use the short cut because it had been raining and the land is all muddy and wet.. not good, not good. =P

Oh!! This thing is important!! Children, listen up!! Innova Junior College is going to organise a dancXathon, target 24 hours. There will be dance performances done by students from IJC, and dance organisations/societies outside, might also be involving people from other JCs. Haha.. it's for charity larz, raising funds for both IJC and the Olympics thing.. if i'm right it's for those handicapped competitors, you know.. It's either in late september or early November. Must come and support okay? I think I'll benefit a lot from this danceXathon coz can watch a lot of different kinds of dances consecutively. If we manage to hit our target of 24 hours of non-stop dancing, then we'll be able to carve our names in the Guiness World Records!! Haha.. so must support us alright!! I mean all of you out there, you better come and support arh.. or else.. or else.. or else.. you know larz..

Homework overload.. Every subject got something to complete by tomorrow... can I skip school tomorrow? haha.. I feel like doing that, because I'm really very sleepy and there's no time for me to complete anyway. Nothing big's gonna happen tomorrow, ermm.. oh got econ test.. sigh.. I want to sleep!! zzZZ .. wonder if my papa will allow not.. doubt so. Well, perhaps i'll be a naughty girl and don't wake up tomorrow morning larz.. I can't stay alive throughout e night too as i am really tired.. seriously tired. Want to sleep for more than 15 hours leh.. Pray hard.. that my papa will let me do so.. but i still doubt there's a chance. haiz..

G and G

Girls and guys are different. Girls drop faint hints everywhere, guys are more straightforward, their hints are more obvious and are easier to catch. Guys have to learn to be more sensitive, to be more aware of the hints the girls are dropping everywhere. Girls have to learn to be more understanding, that it's not the guys' fault that they can't catch the hints, because they just can't.

Me? I have to learn to stop crying so much, which I think is going to be something that i'll always be trying to master, the art of not crying.. ha.. i'm such a crymiaowmiaow... can't help it larz.. when i really can't take it, i'll just burst into tears.. so don't get scared if you see me crying suddenly horz.. coz it's normal... miaow miaow cries a lot.. i used to cry to get things done my way, you know.. but that was when I was still a little girl. Now, crying doesn't let me get things done my way.. haha..

让我告诉你

女生，是需要人家疼，是需要人家宠爱的。我多么希望能够找到一个能了解我的人，能听我讲心事的人。我多么希望能够找到一个所谓的“同类”。我一度以为了解 我的人，其实根本就不知道我在想些什么。这个世界上，其实就没有人了解我嘛！知己难寻，那些有知己的人，你们是幸福的。至今，我都没有找到过一个知己。什 么时候才会碰到呢？一个真正了解我的人。

我是在博取同情？或许吧！随便你怎么想，反正脑袋是你的，我也不能控制你的思维。一个人，往往都会有她伤心，难过的时候。而现在的我，正是出于这个时候，但是，我相信过不了多久，我又能恢复平常了，我就是这样的。我管你喜欢不喜欢，我就是这样的！

让我告诉你们吧，如果你们还没发现的话，我事实上是个很可恶的女生，非常的可恶，坏到了极点！我根本就是个败类，根本就不是个好东西！你们最好里我远一点 吧！因为我现在心情非常之差，不知道会作出怎么样的坏事来! 不要受到伤害的话，就不要接近我！等这一切都结束了之后，我就会恢复平常了，而你可以选择继续来找我，或选择永远都不在接近我。选择权在于你，我没资格控 制。

各位切记，在你说话之前，请先三思，否则伤了别人的心也说不一定呀！这句话，也是要对我自己说的。因为我是个坏女生。

*这是一个因为我一时冲动而写下的感触，因此难免会有点奇怪，有点夸张，或有点严重。请别在意，向我所说的一样，等一切结束了，我也就会恢复平常了。我多么渴望能够回到平常的日子呢！

Rubbish entry..

This is a rubbish entry. There's nothing much to write about, but there is just this one thing that i want to tell my friends about. For those people out there who had read Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, let me tell you something quite fascinating. My principal actually looks like a real life Professor Umbridge, without all e pinky stuff and e big bow on the head. Haha.. I know I'm very mean to say that, but that's the first thing that came into my mind yesterday when i saw her in the morning. =P Hehe.. i think that if Warner Brothers are going to have an audition for the character Professor Umbridge, my principal will be the best one ever.. Hahahahaha.. oops.. it's just a comment, not trying to be mean okay... though i am mean.. hehe.. some day, you should take a look at her.. haha..

I'm tired

It's been quite a while already... and I'm very tired. I really am. I just don't want to think about so many things anymore. I don't like this kind of lifestyle. I don't like this kind of me. I just want to take a very long vacation, to worry about nothing, to enjoy, to relax, and most of all, to find myself back. The 2 day MC, was not long enough. I want a really long vacation. Can't anyone just push me down the steps? just injure me so badly that I can stay at home for a real long time? Perhaps it's better to just push me down the building, then I don't have to worry anymore. I'm not that crazy.. don't worry. I know that death does not solve problems, it creates more problems.

