Can we cry ourselves dead?

人能够哭死吗？

感觉好笨，好傻。这一切犹如梦境般，

是个美梦，

但梦醒了却连一丝丝的幸福也没从梦中带出来。

这是一场美梦，

也是一场恶梦。

不愉快的一天，从早上开始。其实本来是还蛮不错的，但渐渐地，所有事情都跟我作对。就这样的，直到跟朋友聊天后，才渐渐比较好了。但是，后来又从我同学口中听到一则坏消息。本来我没事的，但在我最后一个人搭车回家时，和在地铁站等雨停时，我开始想那则坏消息。越想越辛苦，但又很难不想。就这样的，我现在并不快乐。

跟某个人谈话时，似乎总会让我感到很伤心，很难过。尤其当我心情差的时候。就像现在一样。他所说的话，总会让我很想哭。这不是他的错，或许是我太情绪化了吧。这或许也是报应吧。

I shall now classify e good things and bad things of e day.

good things:

1. I passed my DRQ for e first time (pls dun laugh at me >.<)
2. i managed to catch my train though i woke up late and showered
3. I ate ice cream at Gelare with frenz after PE =)
4. Drank pearl milk tea too!!
5. Heard something new about him

bad things:

1. Though i managed to catch my train, i forgot to bring my PE T-shirt
2. no one can lend me PE T-shirt.. end up buying my 4th one
3. PE was disgustingly led by a stupid shortie who makes me so >=(
4. I expected sth to happen but it did not
5. Though i heard sth new abt him, it's bad news
6. it rained hard when i planned to go home straight and stone in my room
7. i cried for sth someone said (dun worry, it's not you mel)
8. i actually thought that i should keep everything to myself from now onwards (not sure if i really am gonna do this though)

Come to realise that I shouldn't expect too much. Because when i expect sth to happen, and it doesn't happen. I'll feel disappointed, and sad. That explains why my general mood today isn't tt great. So.. I guess i should expect e worst so that i won't be disappointed.

Life is a vacuum cleaner [ON]