mood = everything

Came to realise that our mood really affects the way we see things.

Was watching pride and prejudice just now, again yes. xD And i felt differently from e previous tiem i watch e movie. Last time, I felt sad through e whole movie though there are some parts that are rather sweet. This time, I felt sweet through e movie though some parts of it are rather sad. xD Perhaps that's because I know that there's this happy ending, so all e sad moments are part of e happiness. =)

This leads me to another topic. Perhaps one of the reasons why we're so afraid when in love is because we don't know what's going to happen next. We fear the unknown. So.. because we don't know e outcome, we don't know what will happen, we become afraid. Guess that's how i feel. It's the unknown. I don't know if he likes me or not. That's the unknown for now. xD But well..

Another thing mentioned in the movie, when lizzy is in a conversation with charlotte. Lizzy claimed that jane does like mr. bingley but charlotte says that jane doesn't show her affection enough (jane's a shy person who often keeps things to herself). Then charlotte said something that really sounds logical. We often need encouragements to continue liking someone. In a way, i'm kinda like waiting for that encouragement to come. It came to me some time ago, or at least i thought it came... but for now, i need more to go on. That's why i'm waiting. But.. to be pessimistic and realistic, I doubt it's gonna come. So... whatever.. i'm not in the mood to feel sad about this matter today. xD Today's quite a crazy day.

Now i'm thinking if i'm happy today because i've gotten over it and am moving on with my life or is it just because I didn't see him at all today. Whichever it is, I'm glad that i'm in quite a good mood today. =) Gives me a break at least.