When I had thought that crying helps me a lot, but just for this stupid thing, it doesn't. This stupid problem just doesn't want to go away. And it just makes me cry even more. It's haunting me, when I'm alone, it'll force my tears to out. When I am sad, it'll make use of the opportunity to make me feel even more horrible. It's just so...

I hate myself and I hate you!

Today's a bad day for all black cats

The beginning and ending of my day's bad. It may not be as bad as your worst day, but believe me, it's really bad.

As usual, I was late for college. But this time, it's not entirely my fault. I admit that i woke up late, but that's not the only reason why I was so late for college. As my father drove towards the gate at my apartment, it refused to open. No matter how many times my dad tried, it just refused to open. Deep inside my heart, I was shouting to my dad, "Just ignore this gate and head for the other exit! Stop wasting time on this crazy gate! I'm going to miss the next train if you continue playing with this gate!!" I was pissed with my dad, but at the same time, I know that it's wrong to be pissed with my dad. See, I'm always feeling guilty for all these things and that's why I never really shouted to my dad. I seldom or actually never talk back to my mum and dad. Either I'm scared of them or I just feel that they don't deserve this kind of treatment. When my dad finally decided to move to the other gate, time was running out. As he drove towards the junction, I prayed for the traffic light to stay green, but it just decided to go against me. So, I missed my train, and was very late. By the time I reached college, morning assembly has already ended and people were moving towards the canteen area, so I just stayed at the canteen.

College was better than I thought after that horrible morning, besides the part about PE, which is quite tiring.

Then, when I reached home, my uncle had decided to spoil my day, by asking me to help him type this whole list of accounts stuff, which I cannot refuse to, since I'm part of the family. He just asked at the wrong time. The last time I did that for him, I was actually supposed to study for a test the next day, so i wasn't really in a good mood. I made a lot of mistakes and print a lot of copies. This time round, I was careful not to make mistakes, i even asked my brother to help me check for mistakes when he reached home. When my brother confirmed that there's no mistakes at all, he clicked print, and the printer started to print. BUT, no ink came out. The paper was blank. Okay, so that means that I had done all those accounts stuff for nothing at all since we can't print it out.

You call that a bad day? I'm thinking of asking my dad for a day off tomorrow. I'm ill, I had a bad day, there's no test tomorrow, what other reasons do I need? I just hope that i'll be so ill that I need to go to Dr. Yim's place, then I'll get an MC. Then I will have a valid reason for my absence from college. Sigh.. just let me cough cough cough to death

Though I find that you are unfair sometimes, I know that you still love me

For people out there who have siblings, have you ever felt that your parents are biased? That they love your brother or sister more than they love you? That no matter how hard you try, they still won't love you as much as they love your sibling? Well, that's how i feel sometimes, that's how i feel right now.

Sometimes, I just feel that my mother loves my brother so much more than she loves me. I know that it's only natural for her to feel sorry for my brother each time he returns from his camp as his training is really tough, but she's just way too nice to him as compared to how she treats me. For example, if my brother used the computer for too long a time and did not come out for dinner on time, she simply joked, "I think that your computer has a virus that makes you stick to it and not leave." But if I were the one using the computer and did not show up for dinner on time, she will not joke about it at all. She either let my father handle the problem, or simply shout for me to have my dinner right away. Don't you think that it's very unfair? When my brother is back from camp, he mess up the room, and my mother doesn't say anything to him at all. Once he left for his camp, she will then complain to me that the room is too messy and ask me to tidy up the room.

Though she does all these things that makes me think that she's so unfair, I know that she still loves me. I'm still her daughter, and she's still my mother. It must be hard not to be biased since no one is not. I know that she didn't mean to make me feel worse when my day is bad. She just doesn't know that my day is bad. It's not her fault.

They turned to question marks!! All of them!!

Sigh... I'm having trouble writing my blog in chinese language. Wonder how I am going to complete one entry that is filled with chinese characters instead of question marks... Sigh... And the worst thing is that my brother is not here to help, he had gone back to his camp last night. So sad!

Something good happened though, my brother had either downloaded or rip the song "Fly Me to the Moon" sang by Frank Sinatra. Hee... It's a nice song!! Now Fred can't laugh at me because I have that song in my computer already!! There's also "Moon River" and "New York New York"!!! Ahh.... I rarely listen to songs like that, so they must be real nice since I like them! Hehe...

Sigh.. How am i supposed to show my chinese teacher my chinese blog?! I'm so so dead. I think that i'm left with no choice, but to do my chinese blog thing in IJC. That is if there are computers with the right programme available there!

I'm a Late Queen

Heylo everybody!! Please do not expect me to reply your messages these days because I can't sms or make outgoing calls now. Sorry if you had thought that I ignored you or something. Oh.. and sorry if you actually were worried about me because I usually will reply your messages. Really sorry!

Well, let me update you on my life now. As some of you should know, I'm not in a good emotional condition these days. Am feeling better already, so don't worry too much okay? Life in Innova currently is still quite fine. Timetable's not packed yet, so I have a lot of free periods. Language lessons only start next week, so still don't really know how's the chinese lessons in Innova. Economics's lecturer seems to be quite strict, math seems a little boring at times, not sure about the others. As usual, I'm late for college. Unfortunately for me, I was very late today, reached college at about 8.30, which is half an hour late, and i got caught by the principal. She reprimanded me of course, in front of a whole group of students who are having their PE lessons. She asked for an explanation, and i gave her my explanation of course. She doesn't really seem to believe me though. I told her that I was really tired yesterday, that I had slept for 12 hours, but am still feeling tired. And she had actually thought that I was giving some kind of excuse. Hmph.. whatever. I know that my explanation doesn't sound convincing, but it's e truth. You chose not to believe me and that's your problem then, I can't change your way of thinking anyway. So just go ahead and think that I'm lying to you. Go ahead! >:( hmph

Life's quite unpleasant for me these days. Had been sad for quite some time already, especially when I'm alone, because that's when I will start to think about a lot of things, a lot of sad things. Then I'll start getting moody again. Sigh... I miss everyone!! And i do mean everyone!! Including you felicia!! I miss my wife too!! Love you wen si!! Haha...

Happy April's Fool everyone!! But all e things on top are true larz. Hehe...

I cried again

Dear friends, you want to know the truth, I tell you the truth! Indeed, I wasn't fine just now, that's why I cried. But don't worry, I'm perfectly fine now. Well, almost perfectly fine. Hehe... I cried because I was feeling troubled, but after crying, I felt better. So, don't worry okay? Oh, and just in case you misunderstand, I did not cry because of my unsuccessful appeal into NYJC.

miaow--------->NYJC = impossible!!

I just got a phone call from IJC today, the person asked me about the subject combinations i've chosen, because i think i'm e only one who chose an art course and a science course... haha.. weirdo. Then after explaining to him, he helped me check if i'm qualified to take chinese A, as i had forgotten to take a look at the list of names outside a classroom. And, I passed the qualifying test! That means i can take chinese A! Sigh.. but that's in Innova. I still wish to get into NYJC... Sigh once more...

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad

I am so sad because i'm posted to innova. I want to go to nanyang junior college! Not that innova is a horrible college or anything like that but i just want to get into nyjc. It's a better jc, is nearer to my house, have my subject combination, and has many of my friends there!!! I want to go to nyjc. For those people out there reading my blog, I just want to tell you that chanting doesn't help. I've been chanting "pls let me be in nyjc" for how many million times already, but in the end, I'm still being posted to innova. Sigh... my life's a disaster. Just let me die and stop torturing me. If not, please let me live by making my appeal successful.

I tried appealing to nyjc, and even went for their choir audition today. I so desperately want to get into nyjc, so can you just let me get into nyjc? Please just call me on the 28th or 29th, and inform me that my appeal was successful and that i can join nyjc. Please just let me get into nyjc, please! I know that chanting doesn't help, but seriously, please just let me get into nanyang, please let my appeal be a successful one. Please let me be one of the few who are so lucky to be able to get into nanyang. Please just let me get into nanyang!! Guess you can see how desperately I want to get into nyjc... But, i just have this bad feeling that i won't be able to make it through the choir audition. I just got this very bad feeling that i won't be selected to join nyjc. Please don't let my bad feelings come true, I'll just die on the spot! Why can't they hold a dance audition, then perhaps i'll have a higher chance of getting in there. Sigh...

Let me just say for one last time, please just let me get into nanyang junior college. Please!!

Am back from chalet!!!

Hehe... went to chalet with my friends. Only 6 of us stayed there throughout the whole thing. Choon Wee went home, because I forgot to tie him up. Haha... Stupid Choon wee, hmph... hairy, must be you! Never take good care of your choon choon, that's why he left. =P Haha... For those guys who taught me how to play mahjong, I'M ADDICTED TO MAHJONG!!! Haha... too bad you people didn't want to play mahjong throughout the night, went to play PS, hmph... left me alone. HMPH... so i went to sleep... Hairy, your slap was really painful, but never mind because I allowed you to do it. See, I'm so nice right. Haha... never mind *evil grin*. You just wait... just kidding. haha... that's all, nothing else. Nothing else to read le... ... ... why are you still reading?! haha... love me so much arh.. stop reading liao larz!!! HEY!!! i said stop reading!!! haha..

Updates!! Updates!!

Haha... got people read my blog?! Muz be very bored, then nothing to do, so read my blog right? haha... Hey hey... seriously, i'm nervous about the posting results. It's like life and death. Haiz... Hopefully i'll be able to make it to NYJC. I wanna go nanyang, i wanna go nanyang, i wanna go nanyang, i wanna go nanyang, i wanna go nanyang... does chanting help? I wanna go nanyang!!! Hehe... seems like quite a lot of people are going there. Should be more than 5 of my friends want to go there too. Please let me get in there!!! Please please please please please please please please... Haha... Nothing else.. Haha.. nothing to read le.. bye bye

Boo my results!

Boo my 'O' Level results!!!!! It's so... so... so... bad. Hmph... my L1R5 is 16 but i had actually expected a 14. Boo... i thought that my add math would get a 1, but i got a 2... so sad!! Don't want to talk much, just that i'm still deciding if i should go to sch tmr. Haha.. no mood at all